Just so you all know, I am a HUGE DL shipper but when I wrote this I was in one of my 'I hate cheating men' moods, so that may have influenced the writing slightly XD. Also the song cam onto my itunes and I thought it fit perfectly with my mood.

Disclaimer: Own nothing, never have, never will.

Baby you're so beautiful
And when i'm near you i can't breathe
A girl like you gets what she wants
When she wants it
You're so out of my league
I show you no emotion
Don't let you see what you're doin' to me
I Imagine the two of us together
But I've been livin' in reality

Fear of rejection, kept my love inside
But time is running out
So damn my foolish pride!

I don't care if you think i'm crazy
It doesn't matter if it turns out bad
I've got no fear of losin' you
You can't lose what you never had

Now i'm gonna confess that i love you
I've been keepin' it inside feelin' i could die
Now if you turn away baby that's O.K.
At least we'll have a moment
Before you say goodbye

(you cant lose what you never had)

Rules Are made for breakin'
Nothing' ventured nothin' gained
I'll be no worse off than i am right now
And i might never get the chance again

Fear of rejection, kept my love inside
Told my heart I didn't want you but i lied

I don't care if you think i'm crazy
It doesn't matter if it turns out bad
I've got no fear of losin' you
You can't lose what you never had

Now i'm gonna confess that i love you
I've been keepin' it inside feelin' i could die
Now if you turn away baby that's O.K.
At least we'll have a moment
Before you say goodbye

Here on the outside lookin' in
Don't wanna stay dreamin'
bout what could have been
I need to hear you speak my name
Even if you shoot me down in flames

I don't care if you think i'm crazy
It doesn't matter if it turns out bad
I've got no fear of losin' you
You can't lose what you never had

..I'm gonna confess that i love you
I've been keepin' it inside feelin' i could die
Now if you turn away baby that's O.K.
At least we'll have a moment
Before you say goodbye

You can't lose what you never had
You can't lose what you never had
You can't lose what you never had
You can't lose what you never had

Lindsay Monroe stalked into her apartment, refusing to let the tears fall. She was strong dammit and she wouldn't let this bother her. She would carry on with her head high as if nothing had ever happened.

She'd returned from Danny's apartment, and this was the cause of her bad mood. He'd refused to let her in again, refused to admit she knew what she was talking about, refused to even give her the chance to stand by him.

Refused to admit that he'd cheated.

Because deep down, she knew he had. No matter how much she wanted to ignore the feeling, no matter how much she wanted to pretend that he was still grieving. He'd still cheated, even though she'd offered him all the chances in the world to open up to her.

And what was worse is that she knew it had been with Rikki. That hurt the most by far. She didn't need him to admit it, just as she didn't need to him to admit that he's cheated. It was just something she could sense. Lindsay had had plenty of experience with cheating boyfriends, both inside of work and outside of work. She knew all the signs. She could see it in his eyes when he refused to make eye contact with her, when he refused to talk to her outside of work.

What hurt almost as much was that this was Danny who'd cheated. Supposedly the same man who'd flown out to Montana, the same man who'd held her when she cried, the same man who'd spent almost two years trying to get her to give him a chance. She'd been wary of having her heart broken, wary of becoming the next notch in Danny Messer's bedpost. She'd heard of his reputation. But eventually, her heart had won out. And look where it got her.

Picking up the photo of the two of them taken at the team's annual Christmas party, her knuckles went white as she gripped the frame. Tears poured from her eyes as she saw what they used to be, what they used to have. Or at least, what she'd thought they'd had. But maybe that was lie. Maybe everything he'd told her was a lie. She didn't know the difference anymore.

She hurled the frame away from her, curling up into a ball on the floor as the glass shattered and the frame splintered. She clenched and unclenched her jaw so many times she began to get a jaw ache. She couldn't believe she'd let herself become this vulnerable. That she'd allowed herself to fall for this man. That she'd allowed herself to love him. How could she have been so stupid? Men were all the same. Sooner or later they would cheat, and then most would be too cowardice to admit it.

She jumped as she heard a knock at her door. She knew it was him. But she refused to open the door, refused to even acknowledge that she was home. It wouldn't work she knew, and she knew he wouldn't go away, but she refused to give in. She needed to be strong, needed to prove that she could manage without him, that she could stand up to him without a second thought.

"Lindsay, if you don't open this door, I'll kick it down. Please, we have to talk."

She ignored him, cowering away from the door as she heard him banging. She tried to wish herself away, tried to pretend that this was all a dream. But she knew that she couldn't when she heard his key in the lock. She swore to herself, why had she ever given him a key? Why had she thought she could trust him? She stayed in the corner of the room, waiting for him to come and find her. She'd done enough, had tried her hardest to help him but now, he was the one who had to do the work. She refused to be part of this game any longer.

She heard the door close behind him, heard him walk across her hardwood floors, the echoing of his footsteps resembling the beating of her heart. He stopped in the doorway, eyes taking in the scene before they settled on her in the corner. Taking a step forward, his feet crunched on the glass of the broken picture frame, and his eyes widened when he saw the remains of what was once a happy memory. She saw him gulp, but still could see the determination in his eyes to talk to her. He came and crouched down in front of her.

"Lindsay, please. Can we talk?"

Her voice came out harsh, gravely. "So know when it suits you, you want to talk? Well you know what, I don't want to talk. There is nothing to talk about."

His eyes locked with hers, desperate locking with angry. "Linds, I'm so…"

She interrupted him. "You're sorry? About what? Pushing me away? Cutting me out? Hurting my feelings?" She could see the hurt in his eyes at her words, so she decided to continue. "Sleeping with Rikki? Is that what you're sorry about? 'Cos you have a funny way of showing it." She hissed, taking some small victory from the way he recoiled from her.

"How did you…?"

"How did I know? Well lets say this isn't the first time I've been cheated on."

Danny looked down at his feet, ashamed. "I'm sorry. I didn't do it to hurt you."

Lindsay laughed, the sound coming out like nails on a blackboard. "You know what, I don't care. I don't care anymore. Clearly you didn't care enough about my feelings, so why should I care about your apology?"

Danny's eyes widened, his expression looking like she'd slapped him. "Course I care about your feelings!"

"What before or after you cheated!! Or maybe even during the time you cheated? You wanna talk, ok lets talk - was she any good? Was she better than me? Did she make you scream like I could?"

Danny gripped her shoulders. "Dammit Lindsay, you know it meant nothing!"

"Well it clearly meant more than our relationship. I thought maybe I was upset because we'd lost something special. Clearly I was mistaken, I can't be upset - I can't lose something I never had." Lindsay finished quietly, feeling her heart break as she realised the truth behind these words. She stood, trying to move away, but she was pinned to the wall as Danny too stood up, refusing to let her past until he'd had his say.

"Dammit, just listen to me! We do have something! And because I was a jackass I screwed up and we lost it. What I had with her meant nothing! Nothing at all. No matter what you believe that is the truth. I felt guilty for Ruben's death and didn't want to load it on you. You mean more to me than anything and I didn't want to bring you down with me!"

"So you lied to me, and cheated on me! What, was that supposed to be an easy alternative?"

"No of course it wasn't."

"What do you want from me Danny? Clearly I was no more than an occasional fuck buddy, and obviously my use has run out. I thought maybe the fact you spent two years chasing me meant something, but obviously not."

"You weren't and you know it."

"Do I? Do I really? Well you cheating kinda gave me that impression!" She ducked under his arms trying to escape, but he grabbed her arms and held her to his chest.

"Get off me you bastard!" She screamed at him, hitting him on the chest with her fist, trying to release all the pent up anger and pain she felt. Her screams turned to sobs as they stood there, him rocking her as she cried.

"Why did you do it? Why didn't you realise that I loved you?" She sobbed, still hitting his chest but without much force. Her small frame wracked with sobs and she leant against him, trying to stop herself gaining comfort from his embrace.

"Because I didn't know what I had until I'd lost you. I didn't think you'd want to see me the way I was, I didn't want you to think I was weak. I didn't want you to think it was my fault that Ruben died. Because I didn't want to admit that I loved you, 'cos I'd never felt anything like that before. I didn't want to admit it then lose you."

"If you love someone, you let them help you. Not do this to them."

"I know. God I know and I haven't stopped thinking about it. I just want the chance to make it up to you."

"I think you should go."

"Lindsay…"

"Please. Just…go. Now. I don't know how to handle this right now." She turned away and shut her eyes, knowing that if she looked at him she would give in. She felt him let go of her, and heard him walk away. Just before he reached the door, she heard him say "I'm not giving up Lindsay. I'm not giving up on this. I'll prove that to you." And with that, he walked out of the door.

She stood still for a long time after that, everything that had just been said running through her mind. She didn't know what to do anymore. Didn't know whether she should forgive him or just move on. He'd sounded sincere, but she just couldn't tell anymore.

Sighing, she went into her bedroom, leaving the broken glass for the following morning. She found another photo of them on her dresser, and she looked at it for a while, before putting it back face down.

Maybe forgiveness was possible, maybe she could forgive him for what he'd done. She just didn't know yet.

Sorry to all the men out there, I know this was a little harsh and that not all men are like this. Bad experiences can influence you, ya know?

Reviews are appreciated and welcomed with open arms :)