" Hey Jake can I come down?" I asked desperately.
" Sure, sure" he replied quickly
" Be there in a few"
I needed to see Jake. Ever sense Jake came into my life he's patched up the wounds. I had to breathe and seeing Jake was the only possibility of me doing so.
Charlie wasn't home and I was kind of glad because I didn't want him to ask questions. I ran to my truck and almost slipped, but that wasn't going to stop me.
I wasn't sure if I could do what I was about to. To ask Jake to love me was going to be a big step. I needed to be loved though. Part of me was mad at Edward (I had to force his name out) and another part still yearned for him. But I had to accept that he was not coming back.
" I hate you Edward Cullen" I broke down in sobs.
I pulled over and put the truck in park. I put my head on the steering wheel and I just sat there letting the tears pour. I closed my eyes.
. . .
I woke up and found my self on Jake's couch. I sat up and on the floor was Jake. My Jake. I looked at the clock hanging on the wall. It read 4:30 A.M. I slept the day away. I didn't even realize. I laid back down and stared at the ceiling. Asking myself questions. Does Jake love you? Will he love you? Do I love him? I kept asking myself those questions.
A howl pulled me from my train of thought. I knew what that howl meant. Jake had to patrol for the pack for me. I quickly closed my eyes before Jake could find out I was awake. I heard him get up and he gently touched my face with his hot hand. His hand felt so good on my face. I wanted so badly to take my hand and hold his to my face. But I was afraid. Afraid to love him, afraid he wouldn't love me. I opened my eyes and he was walking away. "Jake" He turned toward me " Yeah" he looked a little sad " When will you be back?" I tried to pick a good question, but I also needed to talk to him. " Soon. Don't worry Bells honey, I'll be back."
" I need to talk to you." I was getting nervous. " Talk to me now" he came and sat on the floor next to me putting his arm on the cushion I was laying on. I asked the first question that came to me. " Do you love me?"
" You know I do" he had a surprised look on his face. " Why do you ask" It all came out in a blur. " Because I think I'm in love with you Jacob Black, and if you don't love me Jake, I will understand." He stared at me with different emotions playing across his face. A few long seconds passed before he spoke. " You have no I idea how long I've waited for you to say that." And before I knew it his lips were on mine. I loved the way his lips felt against mine. I intertwined my hands around his neck and in his hair. He carefully sat me up and put his hands on my back pulling me closer to him. I was happy for once.