A/N: I was listening to Skillet when suddenly... a wild fanfic appeared! Well, enjoy! It is in Kanda POV but can be read in Allen POV... but it's supposed to be Kanda talking to Allen.
Never Surrender
Do you know what it's like when
You're scared to see yourself?
I meet your eyes in the mirror and I see you shudder. I know the expression you wear by heart. It's the same I see everyday. The fear in your eyes, reflected on the mirror. The fear of seeing yourself, seeing your broken and damned body. The fear of your own reflection. I know it too.
Do you know what it's like when
You wish you were someone else
Who didn't need your help to get by?
Sometimes there's sadness in your eyes. Sadness, like a silent wish. When our gazes cross, you almost look like you're begging me. Begging me to take your life. To allow you the death you've been waiting for. I won't give it to you. I won't give you what I couldn't have.
Do you know what it's like
To wanna surrender?
You don't have that right. You have to fight, not to live but to die. If you don't, they won't give you death. Only slow agony until you're begging to go back to the battlefront. And fight. Trust me, I know you want to. But you can't. We can't. I already tried more time than I can remember.
I don't wanna feel like this tomorrow
I don't wanna live like this today
Make me feel better
I wanna feel better
Stay with me here now
And never surrender
All you can do is surrender to me like I surrender to you at the dead of night. With the silver complicity of the moon, you make me cry and I make you yell. You take me down and I bring you up. The only solace you can find is in my arms and the only serenity I can find is in your arms. Take me til I can't feel anything else than your fingers digging in my scalp and I'll take you til you can't feel anything else than my nails scraping your skin.
Do you know what it's like when
You're not who you wanna be?
I'm jealous of you sometimes. I'm jealous of the way everyone seems to accept you even if they never understand you. I, sometimes, wonder what it would feel like to be you. But I understand. You show me the real you and I realize you're just like me.
Do you know what it's like to
Be your own worst enemy
Who sees the things in me I can't hide?
You can't escape your own gaze. You stop in front of the glass but you don't watch outside. You watch the shadow behind your back, you see the lies behind your smiles and you notice the tears spilling behind your eyes. You hate yourself and you try to forget your reality by seeking comfort in someone who loathes his own reflection.
Do you know what it's like
to wanna surrender?
Make me feel better,
You make me feel better,
You make me feel better,
Put me back together.
But I love you. I love the way you crumble under my touch, the way you unravel between my lips and the way you fall to pieces over my stare. I want to crash, to break and to scatter in your hands, to bleed and to revive by your bites. Pain makes me feel alive and my teeth makes you come true and bare under my shaking body.
I don't wanna feel like this tomorrow
I don't wanna live like this today
Make me feel better
I wanna feel better
Stay with me here now
And never surrender
I love you and I'll stay with you forever. I promise.
I'll be the one to kill you.
Put me back together,
Never surrender,
Make me feel better.
You make me feel better,
Stay with me here now,
And never surrender...
A/N: God, I love this song... I'll be glad to hear what you think so please review :) !