Fallen Shadows
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Drabble for actualodinson's 30 Day Dark Fandom OTP challenge
Day 17: 10/17/14
Prompt: Death fic / grief.
Summary: I just stand here in the rain, waiting for the day where you would once call my name. It would be loud, it would be proud. But now I'm left picking up the pieces of what once was. Things can never be the same. Collection of Drabbles. SEQUEL to SOUNDLESS MELODY
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It was like the sun was blotted out, dripping darkness with every sunbeam falling from the sky. Everything to me seemed overcast, like there was no longer any reason to move on.
Why did it have to happen to him?
Staring at the solemn block of stone. A tear fell down my cheek.
Things had never been the same after that incident. But even then, he stuck by me. Even though I knew he was uncomfortable, that he didn't know what to make of my new disability. He wanted to leave, his love for me was fading away fast, and leaving a more awkward friendly love that should never progress at all into anything more. To him at least, to me, I was still in love with him. Or maybe I love him, not with him. I loved the idea of us together, of obtaining my college sweetheart and staying together throughout life. I became blind to his faults. It was just when the dam of all of my repressed emotions and hurt built up and collapsed, overflowing viciously that I woke up.
And looking back at my memories, I can't spot the exact moment I started falling out of love. I can't spot the exact moment when everything changed. Because it started before the incident really. But it was all a blur. It wasn't one sole isolated event. It was a combination, a whole slew of moments in time where I wanted it to end. Where I wanted the romance to die away and only leave the comradery behind.
And looking back in time, I realized with all of my heart what I should have understood all those years ago. Maybe then the both of us wouldn't have suffered so much.
Because he stayed with me even when I was mute.
But he fell out of love with me back in college.
And I fell out of love with him some time before I lost my voice.
But now it was only standing in the rain, waiting for the day where you would once call my name, or that infernal nickname, out once again, loudly and proudly, that I recognize what I am feeling.
This emotion inside of me, it just wants release. I was left picking up the pieces of what once was. Things could have never been the same. And I tried so hard back then to deny this. And you did the same. The both of us did. But now, I understand.
I am no longer in love with Aominecchi. I don't think I ever was in the first place.
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