A/N: Hello, hello! I literally woke up this morning with the idea for this fic in my head and after planning and writing, here we are!
Because I have liked more of Archie in this season, I liked the idea I had of Emma going to him after giving the ring back. This is slightly inspired by the second sneak peek as well with Regina's line, "You have to stop holding everything in." as I love how much Emma has progressed and grown over the seasons!
Reviews as always are greatly appreciated and I apologise to any potential typos there may be! If there is enough interest, I will write another chapter for this - I have a few ideas!
Enjoy the episode tomorrow!
Keep Smiling!
Emma walks into his office, shutting the door quietly behind her. She believed this would be a good idea, had called up and managed to get a cancelled appointment, but now she is in the room, Emma isn't so sure anymore.
"Emma!" Archie exclaims in pleasant surprise. Emma walks over to the window, hands shoved deep in the pockets of her checked coat. "I wasn't aware that we scheduled a session. I thought that things were going well for you since our last talk."
Emma remains silent for a moment. She tries to find the strength to talk about everything, to just blurt it all out, but the past two nights have been filled with laying on the couch, staring at the ceiling and being unable to sleep. Now, she just feels emotional.
'No, Emma Swan. No more crying.' she tells herself firmly.
She turns around from the window, arms crossing tightly over her chest. Tears suddenly come to her eyes and she inwardly curses herself. A lump forms in her throat, preventing her from speaking.
"Emma," Archie's voice is slightly hesitant, not wanting to push her too much. "is this about Killian?"
Emma nods after a second and moves to the couch. She sits down on the end closest to the door, angled towards Archie so her back is against the armrest. She draws her legs up to her chest, wrapping her arms around the limbs; hands playing with each other. Archie sits down in his chair, leaning forwards to show that he will listen.
She tries to say something, anything, but struggles to form the words. Archie notices this, and the way that her thumb is absentmindedly rubbing her ring finger on her left hand.
"The beginning is always a very good place to start." Archie offers, hoping it helps Emma.
There is another moment of silence.
"Killian proposed." Emma says, eyes fixed on her legs. "I found the ring in his sea chest when I was going to put the rest of his clothes in his drawers since he didn't get round to it. For once, I didn't want to run. I was excited to take that next step, excited to allow the dream of never being alone to become a reality. He proposed in our home, the place where we would build our future."
Emma trails off.
"Something happened, didn't it." Archie says, listening intently.
"I came downstairs the morning after and saw him in front of the fireplace. He had a dreamcatcher showing a memory of him killing David's father."
"Were you angry that he kept that secret from you?" Archie questions.
"I know the man in that memory isn't him anymore. I was angry that he was going to burn the memory and not trust me after everything we have been through. I was angry that he didn't let me help him, support him like we should be doing. I was angry that he didn't let me in when he felt so scared and unsure." Emma says.
She raises her hand to run through her slightly tangled hair. Archie gives her the moment she needs, sitting silently and processing what she has told him.
"I gave the ring back to him." she says quietly. "I told him that when he was ready we could talk. I couldn't bear looking at him when I did, so I went upstairs. I heard him leave not long after that."
"What happened later on?" Archie asks.
"I went out and played Saviour. When I went home that night, it was empty. He wasn't there."
"How did that make you feel?"
Emma takes a deep breath in. "I wanted him to be there. I wanted to... hope that it wouldn't be the end of us." She shifts slightly. "I went upstairs and his jacket and flask were sitting on the bed."
Archie waits patiently as Emma trails off again, impressed by how much Emma has revealed. Emma swallows thickly.
"I waited hours for him to come back, but he didn't. He still hasn't. He left without a word."
"Have you tried reaching out to him?"
Emma adjusts her position again. She hugs her legs closer to her chest, seeking comfort.
"I've left text and called him but he hasn't answered to anything. It's like he doesn't want anything to do with me anymore. I should have seen this coming really. This is just what happens to me."
Archie shifts in his chair slightly. "You know, Emma, Killian came to see me. He was so panicked that he was not the type of man that you wanted him to be; or the man that you deserve. He was very clearly wracked by guilt, unsure of what to do when I found him in Granny's with a bottle of rum.
"Perhaps," he continues. "after you gave the ring back and had this fight - which is a healthy thing to do in a relationship - he has gone so he can find the man he wants to be inside himself; the man he truly believes that you deserve in your life."
Emma quickly wipes away the tears on her cheeks. Archie smiles sympathetically at her.
"Killian Jones is not everyone else, Emma. He has changed from the man hell bent on revenge to the man who is clearly besotted with you." Archie says softly. "Do you still love him?"
Emma buries her head in her hands for a moment before nodding.
"Do you still want to marry him?"
Emma looks down at her hands, fingers smoothing over her bare left ring finger. She already misses the weight of the ring.
She nods again, not quite trusting her voice.
Archie stands and moves so he is also sitting on the couch. Emma finally looks up at him.
"You can come back from this, Emma. You both can. I am quite positive that Killian knows that but is giving you time in case you were not ready."
Emma sighs. "I don't want him gone."
"Have you told him this - in the messages you have sent?"
"I haven't, no." Emma says, resting her forehead against her knees for a minute. "Killian told me that you encouraged him to share his feelings."
Archie nods. "I did, yes."
"I tried." Emma says, sniffing once. "I opened up to the chance of a happy future at last and it still didn't work out for me. It will never work out for me - Saviours don't get happy endings."
"Emma, you can still be happy. Killian will come back. Your relationship has never been the smoothest - but no relationship ever has been. A bump in the road is no reason to stop driving."
Emma shakes her head. "He has had two days to come back to me, to contact me. He cannot leave Storybrooke so it isn't like he can leave and go anywhere else, but he hasn't come back."
"Emma-"
"He promised me that he would not let me down but look at what has happened." Emma says, wiping away her tears in frustration. "I have to move on."
"Even if it means that all of your walls go back up full force?" Archie questions, not unkindly. "I don't think you really want that, Emma."
You know what...
Emma isn't so sure either.
End note: Please review! :)
