Since they got back Robin hasn't been around the camp much. It is entirely too quiet for Much's liking. He wishes he knew what to do. How to help him. But whenever he even tries thinking of what to say to comfort Robin his thoughts flash 'Forget it. I'm still here.' He hates himself for thinking that but he can't help it no matter how hard he tries to stop.
Sometimes Allan stares at the empty space next to him when he thinks everyone is sleeping. It makes Much's insides seize up. He knows how it feels. To want something so bad but it just isn't there. Not anymore.