Hey! Sakuryn's back again. Another song fic! This one focuses mainly on Sakura. I took a break from humor stuff, so this is just another serious one. The song is by Kelly Clarkson. "Because of You" just seemed to fit…haha. Okay, so Sakura acts OOC-ish, but I guess it's okay. It's AU-ish. Not really.
Disclaimer: "Because of You" and Naruto don't belong to me or you, so ha.
Note: Sasuke is gone right now, okay? And don't flame, please.
The sun was almost fading against the gray clouds. It would most likely rain soon. Sakura was walking on a narrow path in the forest. Her steps were small. She was still thinking about Sasuke.
I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far
She had long lost that attraction to Sasuke she had a while ago. Sakura knew her puppy-like love toward him would never be returned, so to save herself, she forgot.
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
Sakura wanted to change. To change from the lovesick, hyper, childish girl to a new her. Someone who wasn't caught up in their emotions. Someone who people didn't find annoying. Someone…who was perfect. Sakura realized it—she wanted to be the one everyone liked. The one that everyone knew and respected. Sakura wanted to be looked up to instead of looked down upon.
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
But Sakura was not perfect. Everyone thought she was weak or annoying.
"You're annoying." The words lingered in her mind ever since the day Sasuke left. She couldn't forget how much he disliked her. He never liked her. He didn't like anyone. Sasuke…would always stay Sasuke. Cold, heartless, and emotionless: Sasuke only had one purpose in life: to kill Itachi.
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
Revenge, reviving his clan, revenge. That was all he ever thought about. Sasuke was a human ice cube. Sasuke never loved nor liked Sakura. Sakura was hurt by this the most. But she supposed he had a reason. Sometimes, Sakura admitted, she was…annoying. And when she wasn't annoying, Sasuke called her weak. Weak and Annoying. Annoying and Weak. Who knew those words of hate could hurt so much? On the day he left, Sakura stayed at home, crying. She was so sad, she didn't eat or go outside. She kept crying. She thought it was all her fault. Sakura was rejected by Sasuke. Was she too weak?
I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Sakura was too busy thinking of all her bad qualities, she was slowly killing herself. Like a kunai embedded in the flesh of an enemy ninja, her life was being torn apart. Piece by piece, she was dying mentally.
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Why was she killing herself over Sasuke? Hadn't she said that she was over him? No, it was a lie. Sakura could never get over him. In her mind, Sasuke, was everything. Sasuke, the handsome avenger. Sasuke, the cursed Uchiha. Sasuke…the one just for her. Sakura had been tricking herself. How could she not love him? Her childhood crush…the same person that ruined her and Ino's friendship by just existing. Sakura loved Sasuke and that was the naked truth.
A/N: Okay, I admit, I think that sucked butt. But hey, this is the product of listening to "Because of You" on repeat mode. HAHAHA. Just review and tell me what you think.