Sora's a bitch. She's yelling at me again about what a terrible boyfriend I am. It's not like I don't try, but when you're the lead singer in the hottest underground type band, you have to maintain a certain image. So yes, she may be bringing up some very valid points, and yes, I do flirt with my fans. But only in very open places in front of the press, and only when I have several escape routs. I've stopped listening to all her convincing rantings about how I treat her horribly. My mind wanders to the newest song I've been working on. She pauses, and I feign shame and mumble inaudibly. That seems to be enough to convince her that I'm taking her nagging to heart. I wonder if Tai's still in his soccer game, I hate missing them.
"I swear, Matt, I can't even look at you!" she crosses her arms and spins around dramatically. I miss the old sora. It's no fair that everyone else gets to see her, but since I'm dating her I just get this dramatic, girly, judgmental version. Her backs still turned away from me and her tones turned sad.
"I just feel so over-looked and unloved! I just don't understand why you can't be more sensitive!" I want to tell her that yes, in fact she does understand, because I've explained all this a hundred times. But I don't, because in those hundred times I've learned that she doesn't listen, and it will only make her yell louder and for longer. I glance up at the clock. 10 o'clock. Three hours since I signed the bimbo-groupies tits. God, how long is she going to go on like this? I let out a sigh, and she whips around, a new fire in her eyes.
"what?! Am I boring you? Do you have somewhere better to be than trying to save our relationship? What the fuck Matt! You can be a real dick!" I wince, standing up in front of her. She looks up at me venomously.
"sora, come on, you know i didn't mean anything by it. But my fans have certain expectations of me."
"You think I care about your fans?! I care about you and me, Matt! That's all! But it's obvious you don't!"
"sora, the fans buy my CDs and tee shirts, which means I get paid. You should-" but she interrupts with that same line she always uses when she's about to loose the argument to the more calm and logical side of things.
"God, just shut the fuck up! I don't even want to hear you right now!" finally she storms out. I wait until I hear her car door slam, then let out a relieved sigh. I light up a cigarette and check my phone to see what I missed since my show started, what, four, five, hours ago?
Two missed calls from Tk, one from the house (probably Tk again,) Four missed calls from Kari, as well as a threatening text for missing Tai's big game, and one missed call from Tai. See, unlike everyone else, Tai understands that there's no reason to call a million times, I always get back to them when I can. I call Tk first, but it goes straight to voicemail. I skip Kari, having enough female rage directed at me for one day, and skip straight to calling Tai.
"Matt! Hey, I'm at pizza hut with izzy and joe! Meet us down here?" he asks excitedly. I laugh a little.
"I can be there in ten minutes."
On the drive there, I hummed out my new song, trying to nail down the second verse. This particular song had really stemmed from the chaos between sora and me, but the bridge and middle verse had more of a serene, purposeful feel to them. So I had to think of things of equal feelings while singing it. The best I could do was our digital adventures, but I couldn't feel the same serenity in those memories as I use to. It was very frustrating, and I was beginning to blame Sora for that too. Finally I pulled into the pizza parlor, and saw Tai wave excitedly at me from inside. I grinned, hurrying through the doors.
"Hey guys, where are our women?" I asked with a smile as I slid in beside izzy. Tai rolled his eyes as Joe answered me.
"Well Mimi wont be back from new York until the end of the month, and Kari and Tk left right after the game. Oh, that is, not that Tk's a girl." Joe frowned, causing the rest of us to laugh.
"Yeah, Kari dragged him away with stars in her eyes. I'm sure they're off somewhere secluded and romantic." Tai explained, waving his hand dismissively. I rolled my eyes. Tk had confided in me last week that he didn't like Kari.
"in fact," he had said, "I don't think I like girls at all." he looked up at me nervously, as though that could matter to me. Luckily he's as good at reading people as I am, and after one look at me he knew I didn't mind who liked so long as it was someone that made him happy. But back to today:
"Wheres Sora?" Joe asked, slurping down what I assume is iced tea. I sigh heavily.
"Probably blowing off steam somewhere." I shrug. Tai frowns in concern, setting his pizza down.
"You guys fighting again?" it was no big secret. Last time we fought it happened to be in front of all 12 digidestind. (elder and next gen)
"yeah, I signed some tits and she got all huffy over it." I roll my eyes, as Joe and Izzy exchange worried looks. Tai made a small 'huh' sound, before turning the conversation to his game. I've never been a big sports guy, but of course I love supporting my friends. After all, if it wasn't for their support with my music, I don't think I ever would have formed a band in the first place. Apparently it was quite an exciting game, as Tai was practically bouncing in his seat as he explained it to me play by play. I nodded and smiled at the appropriate times, but still my mind wondered back to my song. Somehow in this noisy pizza parlor it became slightly clearer, but still the notes remained just out of reach. I watched Tai's enthusiastic hand gestures as he explained the final seconds of the game where he and some guy named Soromeito had won the game just in the nick of time. I grinned at him congratulating him on his victory, just as Joe and Izzy said their good nights, and took off.
"So what are you up to tonight?" I ask, stealing his unfinished slice of pizza. He looks up at me with warm brown eyes for a long minute before seeming to snap back.
"I was just going to head back to the dorm, pop in some generic horror movie." he shrugs, staring at the table. I watch him suspiciously. I've had this theory about him for a few weeks, but it's one of those things better left alone. I hope he thinks the same. Finally he looks up at me, so I invite him to my apartment instead.
"I just rented that new torture movie if you feel up to it." I offer. He beams at me, eyes glistening.
"yeah! Let's go!" I follow him out, taking the unfinished slice with me.
We walk in a comfortable silence back to the car, me, munching on his leftovers, and him staring up at the sky. I leaned against the car as I finished up the crust, Tai leaning beside me. I glance over at him and light up a cigarette. He's still staring straight up. So I do the same. It was a particularly clear night with more stars than I've seen in a while; then again, I rarely look. We stayed that way for a minute, then out of my peripheral I see his attention shift to me. At first I expected him to be his normal impatient self and urge me to hurry up and unlock the car door, but then-I kid you not-his gaze actually wandered all down my side. Theory confirmed. I laugh lightly at the absurdity of my situation. Dating a girl who's better as a friend while my best friend wants to be dating me. I glance at him and he blushes and darts his eyes away.
"You ready or what? Come on! Open the doors!" he finally whines. I laugh lightly at him, shaking my head and flicking my cigarette butt.
Once in the car he begins fidgeting with my busted radio. A few weeks ago he was in here and I stepped out to grab a few things from the store. When I got back he swore he got it to work for a minute, an hasn't stopped messing with it since. Personally I don't really care. I like the quiet to work out the kinks of whatever song I'm working on.
Once we pull into my apartment complex he quickly hops out of the car and rushes to the elevator, holding it for me once it arrives. I yawn, stretching my arms over my head. It didn't seem like a weird movement until I heard Tai swallow quite loudly. I glance over, not rushing my stretch. His eyes were glued to the ground and his cheeks were growing more and more red. I smiled again, my song coming to mind again. Even with Tai's feelings towards me becoming painfully obvious, I still felt my most serene when he was at my side. I know it should freak me out, and if it was any other guy, even another digidestend I know I would be grossed out and completely avoid them, but Tai's my best friend. And unless he tries to act on that shit, I wouldn't give up our friendship for anything. We arrive at my little studio apartment and I get the movie going while Tai happily plops down on my futon. It was still pulled out, and my blankets were a mess, but he just wiggled under them naturally. I shut off the lights and started up the movie, sitting atop the blankets next to him. About half way through the movie, I felt Tai curl up to my arm. I nearly snapped my hand back in a dramatic gesture of where I stand on the issue, until I noticed his light snoring. I relaxed my arm, sighing to myself. I guess this is ok... I shut off the tv, leaning back. I glanced down at his peacefully sleeping face, chuckling to myself again before drifting off to sleep.
A/N:: if I ever become a billionaire I want to make an adult digimon movie and I know I'd want Izzy to be played by Seth green :)
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