It's been a few weeks since the fight with newborns. Even though I knew the outcome beforehand, it still hurts me to see my cousin Jacob in pain. I guess before I continue I should introduce myself. My name is Thomas James Nakoa Matthews, but you can call me TJ. I'm eight teen years old and I am a member of the La Push wolf pack.

Ever since I can remember, I could predict things before they could happen. I guess the proper term for what I am is "seer", and the proper term for what I see is "visions". Sometimes I would have very intense dreams and other times it happens when I'm wide awake. Two things I've noticed about these visions:

They are so clear and vivid it feels like I'm actually there.

Since the future is not set in stone, some things can be changed. Unless someone or something intervenes, the outcome remains the same.

One Prime example is when I was four. I had trouble sleeping that night. I kept tossing and turning because I was having a nightmare. I saw a blue pickup truck swerve out of control and roll on its side. I looked into the broken windshield and saw my fathers face. His face was slashed because of the shattered glass and his breathing was labored. His eyes went wide and his breathing became quicker. I heard a loud screeching noise behind me but before I could look I woke up.

I opened my eyes and my vision was a little blurry. I guess through out the dream I had been crying. I looked to my left and my dad was holding me and to my right my mom was rubbing my back. Dad looked at me and said "You had us scared there buddy. We heard you yelling and screaming but don't worry nobodies going to hurt you" I threw my arms around his neck and said

"I won't get hurt but you will". Mom gasped and dad gently pulled me off to say

"What makes you say that?"

"I saw it in my dream"

He glanced over at mom then turned to me and said

"Will you tell me what you saw?"

I nodded and said "I saw your truck going out of control and you were hurt pretty bad"…..

"Was there anything else?"

"I saw your face all scratched up and I heard a loud noise ".

He looked at my mom and not long after I did as well. When I saw her tears were rolling down her face. "Mommy are you hurt?" she shook her head and said "No sweetie I just don't like seeing you so upset". I crawled out of my dads lap and hugged my mom. "Don't worry mom I'm fine. It's just a dream right?" She paused for a moment and said "Yes of course it is". Dad scooted closer and held us both. He said "How about your mother and I stay with you till you fall asleep, and then in the morning we'll make you some waffles? Does that sound good?" I nodded and went back to lie down. Mom and dad were on the side of my bed getting ready to tuck me in. My mom sang one summer night and my dad brushed my hair out of my face. He whispered "See you in the morning buddy" and I said "Don't start without me". He responded with "ok" and smiled at me. When I went back to sleep they quietly left the room.

SHARON POV

I woke up at 2:30 to the screams of my son Thomas. My husband Jason and I quickly got out of bed and ran to his room. While I was rubbing his back Jason picked him up and said "You had us scared there buddy. We heard you yelling and screaming but don't worry nobodies going to hurt you." My son threw his arm around his father and said "I won't get hurt but you will." I gasped because he's never been one to say such things, especially to his father. My husband asked him why he would say that and my son's response was "I saw it in my dream." As soon as he said that I felt a shiver down my spine.

Jason looked over at me then back to Thomas and asked him what he saw. While he described it, I remembered the conversation I had with Jason the previous morning, about the same dream. I woke up with night sweats and I was panting. Jason sat up and asked me what was wrong. I told him I had a dream. Not just any dream, the ones that usually come true. He asked me what happened and I described the dream in detail.

"Are you sure?" he asked. I nodded. "It felt like the other dreams I had." He paused

and said "Like with your sister? the wedding? your pregnancy?" I nodded.

The first time I felt something like that, was about six years ago. I had a dream about my sister. In the dream, my sister was holding a pink bundle. A week later she found out she was pregnant and sure enough, she had a little girl. I told Jason about it and we both thought it was just a coincidence. The next year, I had a dream two days before our wedding. I had a dream that Jason was panicking because the best man, couldn't find the ring. I told Jason that morning, and he said it would be fine. The ceremony was twenty minutes behind and Jason said I was right. The following year I had a dream of me looking in the mirror holding my swollen stomach. I told Jason and he joked "Well let's hope your three for three."

About three weeks later, I found out I was pregnant. I gave birth to our son Thomas at forks hospital on January 26 1992. I was very stressed out at first but Jason and his mother Katherine helped calm me down. The doctor that delivered him, weighed him and declared that he was perfectly healthy. Jason and I both looked at him and felt like a all was right in the world. I nursed him when he got a little fussy, and he was very content after that.

While I remembered all this tears were rolling down my face, and both he Jason were looking at me with concerned eyes. Thomas asked me if I was hurt and I told him I just didn't like seeing him like this. While that wasn't a complete lie, it wasn't the whole truth. I was upset that he had the same dream, and I was upset that I was going to lose my husband. He crawled over to me and said he was ok. I lied to him when he asked me if it was just a dream. Jason came over and offered to stay with him and make waffles in the morning.

He went to lie down while Jason tucked him in. I started to sing One Summer Night by the Danleers. His grandmother had gotten a CD called Essential 60's and this was one of his favorites. Jason moved hair out his face and told him he would see him in the morning. Thomas told him not to start without him, something Jason always told me whenever I would do something with Thomas. I smiled at that and even though I couldn't see his face I'm sure Jason was too. As soon as Thomas drifted to sleep Jason and I quietly left the room.

JASON POV

After we left our sons room, we headed back to ours. Before I could even open the door my wife started sobbing. I held her gently moved her into the room. I guided her to the bed and we both sat at the foot of it. I let her cry until she couldn't cry anymore. "What are we going to do without you? What am I going to do without you?" she asked. "I don't know babe what can we do?" was my response.

"We have to do something!" she said "We can't lose you…I can't lose you."

"It's going to happen whether we like it or not….I think we may need to start planning"

"Planning what?" she asked.

"I don't know maybe you should go live with my mom at La Push. I said "She'll have more than enough space for you and Thomas."

"Do you think she'll let us stay though? I wouldn't want to impose"

"Of course she will, we'll just have tell her everything though"

"Everything? including Thomas?" she asked

"Yes babe she knows about your other dreams, and she should know about this one as well" I said

She nodded and started crying again. "I can't believe he had the same dream." she said "I was hoping he wouldn't have these dreams but ..." her voice trailed and she started sobbing again. "Don't worry babe you-

"Don't worry?" she said as she cut me off "What do you mean don't worry? of course I'm worried! she said " Babe please calm down your'e-

"Calm down?" she cut me off again. "what the fuck do you mean calm down? I can't be calm!" she nearly shouted that time. "Me and Thomas are going to lose you. I can't even begin to tell you how shit my life will be without you."

"Babe please-

"No don't you babe me right now. how can you be so content on not being in my life or watching Thomas grow up?"she said "Answer me Jason, how can you be so content?"

"Content? You think I'm content?" She gasped as I raised my voice. "You want the truth? No I'm not content...I'm not content on losing you or Thomas." By now tears started welling up in my eyes.

"The idea of not seeing in the morning to start my day, or seeing you before I go to sleep to end it... just sickens me". Tears started rolling down my cheeks. "Of course I wanted to watch Thomas grow up...see him have his first crush...see him graduate...see him start a family...hell I was going to tell some of the Quilute legends my mom told me...I would have shared something with him that is supposed to be passed down from father to son"...

I put my head in my hands and started sobbing. I put my hands through my hair and said " I never wanted to be like my dad...I never wanted to leave my wife...my son... oh god." At this point Sharon threw her arms around me and I did the same. "Oh babe" she said "I'm sorry I didn't mean to upset-

I cut her off "You didn't do anything wrong. Like I said we just have to deal with what is." We were silent for a few minutes and I said "Look babe, let's get a little bit of sleep, and in the morning we both call in sick and when we go to visit my mom we'll tell her about it, ok?" she nodded. "I love you Sharon". "I love you Jason" I gave her a firm but quick kiss on the lips and I held her while she tried to go to sleep.

While she fell asleep I was still wide awake. I put my face into her hair and inhaled deeply. I just couldn't believe that sooner or later, I would never be near her or my son again.