He watched as her eyes rolled back when he kissed her where he always knew she liked it. As he made his way back up to her ear he thought about asking her to have sex with him, but knew she wouldn't receive it well he whispered. "Does he know how beautiful you are?" He kissed her neck again. "Perfect?" He slipped his hand up her skirt and onto her thigh feeling skin. She inhaled sharply he could feel how turned on she was. "Come with me?"

She wanted to say no. She had to say no. But the words got stuck in her throat and she allowed him to lead her upstairs. She hated him so much because he had so much power over her every time he touched her she felt powerless. She knew were he was taking her she knew what he wanted and she hated herself, just a little bit, for wanting to go. She was with Marcus. A lord and she still couldn't resist the temptation of chuck bass. They were in her bedroom he just looked at her almost waiting for her to pull away or realise who she was with or who she was supposed to be with. She pulled him to her and kissed him passionately. When they pulled away he asked that question the same one he breathed that first night they spent together.

"Are you sure?" she smiled nodding.

"don't go soft on me now Bass." He saw the irony as if she could ever make a man go soft if he did then he was gay simple as. She pulled him to her again kissing him. He pulled her towards the bed he should feel guilty she had a boyfriend but the way he saw it Blair was his. He screwed up royally and what was supposed to be fixing him broke him even further, because he knew she would never trust him unless he said those words he couldn't say. He put it all the back of his mind he had to enjoy his night with the most amazing woman he'd ever met. He removed her dress kissing all down her body he entered her hearing her soft moans spurred him on. God he loved this woman if only he could tell her. When they both came he laid down next to her pulling her into his arms.

"Blair i-" His tongue swelled again words stuck in his throat.

"You what?"

"I-I-" He laid down fully. "I wish I had been more brave. I wish I wasn't terrified. I wish I hadn't listened to my father. And I wish I never let Blair Waldorf go." He fell asleep a few seconds after, she was stunned. Shocked. It wasn't the words she wanted but it meant more than anything he'd ever said to her, reluctantly she got dressed and kissed his cheek.

"You just stay here and sleep Bass I'll make sure no-one comes up. We'll talk later." She doubted they would and he couldn't hear her but it was all she could think to say to the boy currently in her bed, while her boyfriend was downstairs, worst part was she knew she should feel awful she cheated on a devoted Marcus but she couldn't she never could feel bad about sleeping with Chuck Bass.

Serena was looking for Blair, she hadn't seen her in a while. She gasped as she entered her room and saw Chuck asleep and from what she could see naked under the covers. She slapped him awake.

"Chuck!"

"Hey sis."

"What are you doing? Please tell me your a gigantic creep and she didn't just do what i think she did?" Chuck didn't say anything but she knew from his stupid smirk that they had. "Chuck why cant you just let her be happy?"

"Because I screwed up but I cant seem to let her go."

"Why?"

"Because she's hot."

"That's not it."

"She's great in bed?"

"Come on Chuck I know theres more to it."

"I love her." He'd said it and his tongue didn't swell or his throat. Now if only he could say it to her.

"Then you know what to do Chuck"

"You don't think I tried to tell her? I couldn't get the words out. At the white party I wanted to tell her, if i did everything would be okay. I messed up big time s I got scared and I was immature and I left her, to attempt to cheat on her, not that I could she was all I could think about."

"Tell her that bit then. If you cant tell her you love her give her something, an indication, something this proves she still chooses you."

"I seduced her she cant be held responsible."

"You know as well as I do Blair is incredibly strong. If she didn't want to do something she wouldn't. Not even Chuck Bass could change that. But I would get dressed before anyone else finds you in here. Im going to find Blair" She left the room quickly finding blair. "Kitchen now." Blair followed her.

"Tell me its not true. Tell me you didn't cheat on Marcus and theres a completely different reason Chuck's in your bed."

"S i'm sorry-" Blair looked genuinely upset and confused. Serena did feel for her it had to be Blair it had to be Blair that fell head over heels for Chuck Bass.

"What is it with him?"

"I don't know."

"He's hurt you so many times."

"I know."

"And you still love him."

"I do-"

"Come on blair you don't have to admit to me or yourself but its obvious."

"Right guess you never forget you first huh s? Well I guess you have. What was his name again? Oh wait you don't even know." Blair stormed out Serena wanted to be mad but she couldn't. She knew Blair and she knew she always lashed out at her when she was confused. And Blair Waldorf had a definite weakness when it came to Chuck Bass.

The party died down Blair kept the fake smile plastered on her face, all the while her brain reeling from earlier events. She was a cheater. She'd never cheated ever before. And with Chuck who she swore she hated yet couldn't help the crazy butterflies in her stomach every time she thought of his words earlier that night. She kissed Marcus goodbye and went to her room. When she got back Chuck was sat on her bed.

"Chuck what are you doing here?"

"We need to talk what happened-"

"Was a mistake chuck."

"But was it? Don't tell me you don't feel it. What he had it's still there."

"Chuck i'm not your toy. you can't get me then drop me, and pick me back up when your bored."

"That's not what it is."

"Then what is it?"

"I don't know." He backed away. "God I don't know."

"Well you need to go and figure that out for yourself. This didn't happen Chuck. Im not leaving Marcus when I don't even know what you want. Or if your even being honest. I can't keep doing this bass."

"I'm sorry." He left before she could say another word he had to go and get drunk he bumped into Nate.

"Nathaniel joining me for a drink?" Nate could tell his friend was upset he nodded.

"Plan didn't work huh?"

"it worked i just want more than I thought I did."

"You slept with her?"

"Yes Nathaniel." The pair had consumed more than there fair share of alcohol.

"So what happened? If you slept with her you got what you wanted."

"That's not what I want. I want her. I want her back Nate. I just want her."

"Then fight for her. Don't give up Chuck she's hurt but she hasn't given up on you. Not yet."