Everything That Was You
A DeidaraxTobi tribute
Inspired by Deviations of Mikutashi and Invader Tacos' AMV
Death. What was it like to die? How would I know when I'm still having blood pumping into my bloodstreams. Why didn't I die? Beats me, rather why wasn't I the one who died instead? Why did it have to be him? I wonder as to how he is known. Not accomplishing any tasks, waning about my presence nor staying in silent thoughts. What would it be like to be free from such limitations of life and the pressures of obligations? Life, would it be better to just die than to live in a world of injustice and lies. I wonder what would it be like…to have just died…with him…
Now, I'm just walking in this field where debris and the strong smell of ash fumed the air with sulfur. Yes, an explosion had occurred not long ago. About a good hour ago from the blast, I had managed to survive as to why, I do not know. I fixed my orange mask as it was slightly ajar and annoyed my jaw. My steps crunched upon the burnt earth emitting a crisp sound as each step pressed upon the burnt remains. My only eye surveyed the area for any source of life that had survived. In hope of seeing him. Seeing that the explosion was only one of his bunshins but I know I couldn't hold onto those high dreams. I keep on looking even if my mind gripped upon the idea of this lifeless barren field that had once held life, lush green life and a blond.
Maybe I'm just an idiot for coming bck to a 10-kilometer wide of burnt forestation, debris and ashes but I'd rather be an idiot than forget my sempai. Why had I cared when he always treated me harshly? Well, I think he treats me like a friend. But do I treasure him only as a friend? I don't know myself but if I really like him more than a friend, what am I to his life? Just another partner. I huffed, then what about his past partner, the red-haired puppeteer. I felt like jealousy had entangled my veins and a hidden flush tainted my cheeks. Of course they were both gone and they could be together in God knows where. Would he end up in heaven or in hell? Would I be with him in the same place he is if I die?
I turned to my right where an ash pile of what had been trees stood. The strong stench of burnt material made me wrinkle my nose. My eye was teary because of the offending fumes. I turned to step away but a glimmer caught my eye. Despite the offending barrier of scent, I obliged myself to go nearer as my mind was plagued by curiosity of what this item was. My black-gloved hand reached into the barely hot ashes and drew out a small object. I brushed the gray particles to reveal something of silver material, I started to rub the ashes that clung to it with the aid of my cloak. The object revealed a blue hue and I rubbed vigorously revealing a kanji writing I rubbed harder. It read: Sei. And somehow deep inside me my muscles inched upward earning a hidden smile as I had found my sempai's ring. Yes, it was Deidara's ring indeed. I stood up and turned to leave but my body froze as to what my eyes saw in front of me.
There he stood. Rather ghostly in appearance yet his appearance did not bring any fear to my senses and yet as I blink the figure was gone. I turned down upon the ring and the breeze swept the ashes of what was once his.
Who was truly an idiot? Was it me or was it him?
Why did I just let someone of great importance be swept by the wind?
Why did I even fall for you?
You were everything. My everything.
An everything that was you.