Life is not supposed to be easy,
Yet i hoped for life to let me off the hook for once.
But... i guess that wasn't meant to be.
Anyway,
I am Sunakawa Makoto, my friends call me suna.
And this is how life decided to make things hard for me.
I was staring out of the window, the teacher is repeating something about some point in history. Really as soon as she said the material of today was repeat my attention was gone. I look at takao a few seats away, he's sleeping. not much of a surprise. What is surprising however is that after a while the teacher call's out our attention. "Class, today we will be getting a new student. Please come in and introduce yourself."
When he walks in i can feel my heart beating faster for some reason. 'He is really goodlooking.' He has short black hair, bright blue eyes and piercings. 5 in the ear and one in his eyebrow. Every girl in the room suddenly pays a lot more attention now, whispering thing to each other that sound a lot like "aah, he's so cool." and "i wonder if he has a girlfriend". However i'm more interested in knowing if he has any more piercings, like in a naughty place... wait... WHAT THE HELL. Why am i thinking about such thing?
His voice takes me out of my thoughts. "my name is Kirashi Tetsu, i just moved to Japan from America, yoroshiku." our teacher then assigns him a seat but all i notice is that i have a good vision of him from my own seat.
When the bell ring i come to the conclusion that i've been looking at Kirashi almost all of the time. 'This has to stop, before he notices' i put my book in my bag 'or anyone else for that matter'. I walk towards takao and try to make him up, eventually after trying a few times i gave up and said: "yamato-san". He jumps up screaming, and the entire class is looking at us. I just ignore the stares and whispers of "scary!" and say: "Come on, let's go" He hastily grabs his things and runs after me, i was already outside when he catches up to me.
On the way home he tries to ask me thing but even takao got the clue that i wasn't planning on answering anytime soon so he gave up and started talking about yamato. He then suddenly stops, i turn around and ask him: "What's wrong" "Isn't that the new guy from our class" i look where he's looking and indeed it's kirashi. "i think he's lost, let's help him." "Wait takao-" but he's already staring at kirashi, and like always way too close. "Takao your to close" i tell him "Aah sorry about that" "No problem" he says. "Are you all right, you look a bit lost" "I'm afraid that i am lost, i have terrible sense of direction" "We can help you" "Arigatou, i'm looking for this apartment" he says while taking out a piece of paper. "Aah, that's our apartment, we can show you" "Thank you" "I am takao gouda and this is sunakawa makoto." "Oh you two are in my class right!" he exclaims with a smile.
As i see his smile i can feel my face heat up, 'Am i blushing.. no that can't be' "Ah, suna your a little red, are you getting a fever." "N-no i'm fine" 'Oh god did i just stutter, what is wrong with me today.' Thankfully takao doesn't seem to notice. We continue walking home with the three of us, and surprisingly kirashi is talking mostly to me. I try to act cool and confident, but inside i am very nervous about what he thinks of me.
As soon as we got home i said good bye and went to my room, i needed to think about what happened to me today. 'I have never behaved like that before, what is this.' I tried to think of what it was when a realisation hit me 'I've seen takao act like this before whenever he... likes someone' "no.." i softly whisper.
I immediately went over to takao's place and went into his room without knocking, slamming the door open. He looked shocked, because normally it was him doing that. as i close the door i hear him ask: "suna? what's wrong?" i just sit down and say nothing, he come towards me and also sits down at the table. He is waiting for me to say something, but i can't. Not jet. Several minutes go past, i take a deep breath and say: "Takao, i need to ask you for advise but what i am going to say is never going to leave this room. Do you understand me" He looks very shocked when i said the word advise but nods nonetheless "Swear it takao" "I swear, now tell me" I take another deep breath and say: "I think i like someone" He is very VERY shocked and starts ranting about all kind of things. "I knew this was a mistake." I whisper under my breath, i stand up and walk towards the door only to find that takao has connected himself to my leg. "No Suna, i'm sorry. It won't happen again, you can trust me. I will be very professional." There is a awkward silence, but then i go to sit down again. 'This is maybe Takao but we've been friends for 10 years. If there is anyone i should trust it's him'
"Who is it" I look to my side a bit embarrassed. I whisper his name but he doesn't here me "Come on suna say it so i can hear it" I sigh again and with a small blush is say: "Kirashi Tetsu" "The new guy?" he asks. I nodd my head. He stare's at me and then ask: "You've only met him today, so could you tell me why you think you like him?" I look at my lab and softly let out: "When he first walked in... i could feel my heart beating really fast, like it was going to jump out of my chest. From the moment he sat down i don't think my eyes ever left him till i heard the bell, and when i saw him smile... oh god. It looked like an angel kissed his lips. My thoughts keep wondering to him, and when he looks at me i can feel myself turning red." I take a breath and i look at takao only to see him smiling softly "I have never experienced this kind of intense emotions. I can't describe what i feel but, whatever it is makes me feel better then i've ever done in my entire life." He starts to grin. Then he jumps up with his fist in the air shouting: "yahoooooo." He sits down again and tells me: "What you're feeling is most definably love" I sigh again for what feels like the millionth time that day. "What can i do?" "What do you think about becoming closer with him and later on see if maybe he likes you back" I nodd and give him a small smile "That sounds like a good plan".
We say our goodbyes a little while later and just before i go out the door i hear Takao say: "i'm happy for you Suna and i hope it turns out all right". Smiling i return to my room. I lay in bed deep in thought, with a soft smile on my lips. My last thought being about kirashi, but he is also in my first thought when i'll up.
Life is never easy,
But sometimes...
It will give you something to work with.
Something that can end good..
But also can end bad.
Don't let Life decide what your future will be,
It is up to you which way you will go.
Just don't always take the easy road.
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A.N.
hey everyone, i just want to let you know that if you find any mistakes please let me know. i plan for this to stay a oneshot but... maybe you will be able to change my mind if you want it enough. also i have no problem with criticism but please base it on some thing i work with. please R&R.
love, sandra525