A/N: My first OITNB fanfic, hope you like it... I will continue if you want more, let me know. Hope everyone has a great day.

I own NOTHING... this is All made up.

Enjoy :)

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"Hi, my name is Alex, and I am an addict," she said to the crowd of people. It had been almost a year since she had felt like she needed to go to a meeting; but tonight she needed this.

"Hi Alex," they all greeted her.

"It has been three thousand two hundred and eighty six days since I last used, tomorrow marks nine years, it also marks four years of being out of prison." She took a deep breath, she wanted to talk about P and how tomorrow also marked six years since she had last seen her, felt her touch...but couldn't... "The last couple of days have been... hard this date is bringing up something, someone that I need... and since I don't have her, I want to forget... ease the pain, ya know?" Alex looked at the only familiar face in the place: Nicky. Her best friend who has been by her side through prison and so much more. They were released within months of each other and always had each others back at Litchfeild. Once they were released they got an apartment together and went to NA meetings regularly. Nicky smiled and she kept going, "I wanted to use, so here I am..." She shrugged and then stepped down.

"Good job," Nick said quietly as she sat down with her.

"Thanks," she whispered, "are you going to speak?"

"Nah I went to my meeting this morning with Morello" she said.

"Well then lets get out of here, yeah?" Alex looked at her.

They ducked out of the meeting and into the crisp cold New York Air, "You doing okay?" Nicky asked.

"I just wish ...things were different, that I didn't fuck up so badly, that I knew where she was."

"Look, I wasn't going to say anything, cause I wanted to wait until tomorrow to tell you, as a surprise for making it this long clean... but Lorna has been doing some digging, and we got a number that might help you find her..."

"You have a number for her?"

"Not for her, but for someone named Polly. Morello said she is her best friend?"

"Wonderful" Alex said with deep sarcasm.

"What, is she wrong?" Nicholas asked.

"No, Polly is Pipers best friend... lets just say... I am not her favorite person." She said with a smile.

"Well, do you want it?" Nicky held up and piece of paper and dangled it like bait.

"Well duh!" Alex said taking the paper, "Thank you Nicky, you are the best."

"Ah I know!" She smirked.

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They has spent the last three months of Pipers sentence avoiding each other, after she had made it clear that she choose Larry. But it was the night before she was set to go home and Vause didn't want her to leave on these terms, not like this. She walked over to her bunk where Miss Claudette and Piper were both reading before lights out. Miss Claudette just glared. "Bunkie you want me to get rid of this?" She asked not even looking up from her book.

Piper sighed, "No I will deal with it." She got up and went to the opening of her cube where Alex was standing. "What do you want Alex?"

"To talk, please?" Alex looked at her with 'those eyes' and spoke in a soft tone.

"Fine, I will be back before lights out Miss Claudette" She told her bunkie.

Piper walked with her arms crossed following Alex, "We better not be going where I think we are going."

Alex didn't say anything, they were going to where she thought they were going, it was the only place that was private, plus Alex hoped it would help Piper... feel something. she opened the chapel door and Piper rolled her eyes, but went inside. They sat on the edge of the stage and Alex started. "Look I know you like hate me or whatever, but you are leaving tomorrow and I don't want it to end like this. I get that you picked him, even though I fucking hate it, I get it. But the time we had here together... it was everything to me, it was amazing. I wanted to say I am sorry for landing you in here; I am I hate that you had to do time, but I don't regret the time we got to spend together one bit. Please know I..." she paused for a moment and swolled hard, " I love you with all that I am, I probably always will, but I want you to have a good life."

Piper couldn't even look at Alex as she spoke, but Alex looked at her and could see tears running down her cheeks. They sat there in silence for a moment, but when piper said nothing Alex said that was all she needed to say, and that she hopes tomorrow goes well. Piper then got up and left the chapel. Alex thought that was going to be that, but late that night after lights out she felt someone crawl into her bunk with her, she opened her eyes and saw Piper laying next to her. She smiled "Hey kid" She whispered. Piper didn't say anything she just kissed her frantically, her hands running through her hair and down her body. She put her hand in her uniform and found her wet center, Alex tried not to moan loud, she didn't want to get caught. They made love and cuddled for a short while afterwards, and then Piper went to go back to her bunk she turned back to kiss her one last time than whispered "I love you too" and then she was gone.

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Piper left that day, and that was the last she ever saw or heard from her, when she got released, she tried to find her, but from what Alex could gather she and Larry no longer lived in New York city. And she didn't really want to find her because she figured that she was happily married and she wasn't looking to ruin anyone's marriage, she ended up settling in New York and falling into buying a Coffee Shop. Lorna and Nicky found her a year after her release, they ran into each other in the city; Lorna and Nicky were now in a full fledge relationship. Alex opened up a bakery in the coffee shop a few months later that Nicky helps at, and Lorna worked as a wedding coordinator. Alex held her cell phone in her hand, her hands were shaking a little. She looked to Nicky sitting next to her and pressed send it rang four times and she figured the voicemail was going to pick up when she heard a woman come on the phone, "Hello?" She was paralyzed with panic, "Hello?" Polly said again.

"Uh- Yeah Hi, Is this Polly?" Alex asked.

"yeah, who is this?" She asked.

Alex could hear people in the background, she wished one of them was her Pipes, "Its um- Alex... Vause."

"WHAT?" She heard Polly flip, "The Alex Vause?"

"Yes..." She said hesitantly.

"Where are you?" Polly asked.

Alex was taken a back, she didn't expect that as her first question... "Um I am in New York."

"City?" Polly asked.

"Yes Ma'am" She said.

"Specifically?"

"Like, currently?" She asked to clarify.

"Yes."

"I am currently at 32 Prince Street in Manhattan." She gave her the specifics.

"Are you going to be there for the next twenty minutes?"

"I can be..." She said confused, "Look I wanted to talk to you about Pi-"

"Vause, I know who you want to talk about, look can you meet me at central park in about twenty minutes over by Wollman Rink?"

"Uh yeah... sure." She nodded.

"I will text you when I am almost there, see you soon." She said and hung up the phone.

"Weird" Alex said.

Nicky was looking at her strange... "What?"

"She wants to meet me over at central park..."

"Huh, did she say anything about Chapman?" She asked.

"Just that she knows who I want to talk about."

Well Lets go..." Nicky said.

They hailed a cab and arrived at the park, as they were getting out Alex's phone rang, "I am here" Polly said.

"Me too, Just paying the cabby." She hung up the phone and looked to Nicky, "I am going to do this on my own, I will meet you here after?"

Nicky nodded and Alex nervously headed over to the rink. she saw Polly standing there.

"Wow, I am shocked." Polly said.

"Yeah... well, you can Imagine why I am here..."

"Actually I am a little confused to why you didn't call her directly...?"

"I have know idea where she is or how to get a hold of her, I just figured that she and Larry moved when I couldn't locate her."

"Oh man, you don't know?" Polly said looking shocked.

"Know what?" Alex was confused.

"They never married... planned the whole wedding, a week before the date she called it all off said she couldn't do it..."

"Why?" Alex said, feeling a but of hope.

"You should ask her Alex." Polly said.

"How, I don't know where she is..." she said frustrated running her hands through her hair.

"Here I am..." She heard a very familiar voice and then saw her come walking over.

Alex froze as Piper Chapman the love of her life, the girl she had been longing for for years now; standing in front of her.

"Hey" Piper whispered softly.

"Hey kid" Alex said in the same low tone... "Wow"

"What took you so long?" She smiled.

Alex shrugged, "I looked for a while, but couldn't find you here. I was told my mistake was looking for Piper and Larry Bloom..."

She scoffed a little, "Yeah that... didn't happen." She smiled.

"So I heard, May I ask why?"

"Umm, I realized I loved someone else..."

"Seriously, another guy?" Alex asked.

"No Alex, not another guy... You."

"Wha- when, why didn't you... contact me?"

"I tried, I wrote letters at Litchfield... you never responded, so I figured... You'd moved on." She whispered the last part.

"I never got em, any of em..." Alex was stunned. "They probably intercepted it at the mail room, saw it was from you and confiscated it." she shook her head in shock. "You really wrote me?"

"Yes baby, I really wrote you." Piper smiled.

The fact that she called her baby with such ease took her breath away... "Fuck, I am sorry." Alex was sure she missed her chance. "Are you... with someone now?" Alex watched as she shook her head, she was sure she was going to wake up any moment, she has dreamed of reconnecting with Pipes a million times. "Do you wanna go on a walk with me?"

"Yes" Piper nodded.

The walked deeper into the park, "So how are you?" Piper asked.

"I am good, I live here in the city, own my own business."

"Wow, that is amazing." Piper said clearly proud of her, "And are you..." She hesitated.

"Clean?" Alex smiled. Piper nodded, "Yeah, actually tomorrow marks nine years."

"Seriously?" Piper beamed.

"Seriously, I haven't used since the first day of my incarceration... I went to an NA meeting for the first time in a year today, I was having a bit of a hard day."

"Because?"

"Tomorrow not only marks my ninth Year sober, it also marks..."

"Six years since we last saw each other." Piper said somber.

Alex nodded, "Yeah... You know."

"Of course I know, I think about you everyday Alex Vause."

"Seriously, am I dreaming?" Alex whispered to herself.

"No, you are not.. I thought the same thing when I was at Polly's for dinner and her phone rang, and she got off the phone and told me that Alex Vause just called her and that if I wanted she would take me to her right now."

"I cant believe you were with her, that you wanted to come see me" Alex smiled.

"Of course I wanted to see you." Piper smiled. She stopped and pulled Alex to her and kissed her. Alex froze for a moment and when she realized what was happening she kissed her back letting her hands run up to her hair and down her body. after a few minutes they parted there foreheads pressed together.

"I heart you kid" Alex said.

"I heart you too" Piper said with a huge smile on her face.

They found a bench and sat down, hand in hand, "So tell me about you, tell me about your life since I last saw you?" Piper asked.

"There isn't much to tell Pipes, I finished my got out and came here." She shrugged.

Piper wasn't satisfied with that answer, "You said you owned your owned business...?"

Alex nodded, and her cell phone buzzed in her pocket, "Shit" She said knowing instantly who it was.

"Girlfriend?" Piper asked.

"What, no... I told you kid, no girlfriend. Hold on." She answered the phone. "Uh I am SO sorry I left you, um yeah you see She was with her... No seriously, she was, I am with her now Nicky. Yeah stay there we will come to you." She hung up the phone.

"Nicky?" Piper looked at her, "You mean... Nichols?"

Alex nodded, "Yeah"

Alex could tell Piper was so excited to see her, she took her hand and they went towards the front of the park.

"I don't fucking believe it!" Nicky said when she came into sight, "Hey Chapman!"

"Hey yourself" She hugged Nicky Alex smiled, she couldn't believe Piper was actually here.

"How are you, I would ask how married life is but from the hand holding I am going to guess, shifty or non existent."

"The latter, I couldn't do it, I couldn't marry Larry." She said to Nicky.

"Why?" She asked.

Alex paid close attention to her answer. Piper sat down, both girls followed suit. "When I got out, I tried my best to keep my promises to him. We planned a gorgeous wedding and were looking for a bigger home to settle into, but I was just going through the motions of everyday life, I was pretending. Pretending that..." She took Alex's hand, "That Alex wasn't the one I wanted to be doing it all with..."

"Well that is just damn precious." Nicky clapped in her true cynical fashion.

Piper laughed knowing she wasn't being a bitch she just wasn't great at being serious.

"How long were you together after your date?" Alex asked.

"A year and a half, until one day I just couldn't do it anymore, I couldn't pretend that I didn't love you, that I didn't want to be with you."

Nicky's phone buzzed, she read a text message and then looked back at her friends, "I got to go guys, Morello is wanting me home... I will see you tomorrow, want me to open the store?" Alex nodded, "And will I see you again Chapman?"

"Yes, of course you will. Tell Lorna hello for me, I miss her terribly." She smiled.

"Will do, bye jail bate." She waved.

"So their...?" Piper asked.

"Yeah in a actual real life grown up relationship."

"Wow" Piper said, "They have really changed."

Alex nodded, their hands still intertwined. "Do you wanna grab a coffee or something?"

Piper shook her head, Alex didn't know what to make of that. "How far away is your place?"

Alex raised her eyebrow, "woah kid, no messing around there huh?"

"I wanna talk to you, know everything that happened to you since we last saw each other, but first I want to show you how much I missed you."

Alex couldn't argue with that, she stood up and took Piper by the hand. "Its not far at all..." She winked.

A/N: THANKS FOR READING I HOPE YOU ENJOYED THE CHAPTER, IF YOU WOULD LIKE MORE, LET ME KNOW WITH REVIEWS.