Okay so this is a quick random thought! Just read, I don't want to give anything away in the summary! Enjoy! It takes place during new moon. There is no Jacob. This is inspired by the song bring me to life, by evanescence. I do not own the song!
I miss him so much! I wish he still loved me, I wish he was still here. I have been fooling mostly everyone, they think I am fine. Angela thinks I am faking, and she is right. I need a way to express my emotions without hurting myself. I wish I had someone to go to, I mean I had Angela but I couldn't really open up all the way. I sat at the lunch table and waited, knowing mike and Angela should show up soon. Angela came up to me with a big smile on her face.
"Bella I have a great idea!" she said with a glow in her eyes.
"What" I asked when she didn't continue. She reached into her bag and pulled out a flyer and handed it to me. It read:
Forks high school dance club
Tuesdays, Wednesdays, and Thursdays
3:00-6:00
Free classes
Show up this Tuesday with dance wear and be ready to dance!
I looked at her with a dumbfound look. "Are you crazy, I can't dance! I would kill myself!" she laughed.
"I think it would be really good for you bella, you can release some of the emotions you are keeping hidden." I thought about it for a minute. It would help some; maybe it would make me less clumsy.
"I-I don't know?" I said looking back down at the flyer, it would take a lot of time up, but I didn't have anything else to do, right? "Oh okay, I will try it. But I am not promising anything!" she squealed with delight and started eating her food.
Ugh! I hope im not making a mistake by doing this, it starts tomorrow and I don't really have dance wear. I guess I can get stuff at Newton's. I sighed and walked to my next class thinking the whole time about the dance class. I guess I am nervous about it. What if I make a complete fool of myself? I guess there is only one way to find out!
I walked into the Newton's sports shop and saw Mrs. Newton. "Hello bella? I didn't know you worked today?!" she said when I walked over to her.
"Oh, no, I just need some dance clothes." She looked shocked for a second and then nodded. I walked over to the sports clothes and grabbed a pair of sweats and a shirt, then headed to the front.
"Okay well with your discount it comes to twenty-two fifty-nine." Mrs. Newton said, I pulled out my wallet and paid, and then left before mike came. When I got home I got Charlie's' dinner ready and went to bed, only to have the same dream-nightmare-I do every night.
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I walked into the gym and groaned, there were about ten kids all stretching on the ground. I walked to an empty spot and started copying them, when the teacher came in.
"Okay everyone come over here," we all went and sat in front of her. I felt so stupid, I shouldn't be here. "Okay so during these classes you are going to learn the basic dance skills," she went on talking for a while and then we began warm ups. It surprised me how I felt good after we were done. I mean I was still hurting inside but it was numbed for the time being. Maybe this dance class isn't going to be as bad as I thought.
Two weeks later:
Okay so I absolutely love dance class, it helps me deal with some of the pain I am going through. The only problem is that when class is over, the pain comes back. But I love when we are dancing, I have become a lot more coordinated, but I still have my moments. Today when I walked into class everyone was sat in front of the teacher, I went and sat down just as she began to speak.
"Okay, now I have a project for you. You need to make up your own dance. Pick a song and create a dance to go along with it. It has to be personal, put emotion into it. You have the rest of class today, tomorrow, and Thursday to work on it, next Tuesday you will present it. I will pick the five I think are the best and they will perform at the recital solely." What recital? She realized she didn't tell us about it and began again. "Sorry, I forgot, we have a dance recital in two and a half weeks on Sunday September 6, at 7:00pm. Any questions?" aw crap; I didn't know we had to do that! Oh well, I enjoy class to much to drop out. Well like she said we had the rest of class to work on a dance, I sat in the corner and listened to songs to dance to. I stopped when I got to evanescence song 'bring me to life' I liked it. I choose it and began to work.
Monday, presentation day:
Everyone else had gone except me and another kid named caden. The teacher called his name and he danced to the song 'love me dead' by ludo and then it was my turn. I took a deep breath and went in front of everyone; the teacher went to the boom box and started playing the song:
How can you see
into my eyes like open doors? Wake me
up Wake
me up Now
that I know what I'm without Wake me up Wake me up I've been living
a lie Frozen
inside without your touch All this time, I can't believe I
couldn't see Without thought, without voice, without a
soul Wake me up Wake me up I've been living a lie
Leading you down into my core where
I've become so numb
Without a soul, my spirit sleeping somewhere
cold
Until you find it there and lead it back home
(Wake me up inside)
I can't wake up
(Wake me up
inside)
Save me
(Call my name and save me from the dark)
(Bid my blood to run)
I can't wake up
(Before I come
undone)
Save me
(Save me from the nothing I've become)
You can't just leave me
Breathe
into me and make me real
Bring me to life
(Wake
me up inside)
I can't wake up
(Wake me up inside)
Save
me
(Call my name and save me from the dark)
(Bid
my blood to run)
I can't wake up
(Before I come undone)
Save
me
(Save me from the nothing I've become)
There's nothing inside
Bring me to life
Without your love, darling
Only you
are the life among the dead
Kept in the dark but you were there in front of
me
I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems
Got to open my
eyes to everything
Don't let me die here
There must be something more
Bring
me to life
(Wake me up inside)
I can't wake
up
(Wake me up inside)
Save me
(Call my name and save me
from the dark)
(Bid my blood to run)
I can't
wake up
(Before I come undone)
Save me
(Save me from the
nothing I've become)
There's nothing
inside
Bring me to life
The song ended and everyone started clapping. That's when I noticed the tears on my cheek. I don't know where the dance came from, my heart I guess. I just-I can understand the lyrics so well. I walked back to the group and sat down receiving a bunch of 'good jobs' and 'that was amazing!' the teacher was quiet for a few minutes and then spoke.
"Okay I already have the five soloists, and the show order. First will be Jamie, then caden, then the group dance, then Mitchell, hana, and to close the show will be bella. Great class everyone, you can leave!" I was shocked when she called my name. I grabbed my stuff and walked out side but I froze dead in my tracks. In an all too familiar spot was parked a shiny little Volvo.
"Edward?" I whispered.
I hope you liked it. This story wont be very long just a couple more chapters, but please review and tell me what you think! REVIEW!!!!!!!!!!!