I still remember the
world
From the eyes of a child
Slowly those feelings
Were
clouded by what I know now.
I remember it all so
clearly. Strange, really, how you lie on your death bed and relive
your life in a matter of seconds. My mother crooning her sweet
lullaby that always soothed me to sleep. Brushing my hair, whispering
that she loved me. Me yelling that it was disgusting, all while
kissing her on the cheek. I can't remember when hate entered my
heart…oh, yes. The day she died. I can see his face now, the face
of the man who burned our village. How I wanted him dead. How I
wished I had died as well. Where has my heart gone
An
uneven trade for the real world
Oh I... I want to go back
to
Believing in everything and knowing nothing at all.
I can see Katara's
beautiful face looking at me. Is that real? I didn't realize such
beauty could exist. She's loving me…oh, no…how did that happen?
Why is she screaming hatefully at me? Did I use her? How, how did I
get that stupid? Oh, yes. The Fire Nation. Why do I hate them again?
Suddenly, my memory's not so clear. But my heart, it's so cold,
so angry. Oh, make me naïve again. I don't want this hate in
me. I want to believe there never was a war, want to know that I
could love a Fire stranger I met on the road. I don't want to know
anything else. I still remember the sun
Always warm on
my back
Somehow it seems colder now.
I'm so tired, so
cold…but I remember other times. I can see them, so clearly, and
not at all. Playing in the sunshine, it's heat on my back…the
heat is scorching, it's burning me. Why does the sun hate me? No,
wait, that's the fire that the soldiers set upon my house…or is
it? I can't remember. No, it is. I hear screams. My father's
dying screams. "Get Jet and get out!" My mother pushing me out,
screaming she loves me…before the fire engulfs her. Why does the
fire hate my mother? But now I can't feel the sun at all. It's so
cold. The ice that encases my body…the ice, then the burning fire
in Katara's beautiful eyes. It really is amazing how beautiful her
eyes are… Where has my heart gone
Trapped in the eyes
of a stranger
Oh I... I want to go back to
Believing in
everything.
He trapped my heart.
Give it back, I don't want you to keep that. I want to love Katara
with it, I want to love her for the rest of my life. But he won't
give it back to me. I can still see him, those cruel eyes that
laughed at me as my village burned. He trapped my heart in his
flames. Let me go back, let me believe I can love. Oh, no…arrows,
arrows pierce my back, slice my stomach. Where are these arrows
coming from? No, no, it's a rock. It hits me in the stomach, breaks
a rib…I feel the rib pierce my heart, feel blood flow through my
inside bodies…Why am I bleeding? I can't remember. Why is Katara
crying? Don't cry, Katara, I love you…I never meant to hurt you.
Why do I need help? I'm not hurt….am I? Latin
hymn: Where has my heart
gone
Iesu, Rex admirabilis
Et triumphator nobilis,
Dulcedo
ineffabilis,
Totus desiderabilis.
An uneven trade for the real world
Oh I... I want to go
back to
Believing in everything
Oh, Where.
Where am I going?
You're saying goodbye to me…or is that your memory? Katara,
Katara, don't leave me…stay here…just wrap me in your arms.
I'll be ok there. The man will give me back my heart, I believe
that he will. What do you mean that isn't what the real world does?
He doesn't hate us, he'll understand….wait…no, he does hate
us. I hate him with all I have. I can't love you, I have to go kill
him, to make him taste the hate and pain and anguish that he
subjected me to my entire life….No. No, I didn't mean that. I
didn't mean to use you. I love you. No, Katara, please…help me…I
think I'm broken. Where has my heart gone
Trapped in
the eyes of a stranger
Oh I... I want to go back to
Believing
in everything.
Help me. I need to
remember what it feels like to love. What it feels like to forgive. I
don't want this bitter feeling. The hate, the anger. Katara, Katara
it's taking me! I can't remember! No, Katara! Don't let the
shadows take me! Please, please…oh, it's so cold…the fire in
your icy eyes is freezing me. It's killing me. It's giving me a
happiness I've long since forgotten. I still remember.
Your soft lips…I remember Katara. I remember what it's like to love. But now my memory's fading. I'll focus on that thought, my love. As I die in this cold place, I'll remember. I'll remember what it felt like to love.
