Kate speaks to Jesse as they visit Anna's grave. Reviews welcome.
Disclaimer: I do not own "My Sister's Keeper", Jodi Picoult's the one you want.
"If you have a sister and she dies, do you stop saying you have a sister? Even when the other half of the equation is gone?"
Jesse, do you think she saw us the first time we were here?
Do you think she saw us all dressed in black and thought us terribly depressing and boring? I remember the hospital had let me out for her funeral and despite how sick I felt, I was determined to go. It was raining. To me, it seemed fitting. It was raining the day Anna was born and it was raining when she died. Mom had been trying to convince me to carry an umbrella but I refused. I wanted to feel the rain.
Dad had his arms around me and mom, as if he could protect us both. As if he was strong enough. You were standing behind me and your shoulder brushed mine every time you shifted. It was the closest our family has ever been and I tried so so hard not to think of the awful irony, that our family was only standing so tightly together, because we had lost her. Maybe we realised how much we needed each other or how much we loved each other now that we had lost someone. But maybe we were squeezed so tight together so we couldn't see the gap in our family. Do you think she saw us?
I remember asking myself how this happened. How it came to be Anna lying there instead of me? I mean Anna … Anna was invincible. Dependable. She wasn't sick like me or reckless like you, she was just … Anna. She was always meant to live. I remember thinking that that should be me in that coffin and I'm so, so aware that she's the reason why I'm not. She saved me so many times. I couldn't even do it once. Do you think she saw me crying?
I miss her Jesse. I miss my sister.