A/N: It's something different from what I would normally write for Get Backers, but it was unavoidable. Again, I apologize for any big mistakes in there since my eyesight sucks. Special thanks to my beta Brokensardsofmyheart99!
Disclaimer: I don't own Get Backers.
Seeking Affection
I'm tangled in his arms. There is no love in it and that makes me feel filthy. He tries to comfort me, but it feels so bare, so immoral. Yet I seek his warmth and what he calls love. I care for him very much so, but not even he can erase you. Not even he can take this ache and mend it to make me overlook you, your memories and love.
With gentleness, he untangles himself from me. His body slides up, until he is looking at me, face to face. Once more since the beginning of our so-called love making he tries to claim my lips with his. This time I do not even thrash about. I let him dominate, like I often let you do, just to feel the touch of his tongue stroke mine back in the mimicking manner that reminded me of you.
Caressing my face, he places his knee between my legs and begins to lower himself down unto my body. He knows I seek warmth, another body to escape my solitude. Like the devotee that he is, he offers himself up first. And like the scrounger that I am now, I feed off of him until I feel as close as I can get to that feeling of elation that you made me feel.
His cock enters me, eliciting the first moan out of my mouth since the one you drew out of me. There are days when I feel broken, but not as much as I do right now. Using him and his admiration for me is wicked, but I cannot stop myself from doing so. The place you left me in was too much for me to bear. This is my remedy, my last linkage to the life I used to know.
I can feel my orgasm approaching. Peculiar to feel that at this moment, but I do. Through the panting and thrusting I can hear his voice. I want to block it out, but my curiosity manages to defeat me. His words make me open my eyes.
"I love you. Always have…"
The hot seed from his body fills me. It runs down my thighs and legs. My body spasms and I come too. When he settles next to me, I feel his arms envelop me again. No longer do I feel as soiled as I did when we began this treacherous dance. The words he spoke… I wonder if he knows that you uttered them too. There's a void within me, one that will never be quite filled by anyone else. However, it is true. You can find new love and you can move on. Do you wish for me to be free, my love? If so, please open up this cage.
"Toshiki, I love you."
Never before have I seen his eyes filled with so much bliss. Thank you for releasing me. Though I suppose you never did lock me in, right? Nevertheless, I now realize how fortunate I am… To have two lovers for all of eternity.