Hi this is my first fan fiction and it takes place during New Moon.... Hope you enjoy!!!
sadly none of this belongs to me **sob ** it is all Stephenie Meyer's
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Edward POV
"Don't you want me?" she exclaimed, tears pouring down her cheeks anticipating what was to come next.
Even though it killed me to even think of this answer it was the only one I could give to finally break her away from me. A clean break so she wouldn't try to hold onto me.
"No" I stated trying not to show how much this was hurting me inside. I only hoped that she would believe me this first time so I wouldn't have to try to hurt her any farther.
How could she possibly believe me! I read her face and could see that she was in pain and that I'd just broken my true loves heart I could also see that she honestly believed me. I felt enraged!
How many times had I told her that id loved her and could not live without her and within a couple of minutes all of those things meant nothing because of the words that I told her.
All this time I've been trying not to hurt her but after today my words hurt her the most. But she thought I had moved on which was good that was the point a clean break.
This was your choice Edward, you're saving her.
"Wait" she called a tear streaking down her face as she reached for me.
I reached back for a second then pinned her wrists to her sides . I tried to control my rage as I kissed her lips and then her eyes closed.
"Take care of yourself" I told her and ran for my car as fast as I could so that I would have no chance of turning back.
I kept telling myself that what is done is done I just have to wait for her to move on , even though I knew it wasn't true and to be honest it wasn't helping at all. As I ran I could feel that my heart was disappearing and despair and emptiness filling its spot.
I got in my car and started driving to Alaska. The only comfort I had was the 2 day old scent of my Bella that still lingered in my car.
I stopped sometime in the middle of the night and broke down. The only thing that was stopping me from going down to her house and climbing in through her window right this second was her safety. Why did I always have to be the responsible one?
I started driving to Alaska again. I didn't see the rode at all the only thing I saw was Bella, my Bella my sweet kind caring Bella when she was happy and smiling. Then I saw her when I had told her that I did not love her anymore when I told her that she was uninteresting I saw her when she was broken and I saw her with pain and despair etched on her face. That was unbearable and the contrast between the two Bella's was depressing.
My Bella was bright and happy and cheerful and she had love and life in her eyes. The other Bella was sad and depressing and it almost looked like she was burning inside and all the life and love was drained from her.
Bella pov
"Wait" I said reaching for him.
I thought he was reaching for me too but he pinned my arms down to my sides and kissed my lips I felt a slight ping then I closed my eyes "take care of yourself Bella" he whispered.
I fell to my knees and felt a painful burning in my face but this was nothing compared to pain I felt that my one true love left me.
Now everything is over love .LIFE .meaning over. I would rather have been dead then to live one minute without him.
I got in my truck and punched the gas. While I was driving there was no ignoring the burning sensation that was coursing through my body. I kept fighting it. I only needed to stay together for a few more minutes then I could fall to pieces all that I wanted.
I went north on one-oh-one then made a right on one-ten and then drove on till the pavement ended I was going on the familiar trail to our meadow.
The blazing fire that was burning my insides was growing. I finally found the meadow and sat down and even though the blazing fire was painful I was in much more pain so I curled up in a ball and let misery have me.
Soon enough the burning stopped. I was almost positive my heart had disappeared but then it started beating like a humming bird flapping its wings. I could barely hold in the ear piercing scream that was threatening to escape my throat.
Then it abruptly stopped. I suddenly realized what I had become. The dry ache in my throat was proof enough. I was a blood thirsty, strength filled. New born, VAMPIRE…….
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Wow that was fun! A big thanks goes out to my co-writer Kassie and all of my devoted readers!!! there will be more to come I promise Kassie and I have even started working on it already! remember that nothing makes a writers day more than a review....... like it, love it, hate it, i want to know how i did for my first try!!!:)