(A/N : Hi, I wanted to try a story from Kurts POV. I just watched the new Glee episode and I'm pissed at Rachel B. right now. I'm not a Klaine shipper, but good grief, does Kurt have any worse luck? No, not really. I don't think Ryan Murphy likes Kurt all that much (even if he is his self insert). In reviews, please tell me if Kurt is in character or not and why. I would like to improve on writing his POV. Thank you.)
Why on earth does it hurt this much?
It's a stupid game. Just a game. One kiss. And to top it off, they're both drunk to high heaven. Obviously, I'm not drunk enough, because I can still feel my heart break in two like a worthless piece of glass.
Even in the drunken state, you still think that the two would have a little bit more shame. I mean, they could at least have moved back a slight bit, maybe given me some space. But no, that's way to much to ask for. Is it, really? After all, I really could have moved myself. Stupidity hinders thought, is my only excuse.
Why am I so stupid?
He said he only wanted to be friend, really I should have expected this. Seen it coming. After all, I have just a general bad luck with relationships. My crush on Finn went to hell, in every sense of the word. I wasn't even given time to have a chance of liking Sam. And now Blaine. Even the guy that is actually gay is rejecting me. Gee, I really just have stupid luck.
The only thing that went right was Karofsky, or the lack of that overbearing Neanderthal. The only thing I am really looking forward to is around three things. 1, walking to my first class of the day without having a friendly trip to Mr. Dumpster. 2, even though it's not the same, there is still a glee club. And this brings me to number 3, which has been promptly kicked into the dirt. Blaine. But now, why even bother. I need to stop thinking that way.
Why does it have to be like this all the time?
It makes me feel slightly bitter. Not angry, just bitter. An empty feeling, very empty, as I watch my wasted peers and feel my stomach twist into a tight knot. Why oh why can't I ever like someone who actually returns my feelings? But no, Kurt the wonderful always has to find himself into stupid situations. It makes me think if I do this to myself on purpose.
I'm an atheist, but it's times like this that make me wonder if there is a God.
And if he's out to get me, too.