Authors Note: So, I got some recent inspiration to write a oneshot about this possible Ahsoka/Lux pairing from Season 3 Episode 10. This story takes place after Season 3 Episode 11, where we find out that Mina Bonteri (Lux's mom) was killed in a "Republic attack" the same way that Lux's father was killed.
Disclaimer: I don't own Star Wars: The Clone Wars.
Summary: Ahsoka meditates on the news of Mina Bonteri's death, and what this means for Lux.
Ahsoka crossed her legs "Jedi-style" as she sat on her neatly, made bed. She really just wanted to jump under the covers, pull them over her head and cry, but that was not the Jedi way. And what would Master Skywalker think of her attempting to relieve stress in such a childish, girlish way? No, she would be mature about this, even though it was one of the hardest mental challenges she'd ever have to overcome. Padme had let her know the news - no, horrible news - of Mina Bonteri's death. Attributed to a Republic Attack she had told her. Even though Ahsoka had a feeling that considering the circumstances, this must be some crazy cover-up by the Separatists.
Ahsoka then relaxed her arms and let them drop to the tops of her knees, and that was when the tears started welling up. All of this was so new to her, these emotions and her reactions. The way her body became weak, and feelings of utter sadness, betrayal, and overall guilt overtook her. Ahsoka closed her eyes in an attempt to stop the tears and relax through meditation, but it didn't work. The droplets of water just kept running down her face, and she watched as they dropped into her lap, and created dark spots on her bed sheets. She wanted to scream, to throw something, to let it all out. Everything she had ever felt, but had kept inside out of fear, came flooding back to her. Feelings of love, and warmth - things that she desperately needed, but could not become attached to. Attachment, the core issue with the Jedi philosophy.
"Don't become attached." They told her. Ever since she was brought to the temple, they've ingrained it in her.
But is it really possible to save something without being attached? Attachment motivates you to do whatever it takes, and maybe that's why the war hasn't ended. The Jedi just aren't attached to their cause, to the people they're trying to protect, Republic or Separatist - there's innocent people on both sides.
But, her greatest fear was what would Lux think of the Republic now? He'd see us as traitors, liars, and thieves. As if we're no different than Grievous, or Dooku.
And...would Lux see me in the same light? Would he still trust me? Does he know in his heart that I am different, that I...care. That I am...attached to him, and that what the Jedi see as my weakness, is really his strength?
Suddenly, the tears began to dry, and Ahsoka opened her eyes. And for the first time in her life she sat by the side of her bed on her knees, and prayed. She prayed to the Force, or to whoever, or whatever would listen, and hoped that one day she and Lux will meet on the battlefield, so he can see that love takes no sides, and that she will always be there fighting for him as his strongest ally.
Author's Note: What did you think? I think I just made myself love this pairing even more...Anyways, don't forget to Subscribe, Review, and Comment. Also, if you have any suggestions or requests for stories, feel free to tell me in the comments or PM me. I always love getting requests!