Do you understand what it's like to feel completely empty? To feel nothing but…sad…That there's just an emptiness that you can't fill the gap, can't fathom the words to explain and it's not like it's a new thing that you've never felt. Life is shit and when life gives you the good times it has to balance with the bad ones. Stiles got that. It's just when that bad turns into an a constant companion that he stressed out.

That's what Stiles felt. It started like a niggling at the back of his mind that only started whispering when he was on his own; when he was frustrated, when his Dad was working the late shift and Scotty was busy or the pack was busy an he just sat there, eating dinner on his own… for the third time this week.

It stayed that way for a really long time that Stiles just grew accustomed to the void in his chest so he really didn't see any point in telling anyone because when he was happy, he was ecstatic to feel loved so he simply… just forgot about the sadness.

But then he was surround with family an friends again an he didn't have the strength to talk to anyone, he found it hard to explain, he found the little things hard, getting up to go to school, going to a pack meeting were he would feel like the outsider… what with him simply being 'just an annoying human again' That went to the back of his mind when Peter sneered at him in a pack meeting once- the first meeting after the Nogitsune incident; he stored an ready to dwell on when he was alone. He remembered having to leave a classroom a couple of times to cause this stupid sadness just washed over him without warning an it would press itself onto his chest an create a physical pain: A panic attack. It wasn't a full blown panic, just that he found it hard to breathe hard to focus his vision.

When he was back to his 'normal self' he had to admit, he missed the fox, not all the shitty, demonic things he forced Stiles to do- his mind was still racked with overwhelming guilt over the death's he let happen- he still had nightmares. He just missed the inner strength, the lack to mortal ties the Noguitune gave him. He finally had a physical thing to blame for the sadness.

Stiles noticed he seemed to have picked up one bad habit left behind by the demonic fox; he would tap his fingers against a table, his desk, anything that made him feel calm.

Everyone told him that he was transfixed in a void state when he was controlled, but that made no sense to him cause to be honest with you; he felt more void in reality then he ever did in that state And to be fair his friends an even his father have been keeping out of his way. Stiles figured out that they couldn't separate the things 'evil foxy spirt Stiles' had done with the 'held against his will Stiles'

And he couldn't say he blamed them. He didn't even trust himself at the moment. And what with all the secret meetings and hushed whispers the pack had that they didn't know he knew about he found himself pretty much alone all the time.

So what happen's now?

He had know fucking idea.

Stiles spent most of his free time sat staring at the screen, on the internet; tying to fill his time before he could shut his brain off for a few hours before being awoken from another nightmare. He would even look through his homework an tap his pen on the empty paper before throwing that idea away along with the paper an pen.

The thing that hurt him the most was that nobody seemed to care; he knew that fact wasn't true but still, nobody came to see him or ask how he was. He was just so terribly lonely at times. He wanted to be happy. But now he was too scared, of everything, he couldn't go out, he just felt like a fish out of water whenever he stepped outside. He would try an quell the panic in his chest but failed, so after a few times of the same deal over an over again, he just stayed at home an locked himself away from the world.

He didn't know what to do, he was alone, scared and for fuck's shake he missed a demonic fox.

|A.N: Hey all. I decided to attempt to give writing a Teen Wolf thing. One because I love Stiles character in s3 an refuse to believe that he wouldn't have side effects, that an every other Stiles carry on story I've read has pretty much always had a Stiles/Derek tag an I'm just not interested in that couple... don't kill me.

R&R an I swear to you, a faster update will appear. Just so I know is this story any good? Bye.|