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~ Melancholy of a Demon's Heart ~
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How can I get over you
Why do we have to be apart…
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We go where nobody
has ever been
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And we come again
from the place we have never known
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There are too many shadows
of your love everywhere around me
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Stuck, stuck, stuck in love
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Mysterious light,
I'm still discovering
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How can I get over you
Why do we have to be apart
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And I'm wondering
if you know why know why
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And I'm wondering
if you know why know why.
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Walking down the path from Shinou's Castle is one of the most wonderful thing one can do.
Beautiful trees surround the Castle and wild flowers are abundant… one may feel that he or she enters an ethereal world. A world of freshness, insects of all kinds whisper to each other, twilight dew touches each leaves… leaving a tear on each of them.
He grins to himself, he had been walking this path for Shinou knows how long - but every time were in a hurry, in war, in crisis… that he had no time to appreciate the beauty of his surroundings.
Astounding.
Yes, it truly is breathtaking… flowers of wild colors and breeds form the bushes, trees in their wild colors, the humming of the seasonal cicadas can be heard.
In Shin Makoku a cicada was a new species. Murata Ken – the Soukoku no Daikenja brings one summer a cicada – an insect from Earth. He told them he wants to breed them here in Shin Makoku. In Japan, the cicada is associated with the summer season. The songs of the cicada are often used in Japanese film and television to indicate the scene is taking place in the summer – or so the Geika told them. He doesn't know what it means but what attracts his attention is what it symbolizes.
Since the cicada emerges from the ground to sing every summer, in Japan it is seen as a symbol of Reincarnation. Of special importance is the fact that the cicada moults, leaving behind an empty shell. But furthermore, since the cicada only lives for the short period of time long enough to attract a mate with its song and complete the process of fertilization, they are seen as a symbol of evanescence.
He had to hand it to the Geika – he knows what his doing. Truly cicada's became the craze of the Shin Makoku people and children loves to play with them and it is like a constant reminder of the coming and ending of the season.
He can smell it – for it feels cold and a ray of white sunlight travels through the atmosphere – some of the colors are scattered out of the beam changing the final color of the beam… Blue… Green.. orange… the feel that the Mother Night is approaching.
He stops for a moment and let out a tired sigh.
'I really am stupid…' he can't help but laugh wryly. A laughter that void of happiness but full of sarcasm, agony and sneer.
He made a fool of himself.
What the hell was he thinking giving the wimp that kind of confession?
Have he lost his mind?
I mean c'mon! Who was he fooling? No matter what, no matter where, and no matter the circumstances there's just no way the royal Wimp would change his mind.
Just no way.
Maybe he can say 'thanks for your effort' to himself - because he tried - he did try! And it just hurts… sure he is Wolfram von Bielefeld - the so called Wagamama Puu a.k.a. Little Lord Brat a.k.a. Selfish Loafer a.k.a. the annoying fiancé…
But it still hurts… he touches his heart. It hurts. The pain inside made him stop – he closes his eyes to stop the pain. The pain that no one knew existed within him.
The pain that everyone ridicule… the feelings inside of him that they all think of light and not to be taken seriously…
The pain that almost killed him.
He was a fool - a stupid fool to even listen to that hungry heart of his – to let himself be lost for a moment – to try to reason… to try to say what he feels… He thought that for a moment he can see something, one emotion on those obsidian eyes…
Any feeling… any at all… except for that distant… please-let-me-go look.
What a fool he made himself.
He was still holding on that situation – on that so called accidental engagement… accidental slap on the face.
Yes… he is still the fiancé but not for long.
He closes his eyes and stares once again to the sky - it looks peaceful but the colors glares at him - as if in turbulent mood… just like him.
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'Yuuri… please… please wait for me.' was his foolish plea to the Maou. He was looking at those beautiful black eyes with so much longing and pleading… he never pleads… but this is his last chance.
Come what may – he need to say those words to Yuuri. He needs to say the words inside his heart.
'I don't know Wolf… please do understand. I need to do this. I need to find myself and be the Maou-King - Shin Makoku needs.'
He closes his eyes remembering the determination on Yuuri's eyes, and it hurt it.
Cuts like a knife.
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As if Yuuri was saying a different meaning to him… to let go…
And without a single glance at him… he left.
Shibuya Yuuri – his fiancé left.
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Left and didn't even think for a moment that him pleading and confessing wasn't a great deal.
It took a lot of strength for him to confess. But no matter how hard he tried and reason and tell Yuuri his feelings, Yuuri the Maou left him with nothing.
'Yuuri…'
'Wolf, please don't try to stop me. I have plans. Great plans for Shin Makoku and its future.'
It cuts deep.
Straight in his already wounded, scarred heart. How many more wounds can one take? How many more slashes of raw cuts can he handle in the future?
The future.
Shin Makoku's future… not our future.
Our future.
But his future.
Yes, for the future of Shin Makoku, his fiancé left for the other world and decided to stay there for five years.
Five years.
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Ten years in Shin Makoku…
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Yuuri told him and the others his reason.
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He told it one evening. That evening when he wants to close that gap between them.
Yuuri announced it to them on dinner.
In order for him to rule Shin Makoku without regrets from where he came from he decided to finish his studies on Earth. He needs to take an exam from a university. He wants to study Economics Growth and Development, Conrart says it's Social Sciences.
'Let me do this on my own. I have the heart and strength here, but because you are always with me in every way. Allow me to study and learn more.'
In the young Maou's heart he wants to improve Shin Makoku without destroying the natural resources and without introducing weapons or things that destroys Earth. The Maou doesn't want Shin Makoku to repeat Earth's mistake.
And in order for him to do that, he must first understand how a country works and function - he doesn't want Shin Makoku to be like Earth.
Earth was once the most beautiful, resourceful planet. It was paradise… but with man's greed and selfishness he destroyed it. Its scary and with all the Mazoku and their Maryoku's and human spell caster it isn't impossible - so the young Maou decided to learn the proper way to govern and study Industrial relations and all those stuff.
'Listen to me, I have watched many movies and history is part of my favorite subject and to tell you the truth Earth is a scary place. I don't want to lose the natural resources and the peace and elements of Shin Makoku, for me this is paradise. Mazoku can use spell and the elements. I even admired all of you who can naturally summon their elements without being angered or being controlled by your emotion. You can use it at will. Imagine – a bunch of kids with earth-shattering Maryoku and once angered can ruin everything. That is what Earth is – the people there. Introduce them to a new power and they will grab it. Men have infinite greed inside of them.'
Yuuri doesn't want Gunter, Gwendal and Conrart to babysit him forever in Shin Makoku. The Maou doesn't want to lose a country just because he wasn't knowledgeable.
Yuuri explains it to them with so much passion and conviction and Murata agrees.
He saw Yuuri looks at Murata Ken.
'Shibuya is right. I have admired Shin Makoku before and I admired them and respect Mazoku's today. You have elements at your bidding yet you don't use it to conquer and destroy others. Human isnt like that – or should I say, Earthlings aren't like Mazoku's. They cant control their power – once given to them – We're humans. When we really want something, we lie.'
'Why?' Gunter asked with that beautiful frown of his.
'Because - that's how you become president.' Murata grinned.
'Eh?'
'Well, what I meant is that humans will do anything to get what they want and they have no qualms of destroying anything. And I'm backing up on Shibuya's plan of studying on Earth, he will learn more and its like a cautious step towards the safety of Shin Makoku. As the Daikenja, I wouldn't let anything happen on this world. We Mazoku's live on our elements and its environment. Shibuya's plan is not just a whim. Almost the only persons who may be said to comprehend even approximately the significance, principles, and purposes of Socialism are the chief leaders of the extreme wings of the Socialistic forces, and perhaps a few of the money kings themselves.'
He then saw Gwendal smirk and Conrart shook his head.
Once Murata Ken speaks, the whole castle listens.
Maybe because Murata Ken – the so-called Soukoku no Daikenja – now a days speak with more conviction and more and more like the Great Sage he was, though yeah, he still wears that cocky grin of his and that teasing tone every time he greets him.
Its freaky annoying.
He sighs and put his palm on his face. He still cant believe it – that annoying pervert can speak with resolve and with perfectly strong points in his reasoning.
He shows more the Soukoku no Daikenja 'wisdom'.
The Daikenja too felt that Yuuri being a young Maou needs to understand the world more. Yuuri was born on Earth - and his studies only include minimal information on human nature. If he enters college and know a lot more he will broaden his mind.
He laughs sarcastically – yeah broaden his mind but still close minded on the relationship with men. Ahou! Stupid freaking brain-dead on pigheadedness!
The Daikenja told them, that Yuuri cant all solved problems with just his smile and naiveté. Though that makes him special… he doesn't want to have casualties.
Well, Geika was right on that matter once again.
Yuuri's naïveté causes a lot of distress and misunderstanding and yes - there were casualties that can be prevented if Yuuri was prepared and knows how to play the game. He cant stay young and a kid forever.
When Gunter intervened and told Yuuri that he can learn all that here in Shin Makoku - it was again the Daikenja who explains to them that Yuuri need to do this for himself - he is in between worlds and needs to accept that when he ruled Shin Makoku - he cant be on Earth anymore. Well he can still visit but his heart and place are in Shin Makoku.
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'Heart and place my ass!'
Wolfram kicks the entrance door.
'Kaka!' Dakoskos was startled and stares at him. He glares at the soldier and walks with a vengeance. He saw the soldier gulp and stares at the other direction.
Well whoever saw him will definitely know his pissed.
ROYALLY PISSED.
He felt his palm itching – itching to light a fire and throw it on that Double Black with that stupid goofy smile!
'Oh! Wolfram! You're back. What took you so long? All of us have returned hours ago?' Gunter asked him and he noticed that there's sadness and a little pity on those lavender eyes.
Very rare to see especially if those lavender eyes in his direction.
He doesn't like to see that though. He doesn't want pity. Heck! His WOLFRAM VON BIELEFELD for crying out loud! Pity him and he'll burn you!
He shrugged and didn't answer and continue walking, he knows what they have been all thinking.
Yuuri left for the benefit of Shin Makoku and left him… without truly knowing the truth or doesn't he?
That Wimp!
Yuuri will be gone for five years. And that equivalents to ten years in Shin Makoku - and the breaking of their engagement. The Wimp didn't even bother to ask if him staying in other world would be a technical default of their engagement.
Of course it would be a default! In five years - in Shin Makoku he and Yuuri won't be engaged anymore - neglect of duty or in layman's term: abandoned.
He was abandoned! Dammit!
Everyone knows this and he knows some are curious why he didn't even bother to explain it to their Heika.
Really? Didn't bother? Shinou's sake!
He grits his teeth in frustration.
He was like a fool for more than years parading himself as the fiancé of the Maou and not once Yuuri even bother to ask what is the rules of a Mazoku engagement.
He sighs and stops walking.
He looks at Shinou's portrait.
The beautiful face of a man – with its sun kissed hair and sapphire blue eyes. Eyes that holds wisdom, power and strength.
'You are one clever son of a bitch you know that.'
He walks past the other portrait of the old Daikenja.
Yuuri never bother means he wasn't interested at all.
Yes. Not one iota!
But then again can he blame Yuuri who was born from other world? He has been saying 'HOMO HOMO HOMO' but those words for him are offensive. Because in Shin Makoku there is no word HOMOSEXUAL. There is female and male.
If a woman marries a man its a blessing and fruition of production.
If a woman marries a woman it brings joy and felicity.
If a male marries a male it signifies love and partnership.
There is no word homosexual.
Argh! It makes him so mad! How come Yuuri can be so damn thickheaded!
He was so mad that he didn't notice the anger in his stride and bump into someone.
'Whoa! Slow down sweetheart - you'll break my heart… literally.'
ARGH! Another thickheaded - no make that pervert thickheaded Sage from all ages!
'Hump! I have no time for your silly games Geika.'
The Double Black Sage feints a hurt in his face and holds his chest dramatically.
'I'm hurt. Me? Play games with you? Why should I even do that Von Bielefeld-Kyo?'
Wolframs rolled his eyes and continue walking - it would be a waste of time and effort to ever talk seriously to the Double Black of Corruption.
He doesn't know when did it started, the Geika being a 'Hentai Soukoku no Daikenja'. Whenever he greets him - there will always be that teasing tone that gets him annoyed so much.
Just a simple 'Good morning dear Von Bielefeld-Kyo.' 'How are you my dear Von Bielefeld-Kyo.'
Maybe it's also his fault, being pissed for no reason at all. It's just that Murata Ken gets on his nerves!
The Geika can laugh and tease so casually with him, unlike Yuuri who he thinks was cautious with him, its like Yuuri doesn't want to be that too close with him for fearing he might take it the wrong way. The last time they have a physical contact was that 'hug' or if one can call it a hug, when he went to look for Conrart and was gone for sometime. The issue with Saralegui's trusted bodyguard.
The Daikenja flirts and knows how to play his card well. And yes, he had to admit that the Geika isn't like Yuuri in the aspect that he doesn't prejudice and doesn't shouts 'HOMO'.
Sometimes he finds himself talking more with the Daikenja instead of Yuuri.
If truth be told, one can say that he spends more time with the Daikenja than his Maou-fiancé.
Because the perverted Daikenja is more open to talk to him, or maybe because the Daikenja is calculating and more mature. He and the Daikenja were more mature than Yuuri – well not just in terms of age but in views of life. He was after all the Captain of his army.
Yuuri becomes indifferent with him with the passing of days. He doesn't want to blame Yuuri… it was his fault too. He lost patience and blurted out things - things he never regret saying but create a bundle of wall between the two of them.
His outburst results with him going back to his old room, and Greta having sad eyes.
Poor beloved Greta.
'Papa Wolf…'
Greta knows what he feels. Greta, his little adopted daughter had been there for him and knows his feelings… as Greta grows old, he felt so drench.
Little Greta who only wish for both his father's happiness.
Years and years and Yuuri still wouldn't acknowledge him.
And Greta knowing the pain of that one-sided love. He thought that he can handle it. He thought he can endure it.
Pathetic. Your own daughter taking a pity on you.
The pain.
Actually, he is not one to complain about those pain. He was used to it. He was used to heartaches and heartbreaks - he learn it from his father, mother and brothers… but as one grows old… the pain can cut more deep inside a person's heart.
It's like a wine. Wine grows sweeter with the passing of years. It becomes scrumptious and many awaits for the opening. And him… that pain inside of him as the passing of years becomes suffering. Some feeling that accompanies misery.
He thought he was immune, that he wouldn't cry nor would feel this twinge. But he was naïve and underestimate the amount of feelings he had for Yuuri.
From the moment Yuuri turn his back on him, he felt that throbbing grief.
So excruciating…
It was a pain that he had never felt before…
His heart has thorns here and there.
He was to keep everything inside and wait for Yuuri to decide, but he just have to drink that night and went berserk with Yuuri's decision on going back to Earth.
He could have avoided it… but…
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'What's the hurry Von Bielefeld-Kyo?'
He jerk around and forget that Murata Ken is still walking beside him. The past can truly muddle your mind.
'Just leave me alone.'
'And if I don't?'
He sighs and look on those oh so beautiful familiar black eyes. 'Look Geika, maybe I don't want to talk right now,' he hurried his steps. He knows that being the pestering Geika he wouldn't leave him alone, especially now that Yuuri is gone with Conrart.
He heard that 'what-a-stubborn-child' sigh and he grits his teeth more.
'Von Bielefeld-Kyo. You know Shibuya. He would never hurt you.'
'Yeah right.'
'Are you by any chance jealous that he choose Weller-Kyo to accompany him instead of you? His fiancé?' there's a test in the Geika's voice.
He stops for a moment.
Is that the other reason for his temper?
He looks straight in the Daikenja's eyes.
'Truthfully Geika. No. Even I will elect Conrart to guard him. Conrart has the experience and will never let Yuuri harm even himself…'
'So its just that he doesn't include you?'
'That's not it Geika and I would very much appreciate it if you drop the subject.'
'Von Bielefeld-Kyo.'
He looks at the Daikenja with a glare and storms off.
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Murata Ken sighs.
'Wagamama Puu. Tsundere through and through.
Wolfram von Bielefeld-Kyo. He sighs and looks at the disappearing slender back of the blonde Prince. Wolfram is a bundle of mystery. One moment the most scary and demanding fiancé, the next – the most loyal and generous friend… and the most brave and has a lion of a heart soldier.
Wolfram is a tsundere, initially cold and even hostile towards another person before gradually showing their warm side over time… showing them to a very few people… and it hurts but he doesn't have yet the opportunity to have that sweet moments with the delectable Prince.
He shook his head. If and if only if Wolfram changed – Shibuya might have a heart attack. If Wolfram becomes a yandere… a person who is initially very loving and gentle to someone before their devotion becomes destructive in nature, often through violence – Shibuya better hide his ass!
He looks at the walking Prince and when Wolfram was out from his sight he touches his heart.
Its beating wildly.
Frantically.
Wolfram von Bielefeld-Kyo always did that to him.
Oh his poor heart! With that beating and all thumping he might just fall and drop dead.
Emerald green eyes.
He had seen those eyes before. But unlike the eyes of Rufus that holds so much wonder, respect and love for him – Wolfram's eyes doesn't even spare him a glance. He truly wants to kick Shinou for being a damn wonderful meddler.
He smiles pathetically. The only person he can blame is himself.
The past have a way of kicking his ass.
Rufus loves him with so much passion and yes, so does he. But the war was upon them and love wasn't an option those days. He rejected Rufus with a vengeance and told her that all his time and love was with Shinou-Heika.
But of course, he doesn't want Rufus to hope. He had given his word that he will protect the perfect soul and the pact with Shinou must be fulfilled – it was not flawless and he needs to be there in all centuries and in all time.
And now, he only has one life – one lifetime to spend it – either in regret or in happiness.
And truthfully – he wants to be happy.
Selfish or not – he wants to be happy.
In the beginning of time – the heart of the Bielefeld was his.
Yes.
He was the other side of the piece.
He had spent so much of his lifetime wasting his time – he was an adult film actress named Christine who lived in Hong Kong. The life before that he was a French doctor named Henry Régent, he was also a Spanish bread maker, a Venetian bakery worker, an ancient Egyptian mummy maker, and a knight in the crusades.
And all have a miserable life story to tell – and he wants happiness.
He made a bet with Shinou.
And he would not waste this opportunity to have that love meant for him. Yes, bloody everlasting hell – it was meant for him and he will be damn to let it go and waste it away.
Shinou made that engagement to secure the line and the keys – and both of them wasn't aware of the outcome if one with a fire in his heart becomes the fiancé – truly falls in love.
He had been patient.
He had been giving and reasonable.
He had been the best friend and the advisor.
He had been reasoning to Shibuya since day one.
But he had enough.
If Shibuya doesn't want to have the happiest life in the world – then he would grab it for himself. Because from the start – 4000 years ago – it was his.
He was the real fated person of a Bielefeld.
And Wolfram was his.
Promise to him by destiny.
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Shibuya Yuuri gives a laugh at Ayami's joke.
'Right Yuu-chan! It was so funny! That dress doesn't fit her at all but no – she just have to insist to wear that! She looks like a total idiot.'
They were eating and he was bored to death. Yup, bored to the point that Ayami couldn't even take a hint that his laughter is not a joy happy laugh – but a sarcastic one.
He cant believe that all girls he dated will always – always laugh at the expense of others. These women are mean. All of them are craving the latest fashion trends, wants to have the hottest guy and all those stuff. Their faces always stuck on the phone – taking photos, bragging about it in social media. Showing off their latest 'conquest', not even bothering about others.
And yeah – he knows why they are dating him – arrogant aside he is not Shibuya Yuuri with that baby face and lanky build anymore. Thanks to Conrad's everyday sword-training, jogging and yes being the Captain of the baseball also helps. He now has the body build of a man just like Conrad. And he can even wipe those bullies with just a simple stare from his so eyes.
Girls calls him Maou. Not because he was transforming as the Maou but more and more he was becoming manlier, taller and they say that his eyes have a slit once pissed. Well those are truly the characteristic of the Maou, but they were calling him that because he has that incredible aura.
Conrad states that he and the Maou from the start are one person, as he grows old and matures, the Maou inside of him welcomes the change. Conrad also says that Julia's soul already give way to the Maou, because he Shibuya Yuuri is maturing and doesn't need any more guidance. He is also sporting his hair long. He likes it long.
He sips his already cold coffee while Ayami keeps on talking and he gives his warm smile – looks like listening but truthfully his mind is elsewhere.
In that far away land… with those angry looking birds who keeps on shouting 'bad omen!'. A land where early in the morning you can hear a blast of bricks and a grunt from Gwendal. A corridor where you can hear 'Heika! Heika! Oh Heika!' from a mild, whimsical person and poetic in his thoughts and the number 2 test subject of Anissina. Gunter with his stereotypical feminine personality. A splendid smile from his sweet loving daughter 'Yuuri! Daddy Yuuri!' Greta with her smile like the fresh breathe of morning…
'CHEATER!'
He was startled!
He looks around and for a moment he was about to say 'WOLFRAM!' but what he saw was just two high school boys playing DSi – maybe both are dueling through wifi. And with the looks of it one is cheating.
He smiles tenderly.
How many years have he not heard that word?
Three? Four? Four and half years to be exact.
'Nee Yuu-chan, chotto matte. I need to talk to Nene on the phone.'
'Sure. Take your time.'
He just smiles and knows that talk will take hours.
He drinks his coffee and look outside.
It's a beautiful sunset – glaring yellow, orange, red in the sky, just like his Angel's hair and temper.
Wolfram.
The demon whose been attacking his sleep nowadays. Or to be more precise since the day he left Shin Makoku.
Had he been a fool? Had he been stubborn?
Yes.
Maybe no one knows but he was for always have been awed by that demon's look. He was a Bishōnen in every way. Beautiful boy… no to be more exact an angel… except when he opens his mouth.
Wolfram was more mature than him, he was like his voice of reason and encouragement.
They were the best of friend…
Those days – wherever Yuuri is – one knows that Wolfram – the Blonde Demon Prince is not far behind. Wolfram was always there.
He softly close his eyes and remember that day his heart made a somersault – but wouldn't even bother to acknowledge it.
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He was about to fall to the mountain side…
'Finally, I caught you!'
He looked up and an angel caught his hand… a beautiful angel with the most beautiful eyes he had ever seen in his whole life.
'Wolfram, what are you doing here?'
'Well Yuri, since you're such a little flirt, I put a transmitter on you so I could track you down the world over. Come on, I'm lifting you up.'
'One false move and you'll fall too.'
And that time – he thought an angel fall down the sky when Wolfram smiles. 'In that case, we'll just fall together.'
How many times had he blushed, secretly rolled his eyes with Wolfram's words.
'How do you expect me to focus on battle if I'm embarrassed to death?'
'How could you do it? Dance with a woman behind my back'
'Now listen, you think you're cute and maybe you're actually are, but being cute doesn't make it okay for you to be unfaithful.'
'Hey! And stay away from young ladies and handsome men! You dog.'
He laughed softly. Wolfram can do that to him.
He just needs to remember his little Angel's words and everything will be sunshine and daisies to him.
What was his third impression on Wolfram? Hmmm… A mama's boy? Those conversation was the weirdest of them all.
'You haven't change. You're the splitting image of me. All the men here must be lusting after you.' And he saw the sexy queen hugs the bishōnen onto her rich bosom.
'I'm not really into having men lust after me.' And that said bishōnen had the grace to blush.
'You mean boys these days aren't into that?'
'Well, I'm not.'
And when he said those words 'You know I think I'm feeling my inferiority complex growing by the minute.' All he could ever think of is Wolfram so damn beautiful.
Everything started so beautiful and every day even their life is in constant danger, challenges, every day is an adventure.
He had that great adventure with Wolfram. Sure Conrad was there and so was his best friend Murata – but its different when Wolfram is with him. With Wolf, he can be himself… he can laugh silly, and he had to admit – he felt his ego rise up whenever they're on Earth and Wolf will have that big gorgeous eyes in innocent sparkle. Wolf will hold onto him to ask. He felt like his the boss.
But what went wrong?
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HIM.
Him what went wrong.
He became conscious of every little thing that is happening to Wolfram.
He noticed every little thing that is happening to Wolfram…
Like when Wolfram trembles, how the sweat falls continuously on his pale face – he was worried whenever Wolfram is pale. He feels that Wolfram needs a lot of energy and food – forgetting that Wolf was a soldier.
He was worried that Wolf might be neglecting again to eat the right food – that demon prince has a sweet tooth. Or that he forgot to eat just to prove himself a better soldier.
What change him?
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Maybe that one lazy afternoon, when he was asking Yozak what was like before, that war so many years ago that earn Conrad's scar. Wolfram was there arguing with Yozak and him – but shuts up when Yozak speaks.
It was a sad story… Yozak was telling it with his usual casualness. Wolfram suddenly slouches and falls asleep – Yozak chuckles – saying he must be a boring story-teller – he too laughs softly – and with gentle hands adjusted Wolfram to his shoulder so he can sleep more comfortably.
He was unconsciously patting the Demon Prince's hair and grinning like silly.
Yozak grins and told him about him and Wolf – the change between them. That him Yuuri has that glow and sweetness whenever he was with Wolfram and also Wolfram in return. Yozak knows Wolf as the brat who doesn't like him and the Captain but there was a change in him since he came to Shin Makoku.
Yozak said goodbye and told him he doesn't want to disturb.
He closes his eyes.
That day he grew frighten.
He suddenly stands and leaves Wolfram.
What was happening to him?
Yes he was scared – he doesn't know that he and Wolfram were becoming so close that yeah – he even dreams of the Demon.
In a very uncompromising position. Wet dreams in laymen's term.
He cant believe he is dreaming of being aggressive and topping Wolfram… and those dreams are so damn erotic that he had to run towards the bath to calm himself – one of the reasons he doesn't like Wolf in his bed, it adds the delirious state his in.
He grew scared and distanced himself.
'Shibuya, you are hurting Von Bielefeld-Kyo with your sudden attitude.'
'What are you talking about?'
'Are you going to play dumb?'
'Its none of your business Murata.'
He shrugged off the advice of his best friend.
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He was the one who change.
When Wolfram confessed to him – he become scared.
He cannot handle it that time.
He was… he was still naïve and was afraid of the things ahead.
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Yes, he was attracted to Wolfram but when Wolfram confessed to him he become afraid that what he was feeling to his Demon Prince was just lust.
He doesn't want to take advantage of Wolfram.
When Wolfram confessed, he wanted to carry his Demon Prince and throw him to his bed and ravished him.
He become scared.
The feelings of desire in carnal wanton way he had for Wolfram is nothing against the pure confession of Wolfram.
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He rejected Wolfram.
He needs to know more.
He needs to see if what he was feeling was correct.
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If the feeling was love and not lust.
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On earth, he buried himself in his study, sports and yes women.
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He wanted to prove something.
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He slowly stand up and when he saw Ayami still talking on the phone, he went outside the balcony of the restaurant and on the railing.
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He then remembered the last time they have talked:
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'Oi! You wimp! The hell is that announcement all about? Have you been thinking this clearly? Without you here – Dai Shimaron might try another plot? Are you even thinking here?'
'Wolf, my decision is final. I know what you mean, but we have a treaty and its not like I'm going to another planet, I can always be here.'
'But… Yuuri… think… G-Greta would be lonely.'
He slowly approaches Wolfram and smiles. 'That's why you're here Wolf. You're also her father right? Greta has you and she will never be lonely. You are a wonderful person.' He smiles tenderly at Wolfram.
'Y-Yuuri… h-how about me?'
'Eh?'
'I-I mean… Yuuri… when are you going?'
'Oh. Tomorrow morning.'
'WHAT?'
'I have to study for the entrance exam and mind you Wolf, exam to get to a university beats Gunter's exams. It's a helluva lot more hard.'
'Tomorrow… So suddenly?'
'Yeah. And look Wolf, you're here. You being here means no one can step on Shin Makoku. You are like the 28th Maou.'
'I don't like that joke Yuuri.'
'I am not joking. The Ten Nobles have voted you and it means you are more than capable. Its also a training to you Wolf, both of us learning different things and finding new ways to grow.'
'But… you are so far away Yuuri…'
'Eh. What's wrong with it?'
'I'm going to miss you.'
His heart beat.
He saw the sadness in those verdure green grass eyes.
'Uhm… well… I'm going to miss you too…'
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He was the most stupid person to just say those words not knowing the hurt and pain he had caused his fiancé.
And in Shinou's temple he just found out the truth.
'Yuuri, please… please wait for me. I love you, I guess you know that-'
'Wolf. Wait. What's going on. What's with this-'
'Listen! I don't have the courage to repeat this once again so you better listen. I love you. I love you-'
'But I do love you too, you're my best friend and-'
'Yuuri! Listen to me! I love you as a man!'
And he saw when Wolfram was about to throw himself at him when he pushed Wolfram hard… he didn't mean to… but it was hard…and he saw the pain there.
He pushes Wolfram away from him.
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'Wolf… gome! Ano…'
Wolfram looks at him. The hurt vanished and was replaced by coldness.
'Its fine… Heika.'
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Heika.
Yuuri Heika.
That day, because of his embarrassment – he left without looking at Wolfram… he was afraid to see that hurt and coldness in those beautiful grass eyes.
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'Don't call me Heika.'
When Conrad calls him Heika – he was annoyed because he was his godfather.
But when Wolfram calls him Heika… it hurts.
So painful inside.
Its like – a thousand needles piercing him.
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'Nee! Yuu-chan! Gome! Why are you here outside?'
Yuuri smiles and looks at Ayami. Slender, cute, black hair, black eyes, sweet… but… she's not Wolfram.
'Ayami-chan let's break up.'
'Eh?'
'Thank you for everything.'
'Eh… cho-chotto matte!'
'Bye Ayami-chan.'
'Oi! YUU-CHAN!'
His running. Running against the wind.
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He smiles.
He smiles widely.
He laughs while running.
Wolfram.
He wanted to see Wolfram.
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'CONRAD! LET'S GO HOME!'
'Eh. Yuuri?'
'Let's go home. I want to go home. Damn it all – I want to go home.'
He saw Conrad smile slowly… getting his point.
'As you wish Yuuri.'
'Conrad, ano… forgive. I've been slow and well, yeah a wimp – Wolf is right you know. He was so right - I am a wimp! Hahaha! I just figured it out!'
'You're not a wimp Yuuri, well, you're just slow.'
'But I'm scared of Gwendal!'
'There is really nothing to be afraid of Heika. Gwendal won't eat you.'
'He better not…. But seriously Conrad, I'm sorry for hurting Wolf. He deserves more and I will do that. I think I know what I want all along but just been so stubborn and stupid. I want Wolfram. And I need your blessing. I want to make Wolfram mine…. Forever.'
'Why the sudden change?'
'Nope. I didn't change. I just couldn't admit it before… but all the girls I've been with… I cant help but see Wolfram. All I can think was him. I might be crazy for not realizing it sooner – blaming hormones and all, but really – Wolf - he was what I wanted all along. I was in love with him all along but was afraid of everything at the same time.'
'Then if you feel it right. Let's go home. I don't need to hear this – but my baby brother.'
'THANKS CONRAD!'
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When I look at you, tears keep falling
I don't know why
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Did you go round and round
To come to me?
I can't avoid this love
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I love you.
I call it fate
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And I miss you.
You are my destiny
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Why are you looking at me
With those sad eyes?
Don't cry
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Did you recognize me right away?
Why did you come to me now?
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I love you.
I felt that it was fate
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And I miss you.
You are my destiny
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Even if I'm born again
Wherever you are hiding
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I will find you
Let's never be apart now
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Don't leave me.
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'Wolfram! Gunter! Gwendal! Where is Wolfram?'
The sudden alert of Ulrike that Yuuri and Conrart are arriving made Gunter and Gwendal immediately went to Blood Pledge Fountain.
'EHHHHHHHHHHHHH – HEIKA? What – what are you doing here?' Gunter cant still believe that their Maou is really here.
Conrart chuckles, 'Gunter, where is Wolfram, just answer Heika before he lose his nerves.'
'Eh? Oh – wha – okay in the Shinou's temp- ehhhh wait Heika!' Before Gunter can finish his sentence, Yuuri storms out to get his horse at the stable.
Conrad chuckles.
Gwendal frowns his head and asked his brother, 'What re you doing here 6 months earlier than the time of his arrival?'
'Wow – not even hello brother?'
'Cut the dramatics. Just answer me.'
'Let's just say – our young King finally finds himself.'
'Hmp. Too late.' Gwendal said and shook his head.
'What? What are you talking about?'
'Oh poor Heika!' Gunter cries and Conrad looks around him.
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Something is wrong…
No… make that something changed.
'Hello Unca Con.' Greta greeted him and what a surprised – she's a lot older and Anissina coming in with her… but instead of the smile he thought would welcome them – there is sadness and… is that lost in their eyes.
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'WOLFRAM!'
'YUURI?'
'Wolfram! Hahahaha!'
Yuuri jumps off Ao and runs and hugs Wolfram with all his might. He holds Wolf and like in the movies of long lost lover – he lifts Wolfram and laughs.
'I miss you Wolf!'
'Oi! Oi! Put me down!'
Yuuri laughs and put Wolfram down.
'By the Gods! You are so beautiful.' Yuuri said while holding the face of Wolfram,
Yuuri cant believe what an idiot he'd been. Just looking right now at Wolfram.
So damn beautiful.
He misses Wolfram. Missing him so much.
Wolfram still have that innocent lips and so damn gorgeous eyes.
Blonde and green eyes. The most lethal combination for him.
'What are you dong here?'
'I love you.'
'Huh?'
'I am so in love with you.'
'Yuu-'
'Look! Wait – I know I've been a fool and all. So listen – don't interrupt me or throw fireballs at me – just listen. I love you. I love you since time immemorial – I mean, I love you all long but I was a wimp! Yes a wimp whose afraid of admitting my feelings for you isn't just friendship. I know you can never forgive me for all those stupid, sheesh even the harsh things I did before – but please give me a chance. I truly will do everything for you. I love you for no reason at all. I cant explain everything and right now its all in jumble but what I'm trying to say… give me a chance… I love you. I want to marry you. I want us and Greta to be a real family. I don't know my life without you by my side. I love you and I will repeat that again and again until the day I die.'
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Wolfram looks at him – he was not sure actually of what Wolfram's eyes say because his eyes are already watering with tears by his confession.
He was a fool.
His love was here all along.
The tears just flow with the love he have for Wolfram.
Wolfram untangles himself to the tight embrace of Yuuri, that the latter frown. Wolfram steps back and looks at Yuuri.
'Are you finished?'
'Yes. Please… just please… give it a moment. Think…'
'Thank you Yuuri. Wow! That's just like a major confession.' Wolfram smiles and Yuuri was not sure, but Wolfram patted his shoulder, like removing a dust on his shirt.
Yuuri furrows his brow. This isnt like Wolfram. He should be blushing and well – if angry should be shouting and hitting him – but not this quiet demon.
'Thank you Yuuri. That's the most wonderful thing you've said. But – '
'Look! Wolf please. No buts – please please – I'm begging you, find in yourself to give me chance.'
He was about to hold him again when Wolfram steps back and hold out his hand.
'Stop.'
'I'm begging you Wolf'
He was crying.
He cant help but cry.
He doesn't want to listen to Wolfram's but.
'Yuuri… please don't cry.'
'Why? I'm begging you just give me a chance and right now – please no buts?'
'Yuuri… you will forget me.'
'What? No – I cant – Wolf-'
'You have to forget me.'
'Why?'
'Yuuri. I'm in love.'
'Oh Wolf!' he was about to cry with happiness.
'To Murata Ken. I'm in love with the Daikenja.'
'What?.'
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Wolfram only looks at him.
'Stop it… stop this joke. Don't lie to me please. I know I've been a fool and all that kind of bastard. But I love you. Please, if this is your way of making me jealous then yes! Its effective! Don't say you love someone else!'
'Yuuri. I'm married… I'm married to the Daikenja, Murata Ken.'
Wolftam then shows him his left finger, with a wedding gold ring and a silver engagement ring. One Black and one green
Black Diamond. The signature stone of Murata Ken.
Emerald Green. The stone of Wolfram von Bielefeld.
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