In the Moment
Castle's thoughts before he yanks the wires from the bomb. Spoiler heavy for 3x13 and 3x17.
Those few moments were priceless. Not in a way that deserves a camera and a smile though. They were priceless, cause they were going to be our last.
That was when I got that idea. It was a stupid one mind you, but an idea nonetheless. I guess I've been more willing to let those stupid ideas roam free since that night.
The kiss. The forbidden topic. I dream about it at night. I can remember how soft her lips we're under mine, how she molded to my body, and how if we hadn't been in danger and she wasn't dating motorcycle-boy, it would've been perfect.
But no, things hadn't worked out the way I want them to. I couldn't rewrite the ending of this, but I sure as hell wanted to. I have an inkling of what she wanted to tell me in that freezer, but I can't bring myself to say it, even to myself.
My mother told me to kiss that girl while we were still young, well, I did. I kissed her and the only thing that's changed is that I can feel Beckett in everything I do, more so than usual. It's frustrating but at the same time, I don't think I would want it any other way.
Even now, even when I swear that we're going to die, I wouldn't change a thing. I think as much as she doesn't want to admit it, she loves me. And that knowledge makes this ok, well, almost. I'm still worried about Alexis and Martha, but I know that they'll make it. At least I'll go down a hero.
That's when I reached for Kate's hand. Her touch could make this easier. She had already "died" once, but had come back. She was invincible in my eyes. And if we had to go down, I didn't want her to think that she was going to go down alone, I was right here with her for every second of the fall.
She smiled once she saw that we were hand clasped. Maybe having me there right up with her until the end helped. We may never solve her mother's case, but we tried. I know the boys; they'll solve it for us. They'll do all they can to make sure we have peace in our death.
We leaned towards each other, almost as if we were going to kiss in our final moments. That's when I smiled at her, my crooked grin that promises that I am up to no good. And I pulled those wires. I pulled them hard. They all came out, sparking, but they came out.
There was no boom, no mass release of radiation, nothing. We waited a moment before looking at the bomb. Then hit us. We saved New York. Kat launched herself at me, pulling me into the tightest hug you could imagine. I held onto her right back, the relief evident in both of us.
When she finally pulled back, I had the urge to kiss her, but I stopped myself. She was still seeing Josh and for the moment, I couldn't ruin that. But I would wait. Kate Beckett would come around eventually, I could feel it. And for this place in time, I could live with that.
A/N: GAAAAAAAAHHH! Countdown was AMAZING! Ok, now that I have THAT out of my system, I have GOOD NEWS! I will be restarting work on Castle Facebook. I did take time off cause things got crazy and whatnot, but it's starting to slowdown, so I can get back to work on that.
So, read and do that little review thing, cause I am totally a review whore. (Why bother lying about it anymore?)
Au revoir!