Fallen Star
* * * * * * * * * Caitlin lay on her bed listening to rain drops on the roof. Dori then came up into her room and knocked softy. 'Hi' she says 'how are you?' her voice is shrill not At All like her normal voice. Caitlin gave her a funny look. 'I m fine why do you ask' Dori's face Suddenly turned serious. 'You were sick before weren't you' Caitlin felt her pulse racing 'um I wasn't feeling real well its nothing.' 'Caitlin' Dori said a pained look on her face. 'if there s something you want to tell me you can you know that's what where here for.' Caitlin felt the anger rising how dare she. Great you know Dori she l flip out. 'Look' Caitlin snapped 'nothings wrong with me so can you leave me alone please' She purposely let the tiredness creep into her voice when she emprises please. She held her breath as Dori left and only after she heard her footsteps become more distant she let out her breath. Dori was getting a little too close. Yes, Caitlin had purposely thrown up. But it somehow got rid of that feeling of worthlessness that was creeping up inside her. She d only had been doing it for the last three weeks. But why did I have to do it. She questioned herself. Because it's the only way that I m going to get though to people. a voice reminded her. A voice that was haunting her and it frightened her.
* * * * * * * When Caitlin arrived at Eric's party the place was already crowded with people She nodded at Griffin 'catch you later huh' She made her way though the crowd Taylor stepped in her way 'well look who it is' she said leering her friends snicked 'And what's with the outfit huh trying to impress the guys' Caitlin bristled 'yeah nice skirt did you get it at tarts r us.' She pushed past Taylor before she could think of another retort. Oh god why is every one staring at me is it because I m fat and ugly No! Caitlin tried to correct herself yes it is none of these people want you around You should have stayed where you belong if you ever belonged anywhere at all Caitlin's mind was in a daze 'Eric caught her arm 'hey Caitlin are you okay you don't look so good.' He was looking at her worriedly. 'yeah ill be fine thanks' Caitlin said Wrenching her arm free of his grip. A feeling of dread spread over her She strode Into the kitchen where it was empty. Her eyes swept over the knives that lay near the sink what else can I do there's no other way. She yanked the knife out. Her breathing quickened as she held the knife to her wrist and pressed down harder and harder until she really felt the pain. It was funny focusing on that pain it made everything seam not real. Caitlin opened her eyes and saw a narrow slit along her wrist blood covering it. She took the knife away and carefully washed it under the sink. Then snatching up a tea towel and wrapping it around her wrist. Now she was feeling even worse it was like she was someone else. something not real. why the hell did I do that am I crazy. Caitlin wondered her mind in a panic and suddenly she felt more alone than she ever had in her entire life.
* * * * * * * * * Caitlin lay on her bed listening to rain drops on the roof. Dori then came up into her room and knocked softy. 'Hi' she says 'how are you?' her voice is shrill not At All like her normal voice. Caitlin gave her a funny look. 'I m fine why do you ask' Dori's face Suddenly turned serious. 'You were sick before weren't you' Caitlin felt her pulse racing 'um I wasn't feeling real well its nothing.' 'Caitlin' Dori said a pained look on her face. 'if there s something you want to tell me you can you know that's what where here for.' Caitlin felt the anger rising how dare she. Great you know Dori she l flip out. 'Look' Caitlin snapped 'nothings wrong with me so can you leave me alone please' She purposely let the tiredness creep into her voice when she emprises please. She held her breath as Dori left and only after she heard her footsteps become more distant she let out her breath. Dori was getting a little too close. Yes, Caitlin had purposely thrown up. But it somehow got rid of that feeling of worthlessness that was creeping up inside her. She d only had been doing it for the last three weeks. But why did I have to do it. She questioned herself. Because it's the only way that I m going to get though to people. a voice reminded her. A voice that was haunting her and it frightened her.
* * * * * * * When Caitlin arrived at Eric's party the place was already crowded with people She nodded at Griffin 'catch you later huh' She made her way though the crowd Taylor stepped in her way 'well look who it is' she said leering her friends snicked 'And what's with the outfit huh trying to impress the guys' Caitlin bristled 'yeah nice skirt did you get it at tarts r us.' She pushed past Taylor before she could think of another retort. Oh god why is every one staring at me is it because I m fat and ugly No! Caitlin tried to correct herself yes it is none of these people want you around You should have stayed where you belong if you ever belonged anywhere at all Caitlin's mind was in a daze 'Eric caught her arm 'hey Caitlin are you okay you don't look so good.' He was looking at her worriedly. 'yeah ill be fine thanks' Caitlin said Wrenching her arm free of his grip. A feeling of dread spread over her She strode Into the kitchen where it was empty. Her eyes swept over the knives that lay near the sink what else can I do there's no other way. She yanked the knife out. Her breathing quickened as she held the knife to her wrist and pressed down harder and harder until she really felt the pain. It was funny focusing on that pain it made everything seam not real. Caitlin opened her eyes and saw a narrow slit along her wrist blood covering it. She took the knife away and carefully washed it under the sink. Then snatching up a tea towel and wrapping it around her wrist. Now she was feeling even worse it was like she was someone else. something not real. why the hell did I do that am I crazy. Caitlin wondered her mind in a panic and suddenly she felt more alone than she ever had in her entire life.