A/N

I've edited this slightly, the sentencing is still whack but with writing tones of English Lit coursework to put it nicely I can't be arsed :/ so I'm really sorry for that.

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I could hear it in his voice,

I could hear it in his breathing,

I could hear it in his silence.

The phone lay next to me still untouched from the moment I let it fall. He'd probably hung up, but I didn't think nor care to look.

My body was still in shock and my heart still aching beating heavy in my chest, I couldn't believe what he'd just said to me.

Did I even hear him right ?

Had he really just told me it was over.

Today, yes Today was the day, the day he left.

I thought about calling, I'd thought about going to the airport, but he'd sounded so sure he didn't want to see me.

4AM

He'd not even be up yet, his flight isn't until 6PM, and knowing my Ezra.

Wait no he's not MY Ezra, he's just plain Ezra Fitz now, like nothing happened at all.

As my thoughts processed, a tear rolled down my cheek.

This is all, I've done for the past three days, cry tear after tear I wondered when it'd stop, when they'd just simply run out.

It's in this moment I decided to write him a letter, I'd leave it before he leaves.

There's a word, I can't stop thinking about leaves leaves leaves.

I pulled out a piece of paper from a diary, sat and thought, and thought.

I had so many, but couldn't get them down, couldn't get them out.

Ezra, you wrote me a poem back in Rosewood, even know when I think of you, I read it consuming the words, living in the meaning, maybe one day this can do the same for you.

Rosewood Heart

Gone, Gone are the moments.

So,

I'll test every water looking for another,

but he'll never be you.

I touched and was burned

like a child.

I've learned,

It's was a night,

It's was a moment,

It's was a kiss,

It's was a car,

It is dead silence,

A moment in time,

We can never get back,

Cherish it well,

Hold it again,

Closer then ever,

Breathe me in, breath me out.

Even pick me up,

And throw me away,

Just know I'll,

never let you go,

And there's

Still so much unsaid

Still so much unwritten.

But my heart still loves you.

Aria xoxoxo

There it was. The more I look at it the more I think, really is this all I can come up with.

The man I love is leaving me and there's nothing I can do.

I really need to stop torturing myself, and go post this, at least then I know I've done something, I've left him, with a piece of my honest heart, it may not be everything I want but I can have some sort of closure.

Pulling up to Ezra's apartment felt different, it didn't feel like home.

It was like he'd already left.

I stood at the door just staring at the 3B, I placed the letter on the doormat knocked and left, the knocking and hiding was childish but I wanted to see him I wanted to make sure he'd gotten it.

The door opened, he looked picked up the piece of paper scanned the halls and simply turned and walked back into his apartment, in time for me to whisper

"I'll always love you Ezra"

but even then I still heard the door slam closed.