Chapter 1: Unraveling of My Heart
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Summary: She had thought they would have ended up together, in love, and happy. But as life takes a turn for the worse and knocks Rin off her feet, how will she deal with all the changes? Will she unravel and be destroyed, or will she stay strong?
8
"What are your plans for the future, Rinera?" Her grandmother Kaede inquired as the both of them watched Kagome and Inuyasha dance at their wedding. Kagome was Rin's best friend and the other foster child that Grandma Kaede watched over. They grew up together and were very close. Rin currently worked as a secretary at Inutaisho Corporations; but she also was advancely trained in karate and also was employed to defend the company from dangerous foes. However, she wanted to do more with her life; and was going to school to become a doctor.
Rin paused in thought before answering. "I plan to keep working on earning my PHD in medicine and help people. That's what I think the future has in store for me."
"No room for romance?" Kaede teased as she ate a piece of cake. "I want both of you to be happy before my time is up here."
Rinera smiled gently. "I don't think that romance is in the cards for me," she joked.'I don't deserve it, Grandma Kaede. I've done nothing to deserve it…' she thought somberly. Quickly, the girl recovered; not letting the elderly woman see how much the statement affected her.
" I just hope I can get a degree that I can use to help others. I just want Kagome and those who are dear to me to be successful and happy. And that's all I can ever ask for."
Kaede paused, slightly shocked at what she heard. "Do you think that you don't deserve it? Why Rin, everyone deserves a chance to be loved and be in love!. Why do you think it's not "in the cards" for you as you put it?"
Rin's gaze drifted down to her plate. " I'm twenty two years old. I should be focused on doing what I can to make something of myself. I shouldn't be complaining about my life and what I don't or can't have. I'm just thankful that I have wonderful people around me. Anyways, today isn't about me. It's about Kagome and Inuyasha. I'm so happy for them! I wish them the best." She turned her gaze back to the couple on the dance floor so Kaede wouldn't see her glassy eyes.
Kaede sighed and shrugged. "Whatever you say, my dear. As long as you are happy. That's all that matters."
Rin closed her eyes for a moment and then quietly stood up. "I'm going to the restroom but I will be back."
She skirted around the other guests and kept herself together for the public eye. A lump formed in her throat; and tears pricked her eyes. Fortunately, the rest room was empty. She ran to the last stall and locked the door before sliding down to the floor. Tears ran down her face as she sobbed. She instantly stifled them as the door opened.
"He is beautiful. I heard that he is the most eligible bachelor in Japan. I need to jump on this opportunity." Kagura murmured as she freshened up her make up.
"I agree. With a marriage between your father's company and Inutaishio Corporation, the businesses would thrive! You and Sesshomaru would make a lovely match," Kanna eagerly agreed.
"Hm. It's a lovely future. Although I so do not like Kagome or Inuyasha, I'm sure we could make them penniless. Sesshomaru despises his half breed of a brother. I'm surprised he's even friends with that pathetic ugly thing of a girl. What's her name? Ren? Ran? Whatever. She'll also be the first to go. I heard he's tired of her too. He left early too. Such a shame. I'll have my father pursue the marriage alliance. Let's go. I'm tired of being in here."
The sound of their heels echoed loudly in the restroom and with a slam of the door, they were gone.
She quietly crept out of the bathroom and back out into the reception hall. She kept close to the wall to avoid smacking into people, but knowing her luck, she smacked right into Izayoi who was running around with her camera shouting "I must take photos for my baby's wedding!"
Her eyes widened in embarrassment as the woman's expensive camera crashed to the floor. "Izayoi! I'm so sorry! Oh my gosh!"
She scrambled to pick up the expensive camera and held it out to the woman. "Oh, Rin! It's alright my dear. Actually, it's good that I found you! Sesshomaru is looking for you! He's outside in the garden "getting fresh air because there are way too many inferior idiots taking up his precious space". Maybe you can keep his lonely self some company! Did you like the deserts? I looved the pie! Taisho loves pie! I better get that old quack some before he whimpers about the pie being gone! Toodles!"
She hurried off towards the desert table, leaving Rin in awe of her crazy amount of energy.
She headed towards the garden to where Sesshomaru was and hoped he was in a decent mood.
The two of them had met in high school, and had been best friends ever since. However, their interesting friendship hadn't started out easy. He had hated her at first, and she had thought he was an arrogant asshole. But as she had learned more about him and his ways, she had come to understand him. He had helped her through the tough years in highschool-battling depression, stress, stupid relationship issues-and she had given him a companion that was always there for him. It had taken him months to open up to her, but she had realized how sensitive and intelligent he was. He had a wonderful heart hidden away from the world due to scars and walls that he had built around himself over the years.
She wandered around the garden lost in thought until she nearly tripped over his long legs. He was dressed in an elegant suit and was seated on a bench tucked away from the building. His silver hair shone brightly in the moonlight.
"...Sorry, Sessh. I was busy in thought. Izayoi said you wanted to see me?"
He nodded and turned to face her. "I was going to invite you over after the reception had ended. Kaede is staying with my parents and I don't want you driving home late."
She smiled. He had always thought of her safety first. "Thanks. I haven't seen you in awhile. How have you been?"
Worry etched itself on his face. "I've been okay. I'm...under a lot of pressure from my father and the company to marry. I don't want this responsibility. I'm just tired of it all."
She pulled him into her embrace. "Don't worry, Sessh. I'm here for you. Please remember that. You'll be okay."
He sighed in her arms and awkwardly pulled her closer. He wasn't used to any sort of physical contact with anyone.
She rested her head against his chest and let the world fade away as they found comfort in each other.
Sesshomaru and Rin had left the wedding around 11 P.M. Most of the guests had left by then, but Rin had wanted to stay to help clean up. Inuyasha had gotten very intoxicated and had decided to redecorate half of the reception room with wedding cake.
As they left, Rin giggled about the mayhem. "That idiot causes chaos everywhere he goes! At least Kagome is there to keep him in line."
Sesshomaru huffed. "He's just stupid. The cake was a nice touch."
Rin hit his elbow. "Oh, come on. We all do stupid things. He has a good heart and he can be smart about things. I thought it was hilarious."
A short "hn" was his only reply.
They arrived at his house-mansion more like it. The family didn't have an arrogant attitude about their wealth, but they sure didn't squander anything when it came to their homes.
He left her at the staircase after he had bid her goodnight, knowing that she knew where her room was. As she watched him leave, she felt the loneliness rejoin her company once again. Kagura's words flashed in the back of her mind; and feelings of dread filled her stomach.
"S-Sesshomaru! Wait...please." she whispered to his back.
He turned his head in her direction; raised an elegant eyebrow as if he was questioning her.
Her heart thumped painfully as she looked into his beautiful eyes. Her legs gave out; but he quickly caught her.
"Are you alright, Rin?" his deep baritone voice soothed her.
She nodded and tried to escape from his arms. Sesshomaru only held her tighter.
"What is going on with you?" he questioned as he smelt tears.
He acted different towards her, and she knew that he was keeping something from her.
Her intuition told her to confront him.
Her heart told her to stay away. The news could bring pain that she couldn't handle. She needed to stay numb for a little while longer before she could tell him her secret.
"N-nothing. Must of had too much to drink. Good night!"
He nodded and let her go, but didn't appear to really believe her excuse. She hurried to her room and collapsed on her bed.
She tossed and turned for what seemed like hours in the night. She wanted to know if he really was seeing Kagura, but dreaded the answer. Around 2 AM, once realizing she would not be able to sleep, she rose and left without a care in the world for where she would end up. She had somehow found herself in twenty four hour bar, sitting alone at a table with the bitter taste of alcohol searing her throat. Kohaku was working the graveyard shift at the bar; but she ignored his concerned look. He had promised her a ride home when his shift ended; but any other attempts at conversation fell on deaf ears.
She didn't care about anything at all.
At least she was feeling something in the midst of all the numbness. Even if the feeling was pain and temporary, she would take it any day over the numbness that had taken control of her body.
She tried to reminisce happier times with him; however, the lump in her throat choked her to the point of silence. It was better to feel nothing and get by, than deal with gaping wounds.
In her silence, other common patrons of the bar sat in their respective places. What little small talk there was amongst them faded into white noise. Hours passed by, and soon the 6 o'clock morning news was playing in the background; and normally she paid it no heed.
"...and the latest gossip from Gossip Magazine says that Sesshomaru Takahashi is engaged. The bachelor heartthrob will be a married man soon. Is there heartbreak in the midst of this romance? Stay tuned for more information about who the gorgeous lucky fiancee is! My name is Kaguya Izumi, from Gossip Magazine!"
Something in her snapped. A scream of frustration escaped her lips as she stalked towards the bathroom.
This is what he had kept from her.
People were too drunk or lost in their thoughts of depression to notice her. She unsteadily opened the door and grasped the dirty porcelain sink for dear life. Tears escaped tired ragged eyes.
She gazed at her reflection and silently sobbed at how her appearance had gone down the drain. Her once beautiful skin and lustrous hair had become dull, and lifeless. She punched the mirror in a fit of rage, and small droplets of blood and glass were everywhere.
"It's not fair…" she gasped out. "I can't….I can't...I must do this. Oh, God. Why? Why?"
She sank to the floor and clutched her arm as it throbbed in pain. With the last bit of energy she had, she leant her forehead against the wall and sobbed. The door opened and closed quickly; and sometime later someone entered. Gentle rough hands picked up her tired form off of the ground.
"Oh, Rin…"
It was Kohaku. Kohaku worked at the bar sometimes, but she didn't remember if he was working tonight. Then again, in her sluggish thoughts, she hadn't noticed who was or wasn't there. SHe heard someone call someone on the phone, but she closed her eyes and let darkness hold her. Several minutes later, a very concerned female voice entered the bathroom. Rin opened her eyes for a brief moment and saw a blurry Sango.
"Why is she like this? How long has she been here?" Sango asked as she held the door open.
Kohaku sighed. "She's been here since 2 AM...she found out he was engaged this morning. I...I haven't talked to her about it. I didn't want to set her off."
Darkness swirled around the figures' faces, and she lost consciousness.
8
She awoke hours later severely hungover and still drunk on a soft couch with a blanket thrown over her.
Soft voices could be heard from the other room. She sighed and closed her eyes in defeat as she listened in on the conversation.
"...We have to call him," Sango murmured softly. "He is going to be extremely irate at the state she has got herself in, but there is nothing else we can do. Either way, not telling him or telling him will piss him off."
Kohaku huffed. "He didn't even have a care to talk to her about his engagement. Instead, he allowed her to get too attached and lead her on with false hopes. It's not fair, Sango! Why should you even try to say anything about what has happened? If he really cares, he can come find her himself."
Sango sighed. "He may not have known that he led her on...I don't know what else to do! No one has gotten through to her. If it's anyone, it's him. I can't keep watching her destroy herself. One of these times she could injure herself or kill herself. Kagome is pregnant and doesn't need this added stress. Who else can we go to?"
Kohaku thought for a moment. "Grandma Kaede? Us? Izayoi? Actually, Izayoi could help us out. Call her please. This might be her last chance at help."
Sango nodded. "You're right. I'll call her right now. We clearly aren't helping her."
The dial tone rang a few times before a tired voice answered on the other line. "Hello?"
"Izayoi? It's Sango. We need your help. Rin's in trouble."