If I were to wait
What would come before me?
And would I survive
The thrashing storm
That ruined a thousand lives
Hanging limply
On a dying tree
That doesn't deserve
Another eternity
To last on this world
If I cried
Would I give it the water it needs?
To live a life
Of forgiveness
It needs in life
To start all over
To be forgotten in another
Oblivion…
Forgive me
If I shouted
Would you turn your back on me?
And leave me
Like the rest of the world did
Long ago…
When you stayed by my side…
I waited for the answer
To come to my head
I know I hurt you
But my mind wouldn't
Let go of the urge
To gather your forgotten memories
But in those forgotten memories
Are of me in thin air…
Because my memories of you
And me
Are gone…
If only you could remember me
When I first smiled to you
And when you held my hand
And when a confession
Was forgotten…
And renewed
Until the very tragic end…
I wished I still had a heart
So I could've said everything
So I wouldn't have to face
This tragic fate
HISTUZEN.
THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS
"COINCIDENCE"
There is only histuzen.
Fate is what every movement is
Every word spoken
Every tragic beginning
And ending.
Killing people
And destroying HOPE
Is the true crime
Of fulfilling a wish
That is the fault
For this tragic story
That held the beginning
Of this story
That held the happiness
And the hope and our smiles,
But it was ruined
By the a foolish
Person that wanted his wish fulfilled
What is his wish?
And why does he want it fulfilled?
If I could
I'd go back in time
And grow my own heart.
Even if I tried
No one would accept me
For my difference in existence
I am a clone
That is bound to be destroyed.
What is "LOVE" in this world?
And what is "HOPE"?
And why do we wait
For something amazing to happen
When it'll just turn back
In the darkness it started in
If I shouted, the world would turn its back on me
And leave me hanging limply
On the dying tree
That will awaken
To the sword clashing
With the one remaining hope
That kept me going
If I smiled
Would you smile back?
And yet would you come to my aid
When you know what I've done
Yet you still care for me?
And wish to gain my heart back?
I am not what I used to be
I am a heartless being
With a scattered heart
That may never come
I wished none of this had happened
Then maybe I could've had my own
Happy ending
Father, if you could hear me
Would you be crying?
From the skies of where you lie
Maybe I did
Grow my own heart
Because I have feelings
But I still fight
For your scattered memories
That doesn't remain anymore.
Because I am the one
Who aimed the sword
And pushed forward
But the fatal blow
Was meant for him
I am his clone
So shouldn't I kill him?
He would just get in my way
But no
He didn't take the blow
You did,
Sakura
It wasn't meant for you!
If I could
I'd scream my lungs out
I'd cry forever
Because I was the one
Who aimed the sword
I'll wait
An eternity
A stolen memory that will wait
Until the resolved ending
That will come
For the real
"Sakura and Syaoran"
And we will also wait
For the real name
To come.
"Your name is the bridge to your soul."
"There is no such thing as coincidence,
Only HISTUZEN (FATE)."
Sakura pedals flow lightly away from my grasp
Yet one remains
And I will hold on to it
And scream my heart out
If my heart is my own…