Elena was sitting on Stefan's bed with red puffy eyes, still not sure what she wanted to do about her situation. She doesn't want this. She never did. And now she's forced to make the decision between immortality or dying. She can't leave Jeremy with no one, but she doesn't know if she can live to be a vampire either.

Everything about her being a vampire freaks her out. She wanted to go to college, get married, have kids, and die. She just wanted a normal life. But then when vampires were introduced to her life, normal was no longer available. Because no matter how hard she tried vampires were now a very big part of her life. And now she was in danger of becoming one.

What would her parents think of her? What would Jenna think of her? And Alaric, would they all be disappointed in her? Or would they get over it because they loved her?

Its times like these that Elena wished she had her mom. To help her, to give her advice. And most of all just to make her feel safe, and calm. Tears started to rush to her eyes again. She wanted so desperately to stop crying and to be strong. But she just couldn't, and with Stefan holding her like he used to it was bringing back memories she wished she could relive.

"Elena, what's wrong? Why are you crying again?" Stefan's voice was very soothing and very comforting, but it did not have the same effect as her mom's did. It just made her want to cry more.

"You deserve better than this Stefan. I'm doing the same thing that Katherine did to you two. I'm stringing you two along and I don't want to make a decision between you and Damon because I don't want to lose either of you. I can't lose anyone else."

"Elena, I promise that if you don't choose me I won't let that affect my relationship with Damon, and I promise you will never loose me. No matter what."

"Okay. But that doesn't make the decision any easier. You know I love you and that love is indescribable and that nothing will ever make me think of you less. But Damon is that mystery danger boy, the one you can't have and don't like when you meet them. But then you end up accidentally falling for them. I care for Damon but I love you."

"I don't understand either Elena but I care about Damon too. No matter who he's hurt no matter who he's killed, I just can't be truly angry at him. After everything. And I don't get it. He's done so much to make my life miserable, but yet I care about him."

Stefan kissed Elena's forehead and pulled her head back onto his chest. And the just laid there like that for a little while.

"Stefan?"

"Yeah?"

"How much longer do I have until i-"

Elena couldn't bring herself to ask him how much time she had before she would die. It was all still surreal to her. Even though she had a life full of vampires she never saw herself becoming one. But now that the choice needed to be made, she really didn't want to die.

"I want to complete the transition Stefan. But I am scared."

"What are you afraid of exactly?"

"That I won't be able to control my emotions and I'll be an impulsive vampire."

"You naturally have a lot of self-control. That will carry over. But you won't be able to do it alone at first. You'll need help, but Elena just know I will be there every step of the way to help you. You won't have to do any of it alone."

She nodded, and they slowly got off the bed.

"Stefan. How am I going to feed? It's going to be gross to me. Drinking someone's blood."

"Well that's just it Elena. You cannot think of it as blood. You have to think of it as food now. And however you want. Blood bag, stranger, friend, or family. Anyone anyway it's your choice."

"Well, let's go down stairs and tell everyone what I've decided to do. And we can figure it out down there okay?"

Stefan nodded and then they headed down stairs holding hands.

"Elena!" Matt was the first to jump up at the sight of the puffy eyed Elena coming down the stairs with Stefan.

"Everyone, please don't scream and jump and don't judge me. Please. I need everyone. But I have decided to complete the transformation. I don't know how I am going to feed yet. But I can't die yet."

"Feed off of me, really I'm okay with it Elena." Matt was standing right by Elena.

"Matt, thank you. Seriously, but I don't know if I am willing to bite you, I don't know if I would be able to stop myself. And I don't want to take that risk."

"Then you won't bite me. I'll cut myself. And Damon and Stefan and Caroline are all here, they'll stand by and stop you if they need to."

Elena looked from Stefan to Caroline to Damon, to make sure they are all willing to stop her if necessary. They all nodded her and smiled at her.

"Okay. I'll do it. But before I do, thank you Matt. You have no idea what your offer means to me."

Matt gave her his golden boy smile and nodded. Stefan handed Matt a knife. He cut his wrist and brought it over to Elena. The feeling in her gum was very painful but when she licked some of his blood, it started to dull down. So she drank more blood until she felt something else. Satisfaction, fulfillment, and it was worrying her. She drew back before Damon or Stefan or Caroline could stop her. When she drew back she could feel her fangs protruding out of her mouth, and it hurt, a lot. She started crying again and Stefan came over and started rubbing her head.

"It'll be okay. Just relax. The pain will go away any second now."

And he wasn't lying either, right after he finished saying it the pain was completely gone and her fangs were back in. That was easier than she thought. But she was still disgusted by the thought of her being a vampire, and she was feeling all of her emotions blurring together.