Hey Peoplezzz!!!!
Honestly, I shouldn't be starting a new story when 1: I never update the old ones, 2: I should upload the updates I have saved on my computer, and 3: I have like... countless ideas for the other stories that I have yet to get down on the paper...
But hey, what the heck ( and this is one of those stories I've had in my head FOREVER and was just too lazy to type it all up) but first, disclaimer time.
Me: Stephanie, how much do you want for twilight?
Steph: $1,000,000,000 and 99 cents. *smirk*
Me: *digs in pocket* how about... *counts* $ 2.15
Steph: *shakes head*
Me: *glares*
Well, there you have it, now on with the vampire mania!!!!!
Someday, I will find my Edward Cullen. I will make him dye his hair bronze if it's not already. If he does not sparkle in the sun, I will pour glitter on him. If he isn't pale, I will forbid the sun and tanning salons. It he's not tall and strong, he needs to get his $$ in the gym.
"You... don't... want me?" I tried out the words, confused by the way they sounded, placed in that order.
"No."
I stared, uncomprehending, into his eyes. He stared back without apology. His eyes were like topaz-hard and clear and very deep. I felt like I could see into them for miles and miles, yet nowhere in their bottomless depths could I see a contradiction to the words he'd spoken. (P. 70-71)
He was gone. My breathing came in short gasps. He couldn't be gone! There was no way!
But he is.
I was on my knees, my head in my hands, rocking back and forth slightly. How long I had been like this, I didn't know. All I knew was that after I tried in vain to follow him, Ibroke down, falling to the spot I was now.
He couldn't be gone. He told me, just a few days ago that he loved me. How can he....
Face it Bella, he's gone. You were just never good enough for him I guess.
A sob escaped my open lips as I tried to take a deep breath. He's gone. He's gone. He's gone. Every time I thought of those two little words, the weight of the world seemed to crash down upon my shoulders. My body shook as me knees gave out form being pressed to the hard, yet mushy forest ground. I fell onto my stomach, grunting from my weight. I flipped over so I was on my back, and looked up at the green leaves. Tears soon blurred my vision as they spilled rom my eyes once again. I could almost swear that I could cry enough tears to flood the world. But then, every human would die and Edward and Alice and Carlisle and Esme and Emmett and even Rosalie, would still be there, taunting me even in death.
I couldn't breathe as my throat closed from the huge lump in it. Their names ran through my head as fast as a bullet from a shotgun did.
I had leaves and mud in my hair. I didn't care. But Alice would.
I saw crying enough to make a sea. I didn't care. But Esme would.
I could get sick from laying on the ground in the cold September air. I didn't care. But Carlisle would.
I was so sad and confused and angry, that I could die now form it. I didn't care. But I knew Jasper would.
I knew that if he saw me know, Emmett would give me a huge bear hug. I knew that Esme would give me a comforting hug after Emmett let go. Alice would bounce up and squeeze me tight. Calisle would be standing a few feet away, giving me a warm genuine smile. Jasper would be standing a few feet behind Carlisle, looking at me, his eyes telling the story. Rosalie wouldn't be in the room, but probably sitting on the couch flipping through the t.v. channels at lightning speed. If it had been any other situation, it all would have been true.
My body shook from my trembles, both from the chill in the air and my sobs. He didn't want me. He didn't love me.
"Bel-la." a voice taunted. It was silky smooth, and sounded inhuman. I almost didn't hear it through my sobs.
"Bel-la. Why cry Bella?" the voice sounded almost child-like. Through my blurred eyes, I saw a woman with flaming red hair and red eyes hover over me. She was smirking down at me. "Remember me? Of course you do. I had to have made a big impression." she said, her voice coming out like milk and honey.
I closed my eyes and turned away. This was it. I was going to die by the hand of Victoria. Fate is cruel. Another sob racked out of my body.
"He left you, didn't he?" Victoria asked in a whisper. He voice held no bitterness, no sarcasm. She was truly asking me.
I turned to face her, expecting hard cold red eyes. Instead I found soft eyes looking at me in concern. I breathed out, more tears spilling as I did. She looked caught, almost like seeing me like this... hurt her.
"I can make it go away. Bella, I can make it stop. You won't have to hurt anymore." she said. I honestly had no idea about what she was talking about. How could I not hurt? I felt like I was going to break in two! I turned to face the trees again, my eyes snapping shut and sobs escaping me.
Two stone cold hands took hold of me, pulling me to her. "Shhh..." she murmured. Since when did she care about me? I thought she wanted to kill me! "It'll be over soon." Wait! What!
Before I could protest, I felt her bite on my neck, right where blood pounded. A sharp intake from both of us followed the action. Victoria jumped away, and stood my a tree, staring at me, licking the blood off of her lip. My blood.
I arched my back as I felt the venom start to flow through my system, leaving a trail of white hot pain following in it's wake. I screamed and groaned in pain. It was just like, if not worse, than when James bit me. OH God! I screamed again, begging that no one could hear other than me and Victoria. I had new tears trailing down my cheeks, but these ones were from pain, not sorrow. I begged for it to stop. I wanted it to stop. JUST MAKE THE FREAKIN PAIN STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
After about five minuets of screaming, the pain got worse. It was too much for me to handle. I tumbled into darkness, in Vitoria's, my enemy's hands.
Please please please please review!!!!! I know that it's been done a lot, but I wanted to do my own... AND I have another one up my sleeve. Well, I gotta sleep. School starts tomorrow.
don't turn away i'm frightened by what i see
(don't give in to the pain)
don't try to hide
(though they're screaming your name)
don't close your eyes
(God knows what lies behind them)
don't turn out the light
(never sleep never die)
but somehow i know that there's much more to come
immobilized by my fear
and soon to be blinded by tears
i can stop the pain if i will it all away