I was 18 when it happened; my best friend, my first love and much more killed himself. Hayner was a child of two teen celebrities, movie stars who had children too young, forced into marriage by their parents, like a shotgun wedding. My name is Roxas Marne son of a model and a superrich bill gates wannabe, Business man with a reputation to withhold. Hayner and I had met in private school, together we did everything. He was my best friend; I gave him my virginity because I couldn't trust anyone else. I knew he wasn't doing well when he started cutting and drinking and taking drugs, but I thought, maybe I would be able to stop him if I was there with him, I was wrong. He got me into drinking and drugs I've took all kinds, not even bothering to count now. I was too lost in my own world to help him. I had to help myself before I could help him. However I wasn't trying to save myself. Neither was he, he called me the night he died. I was out drinking with Xion and Xigbar. I was in a bad crowd. Hayner crying on the phone saying he was sorry he ruined my life, getting me kicked out of my house. I told him it was fine, I was enjoying my life. The next morning I woke up with a massive hangover, I had a smoke while Sora put the telly on. There on the screen was the news men saying.

(In this house, around 3 am Hayner Pentagon committed first degree suicide. After using his phone and throwing it in the bath)

The world stopped. I couldn't even talk to my brother I somewhat remember what happened, according to Sora I had a breakdown and tried to kill myself. I didn't really remember I just remember waking up in the hospital. I felt broken and alone, no one was in my corner. I felt lonely. I ended up getting myself stuck in therapy but not the nice relaxing kind. The crazy house. I wasn't safe around people; I could hurt more than myself, so my mother paid for me to be put into a crazy house. I was stuck after a year of being there, I was finally showing improvement, and it only took three counts of attempted suicide, two types of breakdowns. And finally I starvation. The recorded improvement, I was finally on the way to being normal. After another year, they let me leave. I had no count of credibility so I couldn't buy a house or anything. Sora picked me up and said I could borrow his clothes for the night. I found that Sora in his brotherly wisdom decided to get a small house with three bedrooms so I could live with him when I got out. I always knew he was too good for me to ruin, I should have known when he refused to come out with me and my friends. When we arrived I borrowed some of his clothes, we went shopping the next day.

This leads me to now days I currently live with Sora we tend not to argue much so it's good.

I was waiting at a restaurant waiting for someone, usually I don't do set up dates. But I don't know I thought since Sora's best friend Riku suggested someone his brother knows I guess I wasn't too worried. I had waited for two hours already and no one had shown up. I looked at my phone, people around me looking sorry for me. I decided to leave after three hours of waiting. I went to the local bar, which wasn't too bad. I was allowed to drink pop like alcohol, since Tifa knew me, she was given permission from the boss, Cid of who is my uncle to stop serving me after 3 drinks of alcohol. I felt restricted but then again, I knew it was for my best. I had only been away from it being a problem for a year, becoming 21 this coming fall. I was sitting next to two redheads, they were chatting.

"Hey Tifa." I spoke and she passed me a drink of coke. She knew it was only 9 pm which meant I wasn't really meant I had plans which got cancelled.

"What you doing here for kiddo" she asked, I chuckled. She was 29 yet she spoke to me like I was a child.

"Nothing really just trying to get away from everyone."

"You are not doing great since this is a bar, which means people come here." She laughed.

"Yeah" she went to serve people I began drinking my drink, they had a new person in a young girl with pink hair.

"Sarah" she spoke to me.

"Roxas" I replied. She gave me a rum cola.

"Smile" she spoke leaving me to head to the other bar in the building. I began drinking. I probably shouldn't have but I did.

"Hey, buy you a drink?" asked a hot redhead who was sitting next to me.

"Should I err…pay you?" I'm such an awkward person.

"No you can give me your phone number instead."

"Should I give you my house number?" I really didn't know how to communicate with possible sexual encounters. I AM a fail.

"Well I would prefer your mobile number, more personal. If you know what I mean?" he winked at me, I blushed.

"I don't know my phone number…" I explained.

"Oh, you are bad at this aren't you? Hey how about I coach you in getting someone, what do you want, one night stands, or love?"

"I um…would like a relationship." I told him.

"The name is Axel Curt. What's yours?" he smiled.

"Roxas Marne."

"Oh yeah Sora's little brothers. You live in the same area as us. Sora bought a big house last year said you were coming back from leaving town for some space. Happy to be back?" he didn't know where I'd been.

"Yeah happy" after a few more drinks Axel gave me a ride home, Sora asked how my date went. I explained that he didn't show. Sora kept telling me there were plenty more fish in the sea. I began to wonder if Axel actually meant what he said, did he really want to help me find love. I would like to find love. I began to wonder how my brother actually found Riku I truly thought he wasn't going to like Sora, but he really did, the childishness put most people off him, but honestly Sora was a good person, he had a good heart even if people tried to take advantage of him. the next morning I woke up due to a phone call.

"'lo?" I answered half asleep.

"hey ya ready for training? You need to be able to wake up early to be able to handle a love life. Let's start now. I'll be at 7th heaven. You know the bar/restaurant. See you soon, try to look nice." He hung up I truly felt like killing him after looking at the clock.

"Wah, it's 5:30. Who the hell is awake at this time by choice" if he thinks I'm going to be a little housewife, I'll punch him.

I arrived at 7th heaven around 7:30. I saw his smug face chatting to some young girl.

"well I don't know about you but I believe love can be unexpected." He spoke she was smiling like a goon which told me he'd charmed the arse of her.

"well-"

"hey" I interrupted her. She gave me a dirty look, as he turned to face me.

"oh hey Blondie you're late" he told me smirking.

"yeah unlike some people I wasn't awake and alert at 5:30." I replied.

"did you fall back to sleep?" he asked me, I grunted.

"well I guess you need practice." He replied to my grunt.

"no I don't" I complained. He chuckled.

"ok let's start with meeting a guy you like, you like guys right?" he asked.

"no I REALLY want a woman don't I" I sneered.

"ok Roxy ok. I get it, you like the pen15. It's ok" he chuckled putting his arm around my waist.

"get ready Roxas, now he's around you, he won't be a little bit annoying." Spoke my uncle Cid.

What have I got myself into.