Dear Diary,
I told my straight, bestfriend of 5 years that I was inlove with him while I was drunk at his sister's party last night. I can't believe I said it, espically infront of everyone.. the Warblers, New Directions and his own siblings for crying out loud. I'm not denying my feelings towards him, but I know he will never love me back. To be honest, he's proberly freaking out thinking about all the times he got changed infront of me without realizing I fancied him.
Jeff knows I'm gay, I came out 2 years ago when I was 14. Everyone was really accepting, my dad doesn't really ask about anything like that.. actually he doesn't really talk to me at all. We've never been close, he's always been too busy working to have time for me.
Why do I bother even thinking about us being together? I have no chance of getting Jeff, he's amazing and I'm nothing.. plus he's straight.
Even if by some miracle he was gay, he'd never look at me. I'm just your average person, I have no talent and I'm not attractive. I suppose I'm okay at singing and geography but Jeff is in a band, plays bass guitar, sings like a dream, has amazing grades, has a brilliant personality and sense of humour and is the most beautiful guy I've ever seen.
Anyway it's getting late and Jeff will be here soon and for once, I'm not looking forward to seeing him, I haven't spoken or seen him since the party so I'll let you know what he says tomorrow.
Nick Duval x