Hello Everyone! I'm really, really sorry that I've been away so much, but I have literally lost all my inspiration and what I like to call 'Writing Juice', so that's why I haven't been updating. I said I would make this one-shot awhile back, and I finally worked my mind into doing it. This is a Spin-off of Willowsong of Thunderclan's Honeystar's Struggle, which is basically my favourite story of the archive, so please go check it out. And yes, I did get permission, chill :P
Disclaimer:
I do not own warriors or any of Willowsong's OC's, I only own Mossfire and the plot. Enjoy!
Mossfire's POV
When my father died he was there for me. When Ashwhisker died I was there for him. It seemed as though our debts had been paid. But he stole precious from me. He stole my heart.
At first I didn't want to accept it. I didn't want to accept that I had lost my heart to someone so quickly. But, I did. And every day I lose a little more to him. He's everything to me. The thing is, I don't know if he feels the same way.
I thought that he might at first. I would catch something in a grin, a sparkle of the eyes. I thought, well, hoped really, that he might tell me that he loved when I became a warrior. Such are the fantasies of the foolish. He didn't speak to me after the ceremony. I was stupid, and put it down to grief for his brother. But then he brought her into camp.
I watched as she became his apprentice, and as she looked into his eyes with such hope. I suppose I look just like that. I feel weird. Faint. Sick. I believe the word is Jealous. But, why should I be jealous? I haven't got a reason… right?
Wrong. I see the way they interact. I see the way she's given him light. I see the way she can do everything for him I can't. I see how he smiles around her. I see the way he blushes slightly around her. I see how much worse he would be without her. I see why I should be grateful to her. She's spared me the pain of hearing rejection. She's given him a new spark. She's the one who brings him what little happiness he has.
All I want is for him to be happy. If he chooses her, and he's happy, I'll be grateful. If he abandons me entirely for her, I'll be grateful. If he expects me to approve, to make him happy I'll be grateful.
They say that if you truly love someone, you'll let them go. From the way things are, I will pray for that strength.
If I receive it, I will be grateful.
I still can't decide whether or not I like what I have written. I guess it's up to you guys to tell me. Please leave a review guys, I can't stand not being able to know if this is decent. Thank you so much for reading, and a big thanks to Willowsong for being such an awesome writer and for giving me permission to write this, I hope I didn't disappoint you. Thanks again!
Good Day/Night to Ye!