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Damien "the rat" Smith…
Of all the people that could have survived it had to be Damien "the rat" Smith.
It is so unfair! It makes me so mad I could scream. Why?
How could GOD (if he does exist) let wonderful caring loving people like BJ, like Dominique, like countless other people I was unable to save die and allow Damien "the rat" Smith to live? That lowlife worm cost me everything near and dear to me… well everything I had left that is and yet here he is free as a bird alive and not burning in hell like he should be. It's not fair. Why does He leave the evil people and take away the good ones.
"Can I sit here," Scott asked interrupting my thoughts.
Tears fill my eyes as I look at him. I feel like such an incredible failure.
"What's wrong," he asked gently
"I managed to save a patient," I told him
"I'm sorry," he said confused, "isn't that a good thing"
No not when that patient is Damien "the rat" Smith it's not a good thing. It's not a good thing when the patient destroyed everything I hold near and dear to me.
"It was Damien Smith"
"Oh," Scott said in understanding, "I can see why that would upset you"
Exactly, I thought to myself
"It isn't fair. I wasn't able to save BJ. I wasn't able to save Dominique. The most evil man I know is still alive while two of the dearest people to me lie in their graves"
"Tony," Scott said gently, "Listen to me very carefully… I understand the hurt you're feeling
"When Dom died," he continued, "I felt like my own life were over. I was living in the sense that I was breathing but other then that there was no life in me, no joy, no happiness. This can be a miserable world and BJ is not in a world where she's subjected to pain and status and all the other stuff she would have had to go through as she got older. She, like Dominique passed very peacefully with no pain, no fear and she's in a place where she is well loved and well cared for. Damien Smith on the other hand is in a world of hurt and suffering and no place like heaven.
I smiled at the thought. I had to admit he was right. Still losing my baby girl… and not being able to save my friend it was…
"And," Scott added, "eventually you will see BJ again and Tanya and eventually I'll see the love of my life again. Can't say the same for Damien "the rat" Smith.
"When he meets his maker it will probably be at… another place"
"Thanks Scott. You made me feel a lot better," I told him.
"Hey," he said, "as you once told me, 'that's what friends are for"