My Darkening Love
Told by Kagome…i…I wrote it about a year ago when I was feeling kinda sad… it was supposed to be very ongoing, and then have a sequel but I changed my mind.
I looked at him as he walked towards me. He thought he was walking away from guilt, but when he looked up and saw me, my eyes, he knew he was walking straight into it. I had tried desperately to hold in the tears; suddenly I couldn't control them and they gushed silently.
"Kagome…"
I couldn't believe that he would dare speak to me now.
"Kagome…why are you crying?" Inuyasha spoke softly; he then took my hand gently, like I was a fragile doll that might break. I wasn't sure if he was serious when he asked me that…if he really did not know why.
"You were with her!" I screamed, tears streaming down my face. I didn't want him to see me cry. I didn't want him to see how hurt I was. But he did… he saw my tears and he saw the hurt…he knew…I'm sure of that now…
"I wasn't Kagome. I wasn't with Kikyo." He said, his eyes focusing on his feet.
"How could you lie to me Inuyasha? I know you were! You can't look me in the eye…you're mystified. That expression you have, you always wear it when you were with her. So solemn and sad. And you try to lie." I said. I didn't want him to know that I notice all that whenever he has been with Kikyo. I didn't want him to know…but he did…he knew…I'm sure of that now…
"I…I…" He stuttered, searching for words. He knew I was right, he knew I knew I was right. There were no words he could have spoken to me…at least, I thought so. "I'm sorry Kagome, but I have chosen."
With that, he let go of my hand and walked past me. I couldn't breathe and my heart was beating too fast. I felt dizzy and my stomach churned. 'He has chosen?' I asked myself over and over for the next few minutes, trying to comprehend what had escaped his lips. Of course, I had known it all along…I still don't understand why I was shocked. He wanted Kikyo, not me. I thought about it some more and I realized that I wasn't angry. I wasn't hurt. I wasn't sad. Oddly enough, I felt joyous. Inuyasha deserved to have whoever he wanted; I shouldn't hate him for that. He is allowed to love, and he should be happy…but how can he with Kikyo the way she is? Searching for souls, constantly wandering. I knew what I had to do. I loved Inuyasha so much I would've given up my life for him. And at that moment, I too made a decision; a decision based on love and sadness. I was going to give both Kikyo and Inuyasha what they wanted. Kikyo would have my soul and Inuyasha would have his Kikyo.
sorry for a short chap but i haven't much time to write lately...please tell me what yu think about it..