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Shattered
He was woken by the Dark Mark burning like a red hot fire poker was being pressed against his skin. He looked around to find that he had fallen asleep while grading potion homework. The Dark Mark was starting to burn worse than anything he knew and he knew that the Dark Lord was mad and he had to hurry to the meeting or else he would be crucioed. It was time to play his role in this war as a spy. He fire called Dumbledore to tell him that he was being called by the Dark Lord.
He apparated to Malfoy Manor and he could see that he was the last to arrive. This wasn´t going to be a good night but then it wouldn´t be different from any other time.
"Severus step forward" Lord Voldemort said "Have you any news from Dumbledore and the boy"
"No, my Lord I haven´t"
"And why is that"
"The old fool is protecting him more after last summer "Severus said and tried not to let the fear be heard in his voice.
"That´s no excuse" Voldemort spat "CRUCIO"
He was really angry. He could feel the anger in the curse. When the curse was lifted it felt he had been crucioed for hours. He was shaking though he didn´t show it. All of his muscles were hurting. It felt like he couldn´t stand up ever again.
"Severus, stand up" Voldemort spat at Severus. Severus did what he was told even though it wasn´t an easy task.
"Go back to the old fool and tell him that we are planning to attack a muggle village tomorrow"
"I will, my Lord" He said and bowed before apparated to the outskirts of the wards around Hogwarts.
How he made his way to Dumbledore's office, he will never now. Every muscle were protesting against every move he made.
"Hello Severus, back so soon" Dumbledore said when he saw Severus walking in.
"Yes. The Dark Lord orded me to say that there would be an attack on a muggle village tomorrow and that is a lie"
"thank you for the information Severus but before you go I have heard that you have been harder on Harry. You know that he has just lost his godfather and you should go easy on him it´s a hard time for him"
Severus looked at the headmaster for a second
"What about me. I´m the one spying for you. Being crucioed almost daily. I´m alone because noone wants to be near me, the greasy dungeon bat even the staff don´t want to be near me. You think you know what I´m going though for you and your precious golden boy. I´m being pulled around like a doll by you and The Dark Lord because you think you own me."
"He´s behaving like a spoiled brat and I don´t want to discuss this" Severus spat and walked out of Dumbledore´s office
He went down to his private chambers and went to his potions cabinet and took a painkiller potion and a couples of healing potions. He looked at the potions and thought. "This will only be temporally relief me from pain and stops me from feeling anything for a time but what I wouldn't give to stop feeling anything." He went to the bathroom and looked at himself in the mirror. He looked like death warmed up. His eyes were sunken in, he had dark circles around his eyes, and he had lost weight.
Severus went in to the living room and sat down in his wing backed chair and looked in the fire and thought about the thing he had done and was trying to correct but he couldn't' t understand why every time tried to do anything good it somehow always turned to the bad. He knew that he wouldn´t survive this war.
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