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Addison stood in the doorway of Naomi's office nervously.
She had been sick for a few days in a row and she wanted to have Naomi run tests on her.
"Nae, I need to talk to you." She fidgeted with her watch and walked in.
"Sure, come in! Is there anything I can help you with sweetie?" She asked, worried at Addison's behaviour.
"Erm, the thing is, I've been sick for the past few days, and I'm late" Addison sat down.
"Addie..."
Addison looked up at Naomi.
"You can't be...and you know that." Naomi told her softly. She didn't want Addison to raise her hopes.
"Then why am I being sick and I'm late, there isn't another explanation for it!"
"Maybe it's just stress from moving Addie."
"Can you still do a test though? What if I am?"
"I guess I could do that for you, but you understand that the chances are really slim. I don't want you to raise your hopes though, it's almost sure that you aren't" She explained.
Addison nodded. "I know, but please just do a test."
"Okay, come with me and let's do it."
Addison stood up and followed her friend.
"So you thinking you're pregnant means something happened with someone...tell me it's not Mark?" Naomi asked worried.
"No, it's not Mark."
"Then? It's the intern boy?"
Addison shook her head and wouldn't look at her friend.
"Oh no!" Naomi put her hand over her mouth. "It's Pete?"
"No it's not Pete's don't worry about that."
"So...who is it then?"
"Derek." She whispered.
"What?! You had sex with your ex husband?!"
"You slept with Sam as well!"
"Okay, fair enough. But tell me, how did it happen? And when?" She asked her curious.
"Before I left to come here, it was more of a goodbye, but he's with Meredith."
"Was he with Meredith when you two...?"
Addison just nodded.
Naomi sighed. "The troubles you can get yourself into girl!"
Addison gave a small smile.
Naomi shook her head, letting a small laugh out. "Oh my God!"
"What?"
"You actually are pregnant!" She gave Addison the file.
Addison looked at it and felt the tears well up
"Oh don't cry honey!" Naomi took her in a hug.
"I'm pregnant." The tears began to fall.
"But that's what you wanted, right?"
She nodded.
"Then see it on a good side, you're having the baby you've always wanted."
"But I've always wanted it with Derek."
"Well you'll tell him..." She said, but quickly stopped when she saw Addison's expression. "You will, right?"
"I can't, he's happy with Meredith, he's actually happy, I'm not going to ruin that, he'll probably think I did it on purpose anyway to get back at him."
"He has a right to know Addison."
She sighed. "I know he does, I just don't want to ruin his happiness."
"What if having a baby makes him happy?"
"He won't want one with me."
"What if he does?" Naomi sighed.
"He won't."
"Well it's your decision, but I still think you should tell him."
Addison just nodded at her friend.
"Either way, you know I'll be there for you sweetie."
"Thank you Nae." Addison hugged her friend.
"Of course" She smiled. "Do you have a doctor here?"
She shook her head.
"Then you should get one as soon as possible. I'll give you mine's number okay?" She told her, writing the number on a piece of paper.
"Thanks." Addison took the piece of paper.
"Okay so I have to go back to a patient but just give her a call. And consider telling Derek please?"
"Okay."
Addison sat on her couch that night and looked at her phone, debating whether to call Derek or not. If she did, he could try and take the baby from her, or he could not want anything to do with them. She sighed and ran her hands through her hair.
She wanted a baby with Derek since she had met him and now she really was. She really didn't want to tell him and break his happiness, because she loved him that much. But that at same time, she wanted her baby to have a father. Why is my life so complicated?! She sighed and hugged a cushion, still having no idea what to do. If she would have gotten pregnant a few years ago everything would have been fine, but no, Derek and his super powerful sperm decided that now was time. Stupid, stupid boys!
With a shaky hand Addison picked up her cell and dialled Derek's number, letting the dial tone ring in her ear as she waited for him to answer.
"Hello?"
Addison hesitated, not sure what to do, she didn't say anything.
"Is anyone here??"
She quickly hung up the phone placing it back on the table. She just couldn't do that do him, she just couldn't. Addison wasn't going to tell him, simple, she'd just keep it a secret. It would probably be for the best, anyway. She took her blanket and closed the living room lights, going upstairs to go to bed. Tomorrow might be better for her.
Addison sat in the conference room the next morning and felt her stomach turn; she knew she was going to be sick again. She always felt sick and she really disliked it. It was disgusting and it was always happening
She felt it rise in her throat and she quickly left the room, headed towards the toilets, where she lent over and emptied the contents of her stomach into the toilet, before sitting back and sighing. She was tired physically and emotionally, and she didn't know how long she'd be able to stand it. She loved her baby already and she was happy to finally have a baby on her own, but she didn't like everything that was coming with it. Slowly she stood up and flushed the toilet walking to the sink and swilling her mouth out. She made her way back to her office, where Naomi was waiting for her already.
"Morning Sickness?"
"Yes." She sighed and sat down.
"It will stop eventually. Anyway, did you call Dr. Spencer?"
"Yes, I have an appointment later today."
"That's great...and did you tell...you know who?"
"No." She shook her head. "I couldn't."
"Okay, well just give it time. You look tired honey, I'll give you the afternoon off okay?"
Addison just nodded and smiled.
"Just sleep and I'll come make you dinner at about 6pm." She offered warmly.
"Thanks Nae."
"No problem!"
Addison smiled and let her hands wander to her stomach.
"I'll go home and sleep then, thanks Nae."
"Good, you're really getting uglier by the minute!" Naomi replied laughing, before leaving Addison's office.
"Thanks." Addison rolled her eyes and headed off home.
A few hours later, she woke up just on time to go to her appointment. She took a quick shower and got ready to leave. She drove to the clinic, told the secretary she was there and sat down on the waiting area's plastic chairs. She looked around and saw a few women, some alone and some with their husband or boyfriend.
Addison sighed, wishing Derek was there with her, but she knew he probably never would be, so she just had to get on with it.
She had to be strong, for herself and for the baby. "Addison Montgomery?" A soft voice called from her office.
Addison stood up and walked toward the doctor, smiling
"How are you Mrs. Montgomery?"
"I'm okay thanks, just dealing with the morning sickness."
"Of course, well come with me and we'll take a look."
Addison nodded and followed the doctor.
"Okay so, is there any kind of cancers or other health problems running in your family?" Dr. Spenser asked, getting Addison's file to note things down.
"No." She shook her head.
"And in the family of the baby's dad?"
"No."
"Well that's great, okay so I understand that you already had your blood test done so we'll skip that and we'll do the pelvic exam to see if everything is okay." The doctor told her, getting her gloves on.
"Okay." Addison nodded and led back on the exam table.
The doctor started working and Addison looked at the ceiling. Why did the doctor have to talk about Derek? Okay well it wasn't technically about Derek, but it made her wish Derek was holding her hand at the moment.
She was never going to be able to escape him; she knew that every time she looked at the baby she would be reminded of him.
"Okay well everything looks normal here." She told Addison before taking notes and looking to see the results of the blood test Naomi had performed the other day. "You are about 8 weeks along as I can see, is that correct?"
"Erm, yeah."
"Okay, so we'll schedule another appointment for in about a month time, my secretary will tell you the details okay?"
"That's fine, thank you."
"Sure, if you have any questions just call me."
"Thanks." Addison smiled and left the room.
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