ONE-SIDED
Yamaguchi Kenji / Mizutani Shizuku
1 – YAMAKEN [Satisfied.]
My heart is fluttering.
She is sitting in the middle of the classroom, her head down. Numerous notes and entries lay scattered across the room. Somebody forgot to close the windows- the wind rustled inside the classroom. Her hair was formed into two neat pigtails. I always wondered how she would look like if she let her copper-brown hair down. The wind carried her scent.
It was my first time in Syoko High, I had a fairly tough time navigating through the classrooms.
She said she would meet me here.
It was 4:00 PM, the afternoon light shed through the open windows, reflecting Mizutani's hair. The school was nearly empty, except for a few baseball players that were hanging around just around the gates. Suprisingly, Haru wasn't here- that nuisance, always beside Mizutani, always watching me, never letting me make any moves. I suppose that's only natural, after all- they are dating.
Dating, huh? Its been months since I confessed to her. Somehow, we managed to get past the awkward phase, now she is treating me normally, like a friend. Frankly, I do not know what to feel- I should be happy that we're actually talking, instead of her always avoiding me- but I know that I wanted something more.
And it pains me to see that I could never be more than her friend from cram school.
I took a step towards her. Taking a breath of courage, I walk towards Mizutani and crouched beside her table. She was sleeping, holding a pencil; it seems that she was in the middle of solving an algebra problem. Her fringe was covering her eyes- I swept it back, careful not to wake her. She was obviously tired.
I crouched back, looking at her. I saw details of her that I did not see before- how her hair falls to her shoulders, her plain but porcelain skin, and how her eyes crinkle at the slightest movement. The rhythmic hum of her breathing was soothing. This was her, in all her unseen beauty, she was the one I liked, no, loved- much to her surprise at the moment I confessed.
"But I like Haru."
Love is pitiful thing. When you have love, you yearn for it, you want to have more- but when the time comes that reality comes in and pierces through what you fantasized, you are back to where you came from. As for me, the weight of rejection still looms in my mind. How could I be so affected by her? Loads and loads of questions suddenly flood in my mind, and I decided that it was no use to linger on the subject.
I am satisfied. Right now, just sitting near her, looking at her- listening, makes me feel happy.
I, Yamaguchi 'Yamaken' Kenji, am in love with this unfashionable, naïve, study-bug named Mizutani Shizuku.
A/N:
THIS WAS MY FIRST FANFICTION!
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