This is a one shot.
This is just what Bella thinks after Jacob and Edward leave her in New Moon.
In here, she's conceited and a bitch,
if I do say so myself.
Bella's POV
I don't know why I'm still alive. Something should have killed me by now. Victoria, a werewolf, one of the Cullens, anyone. I don't know why I'm thinking this, it's just what I have been thinking about for a while now. Why am I not dead?
Jacob and Edward left me a long time ago.
Edward said it was for the better, because being around him is like walking on a tight rope on top of the Grand Canyon. So he left and he took his perfect family away with him.
Jacob, though, I don't know why he's being so cold-hearted towards me. Every time I call his house, his father is there just waiting to give me an excuse. "Oh, he's not here right now." "He's still sleeping." Who the hell sleeps at six thirty in the evening, Jake? Certainly not you! I just don't understand what's happening.
You were the one to keep me sane when Edward left. Now that you're avoiding me, I might as well be good as dead.
Sure, I'll miss Charlie, Renee, Angela...but do I really care? No.
I'm selfish. I'm greedy. I'm conceited. I know that and I don't care! No one is here for me. Charlie even wants me to go back to Florida because he thinks I'm depressed from being here. He has no idea it's because of you and Edward.
It must be hard to hear that from me, isn't it, Jacob? Listening to your best friend saying you're basically Edward's equal. You never liked Edward. I knew that. But that didn't stop me from being with him.
Is that why you gave up on me, Jacob? Because you knew how much I loved him? That I still loved him? No. It can't be it. Because you always fought for me. And you fought hard. I kind of liked it, you know, being the center of attention, having the guys fight over me. It made me feel important.
But for what? They're all gone now.
Mike even ditched me for Jessica Stanley. You left me for, I don't know. Edward left me...probably for Tanya.
But you know what? I'm better than this. I'm better than all of you. All of you treat me like shit; making all these fucking assumptions that I must be going insane, out of my mind. I'm not. This is the product of what society has done. You and Edward are apart of society. You made me feel this way.
Yeah.
Fuck you, too, Jacob.