Why don´t you Love Me? - A Selena Support
Dear Nicholas,
as you read i´m not going to be there anymore, not in your life, not in anyones life,
my life´s fading away with the dissapointments in life i recently had.
I´m not saying it´s entirly your fault that slowly my soul, my heart, my desire is fading away,
but the biggest part of my decision i made today is your fault.
Why did I fall for you again?
Why did you put me through that heartache again and again and again?
How could I be so stupid???
Why don´t you love me?
Am I not pretty enough?
Am I not spontaneous enough?
Are my eyes not pretty enough?
Don´t they sparkle like hers?
Aren´t my kisses full of passion enough?
Why am I never enough?
Right, because I´m not her...
I don´t have her deep ocean blue eyes,
the don´t sparkle as bright as hers,
my lips aren´t as soft as hers,
my laugh isn´t as loud as hers,
mine is quiet and reserved,
hers is obnixious and flippy,
but everyone loves it,
she´s crazy in so many ways,
she eats pizza with ketshup,
talks to papparazzi like they´re her friends,
she made so many mistakes,
and yet you still love her more
then you will ever love me...
Why don´t you love me??
I asked myself that question everyday...
till i found the answer...
there is no answer..
i know that i´m somehow pretty,
many boys adore me,
but yet
i´m not good enough,
i´m not pretty enough,
i´m not loud enough,
i´m not crazy enough,
my kisses aren´t enough,
my love isn´t enough,
my carrying isn´t enough,
Why don´t you love me???
I´m giving up,
you´ll never love me like you love her,
i´m giving up,
because if you don´t want me,
who wants me then,
my heart aches for you,
my soul is desiring for you,
my lips want you,
my body aches for you,
but i´ll never completly get you,
because
i´ll never be good enough ….
I´m giving up...
As I write this letter,
i´m planning my final words,
leaving you and my friends and family behind, in the dust,
with the cold, hart memories of us,
with my broken heart,
my broken soul,
my broken me,
I Love You
Please hold me in one of your memories,
atleast in one
Yours Selena
RIP
Selena Marie Gomez
22 Juli 1992 – 26 March 2010
„You´ll always be in our memory"