"Your Clown" By Eiffel 65. The song.
I do not own the song, or the characters.
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Everything was a blur of magic, the smell of herbs and a liquid she didn't really want a name for. Looking up she saw a woman she could only name as Kikyo, her incarnation if everything was to be believed. Looking at Inuyasha she tried not to cry. She felt so foolish, how could she be so blind. She was tired of this love triangle, she was tired of being his fool, she longed for something more.
I don't wanna be your clown again.
No I don't wanna live this triangle.
I don't wanna be your clown now
cause I long to carry on.
I don't wanna be your
I don't wanna be your
I don't wanna be your
After he got over her shattering the jewel they had started to grow closer, even after he revived Kikyo accidently they had grown so close because they all assumed she died. In the beginning they were so close, he seemed to genuinely love her, for her. He called her name so softly, got so jealous of Kouga, and hated it when she left. His arms were strong, and his eyes so sure. But now… Now she could see it was all a lie, a facade for the truth. Why? The question rang on her lips as she stared at the man she once loved. Why did this happen to them?
It started out as her first love, as the one she wanted to share all her secrets, all her fears with but now he says he loves her? He loves this other but still wants her to stay? Was he stupid? Did he think she would fall back into this triangle of pain?
In the beginning you were oh so clear.
It started out as something pure and sincere
but now I see the evil within.
So tell me what's the reason?
In the beginning it was so clean.
Nobody else just love was all it could mean.
But now you tell me that there's somebody else,
but you don't want to leave me.
Kagome Higurashi no lingered wanted to be the foolish girl from the future she had matured, made friends and she no longer needed Inuyasha to survive. She did not want to be the fool any longer, she wanted no part of this longing to be with Inuyasha. No she was releasing herself from this triangle of pain, from his torment. As she longed to find someone to love her, and to be with her. She would not fall for his lie, for his promises, for his apologizes as she had so many times. She had been foolish once but no more, no more, she could carry on.
Staring at Kikyo's mocking face she merely shook her head; she did not long to be Kikyo. To carry the burden of so many responsibilities, she did not care to live her incarnation's life anymore; she was no longer a fool. She longed only to carry on and finish her duties to the past.
But I don't wanna be your clown again.
No I don't wanna live this triangle.
I don't wanna be your clown now,
cause I long to carry on.
No I don't wanna be your clown again.
No I don't wanna live this triangle.
I don't wanna live your life girl,
cause I long to carry on.
She did not want to be his shard detector, his lover, or his mate, sometimes she wondered if she even wanted to be his friend but would always take that thought back. She would always be his friend. She stared at the sky holding her bow tightly, her hair flying about her. "I don't want to be your lover. I don't want to be your shard detector or you Kikyo. I just wanna move on."