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Episode: Penetration (season 12, episode 8)

FBI Agent Dana Lewis

"Dana, on the evening of the rape, when you entered your apartment, what's the first sound you remember hearing?"

The pale white doorway, the 5'11" figure. Instincts combined with federal training immediately kicked in, telling me to hit his weakness.

"An oof when I elbowed him in the rib."

The hit that was too high, the flesh that was around my throat.

"This is while he was choking me. I was aiming for his nuts."

Darkness. Paralyzed. Vulnerable. I'm trained to get out of that situation.

"Did he ever say anything to you?"

"Yeah. He was a talker."

Softness of a mattress below my body that refused to move. My eyelids were uncontrollable, sealed shut.

"And when I came to on the bed, he was chattering on about, you know, sex stuff."

The sound of an unknown male voice.

"What did he say to you?"

"Is this really necessary?"

"Answer the question. What exactly did he say?"

My intact clothes were being pulled at, each button on my blouse being slowly undone.

"He commented on my black lace brassiere."

"What a dirty little slut you are."

His purpose was clearer than crystal meth; he wanted to rape me, and violate me, and humiliate me, and make me pay for something I must've done to piss him off.

"Anything else?"

Ripping off my panties, he continued, "I know you can't move, but I hope you're awake for this." the force of his hand impacted my face, my body unable to so much as flinch at each hit.

"...and cursed at me."

"What happened next?"

Teeth seeped into my breast, pain and humiliation filling me. A stinging sensation covered my cheeks. The sound of a zipper forced me to brace myself, knowing the forced penetration would soon happen.

"Then he...he pulled my jaw open as far as it would go, and I couldn't breathe."

The force, the penetration, the violation, the humiliation was all unstoppable. I couldn't fight or bite; I was exposed and defenseless.

"Do you need a minute?"

I need the memories gone. I need to see Coleman dead.

"No."

"You have a velvet throat." his fingers invaded my insides, my body reacting to the intimacy. "I'm glad you're enjoying yourself." his weight shifted, his body against mine.

"...and his belly slapping against me, and he said-"

"You sure are a star."

He was inside me in the most intimate way, controlling my body and emotions. Tears were the only element I could control, but I wasn't going to give him the satisfaction of knowing he'd broken me.

"And I just..."

My dignity and pride were crushed. My hope was long gone. My body was uncontrollable and my head was screaming to end it all.

"I just wanted to die."

Dana has always been one of my favourite characters, so writing this truly did break my heart. This fanfic was inspired by chapter thirteen of "Empty Room" by JoyfulMariska. The reason I wanted to combine Dana's testimony from "Penetration" (12x08) about her own rape with what I've written was for the sole purpose of showing how destroying sexual assault is. If you can honestly read this chapter and believe it's not an issue in this world and sexual assault is perfectly okay, I hope you rot in a cell for the rest of your days.

Thank you for reading.

~xMeganful