I was just listening to the song and I found it just perfect for a Alice/Jasper/Bella one-shot….hope you will like it…I'm still working on my other story also though….so don't think I've stopped with that one……

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She looked at me with those dazzling eyes of hers. She would never be able to tell me what their original color had been but I didn't care. She was beautiful, my wife, my best friend. She had my affection the moment I met her.

And then there was Bella. She had her own style and smelled delicious. She belonged to Edward and yet she loved me. Well she loved to sleep with me.

I'm not the sort of person who falls in and quickly out of love
but to you, I give my affection, right from the start.
I have a lover who loves me - how could I break such a heart?
Yet still you get my attention.

I was getting tired from my lies. I loved Alice and I knew that I could never leave her; I hated Bella for doing this to me! To her! Yet I couldn't say she was the only one to blame. When she called me or when she dropped by I knew she came for me and she would feel hurt when I pointy wrapped my arm around Alice. Alice was so clueless and so was Edward. We wanted to quit and we had tried but the need to be with her was terrible. My mood would slowly switch from perfectly happy to a thundering hell in seconds. And she was just as miserable.

Why do you come here, when you know I've got troubles enough?
Why do you call me, when you know I can't answer the phone?
Make me lie when I don't want to,
and make someone else some kind of an unknowing fool?
Make me stay when I should not?
If you're so strong then resolve the weakness in me.
Why do you come here, and pretend to be just passing by?
I need to see you - I need to hold you - tightly.

I was having bad day dreams of her finding out. I felt so guilty. Every time she hugged me, kissed me, hell even if she made love to me the hurt of my betrayal would flare up in my chest. I loved her so damn much. How could I do this to her! Yet when I had Bella in my arms. And when we hugged kissed and made love I forgot all that. I loved Alice and I had been with her for so long. I was bound to her, yet Bella was so hard to resist. I was a glutton for bad things apparently. I needed both. The security from Alice, and the thrill from Bella.

Feeling guilty,
worried, waking from tormented sleep
this old love has me bound,
but the new love cuts deep.
If I choose now, I'll lose out;
One of you has to fall...
I need you, and you.

There she was again. Entering the house and asking Alice whether she wanted to go shopping with her next week, but I felt it. I craved those feelings of love and lust after being denied them for so long. Alice, my dear sweet Alice jumped with joy and started to make plans immediately not knowing she was going with the woman that slept with me when there was a chance. The woman I couldn't deny a thing knowing that she held my heart. My torn heart. She held one piece while Alice held the other. I had to lose one piece and I knew which one I should lose. That piece was unavailable. She was married to my brother. Had a daughter and was my wife's best friend. But I felt it. The way she cradled that piece of my heart in her delicate hands. She had it in her possession together with the one of her husband. I could feel her being torn up in the same way as I was.

Why do you come here, when you know I've got troubles enough?
Why do you call me, when you know I can't answer the phone?
make me lie when I don't want to,
And make someone else some kind of an unknowing fool?
You make me stay when I should not?
Are you so strong or is all the weakness in me.
Why do you come here, and pretend to be just passing by?
I need to see you - I need to hold you - tightly.

The thrill and love was there as she wrapped her arms around my neck as I moaned into her mouth. This was wrong on so many levels and yet I didn't care. She gave me the love I craved so much, she gave me a rush of excitement. A piece of peace in my unruly and wild existence. I craved her like nothing else. I was always so strong, but she really was the weakness in me.

I know this isn't the way the story goes and I know that Jasper is happily in love with Alice and bladdy bladdy bla. I know! So if you don't like it don't read it. Criticize my work on things like my style or something not on the plot. BTW the song is the weakness in me, Joan Armatrading