Hello i would just like to say that this story is ''after new moon but before eclipes'' and ''my choice'' put together i had to slpit them up because the ratings had to change half way through and other stuff so i thought it would be better if i just plit the story up into 2 stories but i have changed a few things and now im putting it back to 1 story.

Chapter 1 Sleep

There was no way I was going to sleep. I was happy in a way that Edward offered to stay away tonight to let me think about the resent developments in are relationship but also I felt that I needed him more than ever.

I never thought what it would be like to be proposed too, it never crossed my mind even when I started going out with Edward, that one day he would want to marry me.

I felt bad, I was almost a hundred percent sure that the way Edward would have like to propose to me wouldn't have been after he was going to kill himself because he spent the last twenty-four hours thinking I was dead, then me going to Italy to stop him and then fighting the voltori and when we were safe and back home asking Carlisle to change me into a vampire in a matter of weeks then having a argument with my best friend/werewolf in a forest some where, yer im pretty sure he didn't see that one coming but knowing Edward it would have been something like candles ,roses, down on one knee, during a sunset on the beach in front of his family, with a big diamond ring, so in a way I am glad it happened like it did IF it had to happen at all.

I tried to think of the positives and negatives about getting married to try and help me relax and get some sleep but it didn't work at all in the end after two hours of stress and one panic attack I had to call him… but what could I say "hi Edward can you come over because I cant sleep and by the way I don't want to get married'' no I cant do that.

I really didn't know what the problem was, I think It was just that ever since I was a little girl my mum has always said to me that she has regretted getting married so young and that I should wait but I knew that time wasn't on my side, all I know is that I love Edward and he loves me.

And that's all it took to fall asleep... Edward.

I didn't like waking up because Edward wasn't there, my room felt empty and warm I miss Edwards cool body temperature no I miss Edward. It was Sunday and I knew Charlie would be fishing which made the house feel even emptier I couldn't just sit inside stressing myself out all day I had to talk to him.

I didn't feel like talking to him over the phone so I decided to go to his house and speak to him. I picked up my phone ready to call him to tell him I was coming RING RING! RING RING! No answer.

I started to get worried Edward never forgot his phone and would always answer if he knew it was me calling, but he did say he would give me some time alone but I didn't want to be alone I needed to speak to him, and I knew Alice would see me coming and tell him anyway, which made me more anxious as to why he wasn't answering his phone.

I hated driving to the Cullen's house alone, I always miss the turning but I knew it was important that I speak to Edward so I tried to concentrate. I saw the turning and I was glad that it wasn't late because I would have never seen it in the dark but even though I saw the turning it didn't stop me from nearly hitting a tree. As I was coming up the drive way Alice was standing at the front of the house with a huge smile on her face.

"Bella im so glad you came this is such good news'' I tried to smile and play along I didn't want to say anything till I spoke to Edward. "Alice do you know where Edward is" I saw her face and I knew that she was a little disappointed that I came to see Edward and not her. "He's gone hunting, he thought that you needed some alone time to think things over, Emmett and jasper have gone with him is something wrong?"

I knew if I lied and said I was fine that she would know so I told her the truth... "I need to speak with him its important" and then I realised that I didn't know what I was going to say to him anyway,so I was glad he wasn't there, maybe I am just over reacting, after all Edward didn't want to change me into a vampire and I didn't want to get married so we both didn't want to do things but in the end the things we don't want to do will get us the things we do want.

After a few more seconds I remembered that Alice was still standing there watching me carefully "Alice do you mind if I come in and wait for him to come back, Charlie has gone out and I cant stay in that house on my own for one more minute it is driving me crazy".

naturally Alice loved the idea of spending all day there, she was talking about the wedding before I got in the door, this was going to be a long day maybe this wasn't one of my best ideas.

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