A/N: Just a story I wrote after seeing the new TMNT movie. I edited it a bit after watching the old movies and some old episodes. These are just the sorts of thoughts that go through any persons head at one point or another, but seeing as Donny is my favorite turtle, it's from his perspective. Enjoy!
Sometimes I feel like I'm not needed, like I'm the fall-back of the team. "Oh no! What else can we do? I know! Let's ask Donny. He's smart!" Yep, I'm smart. Such a big deal! I mean, what's the point of being smart if I can't even be consdered the 'brains of the operation?' That's Leo!
So what good am I? Who am I in this family? I know who my brothers are. Leo's the leader, the responsible one; Raph's the rebel; and Mikey's the goof. I guess I'm the 'nerd,' but somehow that doesn't seem to be all of what I am.
And it seems like I've become the 'gadget guy' with all of the machines I've made for the team. I refuse to become entirely the 'gadget guy.' You know, "And when you push this button - POOF! Instant pizza!" Yeah, that would be sooo useful... Actually, I'm pretty sure Mikey would appreciate that...
You know, sometimes I think I'd be better off if I just left. Honestly. I'm sure nothing around here would change if I were gone. jThey'd be fine without me. Heck, I'm not even sure if they'd notice I was gone!
Well, I guess that settles it. I've nothing better to do, so I'll leave.
Wait... what about Splinter? He would be so angry! but... he doesn't know how it feels to be undefined; to be no one. I'm sure he'll learn to deal with it, just like the others.
Well, except for Leo. He would be pretty upset. I mean, I'm the only one that will talk to him about anything intellegent. Raph's too hot-headed to not turn it into an argument and Mikey never takes anything seriously. But, I'm sure he'll find someone else to talk to. He'll be fine.
Actually, Raph might have a problem with me leaving too. It would definitely piss him off, but then, what doesn't? The thing is, I'm the only brother that can calm him down when he's angry. See, Leo is usually who he's angry with, Mikey just makes it worse with his jokes, and Raph never wants to listen to Master Splinter. But, you know, he has Casey to vent to. He'll be fine.
But then there's Mikey. Mikey's the real problem. I can't even count the number of times I've stopped him from inadvertantly killing or otherwise injuring himself. If I leave, who'll keep him from going too far? Leo's always busy and Raph's too wrapped up in his own troubles to even notice Mikey's escapades. And I'm usually the one to have fun with Mikey...
I guess I'll have to stay. I suppose... Maybe I'm needed more than I thought. Maybe it would ruin my family if I were to leave. Maybe - just maybe - I'm part of the glue that holds this team together. Perhaps each of us contributes in our own small ways.
Maybe I am the nerd - the 'gadget guy' - the glue - the heart...
A knock broke Donatello from his thoughts. He looked around to see Leo standing at the door, smiling slightly.
"Hey Donny. What're you up to?"
Donny looked down at the notebook he'd been writing in. The last word was smudged slightly by a teardrop. Hastily, he wiped his eyes. "Nothing," he said, closing the notebook and setting his pen aside. "Just a bit of writing."
"Well, come on, Shakespeare!" Leo said with a laugh. "We've got work to do!"
Donatello stood up and followed his brother. With satisfaction he noted that, for the first time in his life, he was sure of who he was.
A/N: Please review!