Apologies...
My apologies to the world
For being such a klutz,
Who knew pain and heartbreak
Could ever hurt this much.
I am such a disappointment
To everyone I meet,
Cold and distant is the way I am
Yet my true emotions stay hidden deep.
You believe me to be cold and heartless
You don't know how wrong you are,
Darkened shadows in all my dreams
My past is am emotional scar.
Trust you give out willingly
Insisting that we are friends,
I would so much like to believe you
But broken emotions are hard to mend.
I push everyone away from me
Even those who are there to help,
Confusion and worry cloud my mind
These feelings I've never felt.
Unable to comprehend these feelings
I hide myself away again,
Hidden once more my façade
A mask to disguise my pain.
I see you in the distant
A frown across your face,
Features edged with worry
About what you may face.
You walk closer to me
Worried about what you may find,
As I turn and walk away
A Question plagues my mind.
Why do I do this?
To those who seem to care,
For once it seems I'm wanted
So why is life unfair.
I'm sorry for doing this to you again
My regrets for being me,
But I can't change who I am
I'm truly sorry but, I'm all you see.
By: Sammy