This FanFic was inspired by the song Breathe Me by Sia and the suicide scene from abc family's Cyberbu/y.
Disclaimer: The song belongs to the singer Sia, most of the plot belongs the acs family's Cyberbu/y, and all the characters belong to the very talented Richelle Mead.
This takes place after Dimitri is turned back to a damphir, Mason is still dead, and Rose still doesn't know that Abe is her father. They never met in Blood Promise, just pretend that it an enemy of Abe's or something of the sort.
Plz R&R if you guys think I should go on and make a story out of it.
I recommend listening to this song if you haven't heard it before.
Enjoy- Hailie 3
Breathe Me
Help. I have done it agian
I have done it many times before
Hurt myself again today
And the worst part is there's no one else to see who I am
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
And needy, warm me up
And breathe me
Ouch, I have lost myself again
Lost myself, and I am nowhere to be found
I think that I might break
Lost myself again, and I feel unsafe
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Enfold me, I am small
And needy, warm me up
And breath me
RPOV
Love fades. Mine has.
Those words echoed through my head as I ran from the church to my room at guest housing. I started to bawl my eyes out. Lissa has turned on me. She's on Dimitri's side, not mine. I never thought that my supposed sister/best friend would turn her back on me. Everyone's turned on me. Lissa, Dimitri, Christian (being Lissa's boyfriend), Eddie (who has started to blame me for Mason's death), even Adrian who cheated on me.
Nobody loves or cares about me. Everyone's turned their backs on me. My own father didn't love or want me growing up. Neither did my mom. She abandoned me, she didn't want me either.
I suddenly felt numb inside. Then I heard something say, That's right. NO one cares ot loves you anymore. In fact, they never did. Nobody wants you around. Why don't you do them a favor and leave. Permanently. Forever. The voice was right. If they wanted me gone and out of their lives, then I would make sure that they never see me again. I grabbed my laptop and set it up to record. It faced me as I hit record and sat on my bed. I started.
I sighed heavily and shakily. "I don't know why everybody's pushing me away. I don't know what I did, or said wrong. But I get the hint. You don't want me in any of your lives, and that's okay." I was crying heavily now. The voice urged me to go on. I took a few more breaths and continued. "I don't know why everybody hates me so much right now. So I'll make you happy by making your wishes come true. So all I can say is, goodbye." I shrugged and leaned over to hit stop recording. I clicked on all the people who should see this. Lissa, Christian, Eddie, Adrian, my mom, and Dimitri. I emailed the video and closed my laptop. The voice in my head was telling me that it was time. Nobody cared. Nobody will stop me. But the words that really got me to actually pick up the bottle of pills were, Love fades. Mine has.
LPOV
I was talking to Dimitri and his family in Dimitri's room when I got an email from Rose. I lloked over at Dimitri who must have gotten the same alert. I had currently been filling out college applications while Dimitri and his family hugged and got caught up. I went over to sit by Dimitri and opened up the email. It was a video of Rose. And she had been crying. All the Belikovs and I watched and listened as Rose began to talk. Her first to sentences broke my heart. She thought I was pushing her away? As soon as the video was done, everyone had tears running down their faces as we spang into action and ran to Rose's room.
RPOV
I was in my bathroom getting ready to swallow thie pills that would release me from my pain. But I couldn't get the damn cap off. I had to get the cap off. I hadn't realized someone was there until they fought to get the bottle away from me. That someone was Lissa. But I sure as hell refused to give up the bottle. Then the bottle broke and the pills went sailing all over the floor. She ruined them! I got in her face and backed her into a wall screaming, "Look what you did! This is all your fault!" I sobbed and screamed some more. I wanted to die! Why couldn't they let me die!? It's what they wanted.
LPOV
While the Belikovs went for help, I ran to Rose's room. I ran in and Rose grunted, "The damn cap is stuck!" I tried to take the bottle from her but it broke sending the pills all over the place. She got in my face and backed me into a corner screaming. She said this was all my fault. I cried knowing it was true. Just then, everyone was there and Janine grabbed her daughter and pulled Rose to her. Janine dragged a screaming and crying Rose to the ground and ran her hand through Rose's hair, saying that "it's alright, everything is okay, you don't really want to die, shh," to sooth her. Rose was still sobbing but kept repeatedly saying, "I wanna die. Let me die." I can't beleive this was my fault.
DPOV
My family and I were shocked at the scene before us. My family cried silently for Rose. I caused this, I thought. I should never have lied and told Rose that I didn't love her. I still did. I just can't forgive myself for what I did to her in Russia. And now, my Roza wanted to die. She thought everyone wanted her to die. My heart broke and shattered inot a million pieces at the scene before me. This is all my fault. And I needed to fix it.
JPOV
I can't beleive that my daughter, my little girl, just attempted suicide. Why on earth did she think that everyone turned their backs on her. She had Lissa and Eddie. Plus, I thought she was dating the Ivashkov boy. Why would she even think of harming herself and giving up on her life so easily? Especially when Lissa cut herself and Rose was furious.
AbePOV
Janine called me and said that Rose just attempted suicide. I was furious. I'll kill each and every person who drove my baby girl to attempt suicide. She thinks that I never loved her. She probably thinks that I never wanted her, let alone try to be in her life. I did. But Janine said it was for the best if I stayed away. Any other woman and I would have fought back, but Janine was a force to be reckoned with. A force that I didn't want to go up against. Especially, since I knew that she would get her way on this one whether I liked it or not. But I'm done staying away. I grabbed my passport and headed to the airport. I need my baby girl. And she needs me.