Okay guys, this has been edited because much of the stupid material on here did not make sense as it was missing fricken words :/ i'm pissed at myself for writting something so crappy. But here you go. Please review, it makes me update faster.

Here we goo.....

Preview.

BPOV

When I moved to Forks the last thing I expected to do was fall in love. I mean seriously, me Isabella Marie Swan fall in love. But thats not the scariest part, it's who I fell in love with that was scary. Scary in so many different ways. Scary because I dont believe in love. Scary because the person I love is also someone I hate. And scary because he could drop dead at any moment.

Hope. Thats basically all I lived on now. Hope that someone will find a cure for his disease. Hope that he will live another day. And hope that maybe I will fall out of love with him. That sounds crazy right? Out of love? Out of love because I couldnt stand the pain if he died, so maybe if i wasnt in love with him anymore there would be no pain.

But who am I kidding I'm so in love with him that it hurts. So I bet your asking "Well tell us who he is".

Edward. Edward Masen. Thats who. The most beautiful, charming, loving, caring and selfless person in the world. And also the weirdest, and in a way ex-jackass.

So here I am sitting in the hospital with tears running down my cheeks and falling in to my slightly agape lips. The salty taste of my tears was the only sensation that I could feel. I could not hear, I could not see, and I could not feel. I was numb.

It had finally happened. He had really dropped dead . Maybe he will live, maybe I will get to see that beautiful smile of his once again. Maybe. Maybe not.

"Ma'am?" whispered a soft voice. This pulled me out of my thoughts.

"Yes?" I answered as well as I could. You try talking when you've been sobbing for hours.

"Are you of any relation to Edward Masen...Family wise, I mean?" she asked

"I-I well nno bu-" she cut me off before I had even finished. How rude. I didn't care that much at the moment I was to numb to feel any hate towards any person at this moment.

"Then I will have to ask you to leave" she said rather harshly.

"That wouldnt be wise of you to do" I said with no emotion in my voice "Please go tell Cullen of what you intend to do and if he approves then I will leave" I continued.

She stared at me for a moment then spoke.

"But he is in surgery with Edward Masen, I couldnt intrude" she said.

"Okay. I may not be related to edward but I still love him more than anything. He is the light to my day. The music to my notes. He is my world. And here you are asking me to leave. I believe Carlisle might have you fired for that." I spoke still with no emoition in my voice.

She looked taken aback by my little speach but I could care less if I was being rude. She was trying to keep me away from Edward at the time I needed to be with him the most.

"A-as you wish ma'am" she stuttered.

"May I have your name though?" she asked.

"Isabella Marie Swan" I said back wondering what she needed my name for.

She nodded then returned to her desk. I watched her carefully as she frantically picked up the phone.

I couldnt be bothered to find out what this pesky nurse was up to I just sat and wallowed in my pain.

Seconds, hours, minutes I dont know how long later the sounds of police sirens rang loudly. I looked towards the door as my father walked in wearing his full uniform. He walked towards me with a look of pity on his face.

"Bella? Honey? The nurse called and said there was a crazed and sobbing girl sitting in the waiting room for Edward Masen and she was not related in any way. She called the police sweety. What did you do?" he asked cautiously. What a bitch, wonder whats suck up her arse.

"I told her that I was not moving from this hospital so long as Edward is here." I said no change of tone or emotion in my voice. Just the same monotone. He marched back towards the receptionist.

"LOOK LADY! I AM THE CHEIF OF POLICE AND THAT IS MY DAUGHTER OVER THERE! DO NOT BOTHER HER AGAIN!" he screamed. The woman looked like she had just peed her pants. Charlie walked back towards me.

"Bells I gotta go some stupid kids have broken into the La push secondary school. I'm sorry" he said looking guilty that he couldnt be with his daughteter. I just nodded. He stood up and left.

I went back to my thoughts.

Flashback

Edward and I were walking along the boardwalk of Main beach.

The sun was setting and it's lights was spread accross the shimering water.

This was it I was going to confess my feelings for Edward. I loved Him. He was my everything.

We were walking hand in hand, and to any one else we would have just looked like any regular couple. How wrong they were.

"Edward I-I need to tell you something" I whispered.

He looked at me with his beautiful green eyes.

"Whats wrong bella?" he asked his perfect lips spoke. His eyebrows came together with worry. Concern laced in his voice.

"Edward I-I L-Lov-" before I could finish my confession edward dropped to his knees with his hands on his head.

"AAAAAAHHH Bella My head!!!" he was groaning almost screaming. Oh no this couldnt be happening. Not now.

I dropped onto my knees grabbing his arms.

"Edward!Edward!Edward! Listen to me! I"m calling the ambulance, everythings going to be fine!! Okay just stay with me!" I screamed tears already pouring out of my eyes.

Then his screaming and groaning stopped and he fell to the ground unconcious.

"Edward!" I screamiing trying to wake him.

"No no no no no no Wake up" I cried.

The blue and red flashing lights came into view and the next thing i know we are ridding in the back of the ambulance.

He couldnt leve me, i loved him. I needed him.

Flashback end

"Bella?" Carlisles voice pulled me out of my thoughts.

I looked up to see his face. Dark circles outlined underneath his eyes. Tired lines etched across his forehead. But his eyes were the worst, they had a deep sadness to them.

This was bad this was really really bad.

OKAY. so i edited it, it makes a bit more sense. Please excuse the swearing, but seriously being realistic (even thought this story isnt) what adult today doesnt swear? Anyways review, tell me what you think. I'll edit the next chapter so that it makes sense as well. I LOVE YOU