I am so insanely sorry, I haven't updated in effing forever. But I'm updating now, so you guys can forgive me, right? ;D Anywho. This time, I decided to make a songfic with Sixpence none the richer's lovely song 'Breathe your name'. You people have got to hear it. –stares at you blankly- NOW. Now go.

Disclaimer time! I don't own James and Lily Potter/Evans because if I did there would be a lot less 'emo-boy-that-lived' and a lot more 'James and Lily' TIME! WOO! Now…Onward with the story.

Lily Evans and James Potter – Breathe your name.

Do I love him? I let a small sigh from my lips as I asked myself the question that I'd been avoiding for years. 'No. Of course not', I would have told you a few weeks ago. Absolutely no, I would have answered.

Is it all inside my head? Is it all inside my head?
I'll view the list, and take my pick.
I view my faith and make a choice.
'Cause it's nobody else's but mine

It's driving me insane; this feeling of puzzlement, defeat, being lost within my own head. I hate him so much for letting me drown in this confusion, my confusion. Does he not understand how difficult it has become to make this choice? I know I should let it be, let it go. But how can I when he's got me hanging by a string that's wrapped around his finger and attached to my heart?

But you are in my heart, I can feel your beat.
And you move my mind, from behind the wheel.
When I lose control…I can only breathe your name. When I lose control…I can only breathe your name.

He obviously has no idea. His smile, his voice, his face, what they do to me. What they make me feel, what they make me want. But how is that true if I don't even know what I want? How is that even possible? I need to figure it all out. Is it all inside my head? Or is it something real? Something so real.

So many days within this race
I need the truth, I need some grace.
I need the path to find my place.
I need some truth, I need some grace.
The part of you, that's part of me will never die, will never leave.
And it's nobody else's but mine

I wish he knew; I wish I knew why. Why do I feel that every waking moment of my life is being consumed by someone that isn't me? His voice echoes through my mind, his smile takes my thoughts, his utter presence occupies my space. I wish I knew why my life is happier this way. I wish I could understand. Why is it happier when it does not belong to only me?

But you are in my heart, I can feel your beat.
And you move my mind, from behind the wheel.
When I lose control…I can only breathe your name. When I lose control…I can only breathe your name.

When my lips form the words, my body begins to clench with anticipation. When I let my throat breath out the echo of his name, I feel whole, complete. Like something inside of me has reached a self goal. And maybe something has, just by saying his name aloud, I've reached something that I've been yearning for.

'Cause you're in my heart I can feel your beat.
And you move my mind, from behind the wheel.
When I lose control,
I can only breathe your name

I turn towards you, my whole body buzzing with excitement. "James." I utter, my lips tingling with the familiarity of your name. And as your eyes meet mine, I know what I've been feeling. I know why this is so hard to say, so hard to admit. But I have to, have to let you know.

"I love you."

Reviews are absolutely lovely. ~3

-Bella