A/N: I had been thinking about starting this fanfiction for awhile and finally got around to it. Partial credit to Angel Haze for some of the lines in my work and the title of the fic, they're from her spoken word Dear Distance. You should listen to it.
Chapter 1:
I sighed as I opened the envelope, feeling as if my world would shatter if he said he was done, tired of not having me around all the time.
I've been night-less, day-less, restless because all I do is imagine us. His arms securely around my waist, holding me like a grudge, so long and hard against his chest as we lie in the bed that now must feel empty. Remembering the last day before I had to leave against my choice. His usual blazing blue eyes showing nothing but sadness and gloom.
Tears rolling down our cheeks as the day ceased to end, feeling like I'd die before I was a centimeter away from him. I'd never felt so broken before yet so whole. He was half of my being, my soul, my sun. Without him all I had were rainy days and blank notebook pages. As much as I wanted to stay in that bed forever, I had to go. I had to leave him without a hand to hold and love to control. My fingers grazed the edge of the paper and I opened my closed eyes, let out a held breath, unspoken tears fell.
My eyes lead to the top of the paper in his scrawled manuscript.
It read: 'I love you.'
Without thinking, I ran to the kitchen phone and dialed quickly, my heartbeat faster than a hummingbird's wings.
"Hello?" his voice echoed through my ears and I didn't bother to respond formally.
"I love you too," I spoke just above a whisper and I couldn't contain myself anymore. "I hate this distance and I wish it'd go away. I need your lips on mine and our hands intertwined. I need to wake up by your side, not just imagine your voice in my hair as you'd whisper 'good morning.' I need you near... I need you here." I only took a breath before I started up again. "I don't think I'll ever stop loving you, as far as we may be from each other. You're my everything, my only reason to get up and live. Without having you here, I only feel full of fear. I don't want you to get sick of waiting on me and eventually decide to be done but..." A shaky breath escaped my lips. "All I wanted was to let you know that I love you. I still love you."
Silence came from the receiver and I swore he'd hung up.
"Come down this weekend. The guys are going camping. We'll have the house all to ourselves."
I couldn't help but laugh as I wiped the tears from my face.
"I love you so much Beatriz."
"I love you too Darrell."