Summary:
Heartbroken after Dimitri left Rose feels isolated and alone, she turns to her training to help her. But when life turns upside down and Rose is imprisoned and everything she holds near and dear has been taken away, Rose has only one reason to live. Well that's until she realises that Dimitri's out to save her, and will stop at nothing until his Roza is safe in his arms. Set after Shadow Kiss attack didn't happen and Dimitri is dhampire. (Rose isn't imprisoned for treason)
Me and Dimitri cease to exist. Yes you heard right we aren't together anymore, and to be honest it kills me, not that I would let anyone know it of course but the whole world I
knew was gone, just like him. No one to control me (let's be honest no one could anyway, well except him anyway) so shouldn't I be happy? Well I keep telling myself I
should. But I'm not. My emotions are running high all I can think about is him; I haven't been sleeping... or eating and you know when you're so hungry you throw up? Well
that's me I'm puking a lot recently but I just can't face food at the moment and everything reminds me of him. I mean at the moment I'm looking down at my chocolate
glazed donut that should be my breakfast and even THAT reminds me of him, the shiny chocolate glazed coating reminds me of his attractive brown hair they way it reflects
light from the moon, or the way it's so soft to touch, the smell so delicious I just want to eat him there and then, or that it tastes so mouth-watering all I want to do is kiss
him until there's no tomorrow, but then I realise he's gone... an then I puke again, and again, and again until every thought of him in mind and stomach is gone, and that's
how it's been for the last month and a half. Now you may ask gone where? Well to Russia to be transferred closer to home, well that's the excuse he used but I think what
happened in the cabin scared him for days after he avoided me, cancelled practise and avoided contact with me and at the time I thought that was the worst he could do-To
make me feel that lonely when he was in the same room as me. But I was wrong this is. Knowing he's out there with half my heart and never coming back, this is the worst
he could do, I feel so incomplete, lonely, and heartbroken even with the support of my friends (although they don't know why I'm upset, or in fact that I am upset, but being
normal is just what I need right now) and although deep down I know I feel these things I really try not to let it get to me.
And so I try and move on with my life, but that's easier said than done, and anyone who ever tells you otherwise is wrong. Hathaway's always right. But that doesn't mean I
don't try, so this is where I find myself sitting in old St. Valdimirs Academy cafeteria putting on a brave face for my friends, and a Rose bravado for anyone who tries to mess
with me, because although my hearts breaking doesn't mean my reputation has to. "Earth to Rose, anyone home?" Lissa asked giving me an anxious look, pulling me out of
my train of thoughts, now I know I may be fooling almost everyone with my 'Rose act' but one person who knows me inside out, and when something's up, its Lissa, but hey
they don't call us best friends for nothing. "Err... yeah sorry Lissa just zoned out a bit there, you were saying?" Lissa just looked at me with that –don't mess with me look- a
nd said "I know something's up recently and I've tried to give you space, but we are going to be talking later" she said through the bond, which I was quite thankful for
because although Lissa might be seeing through my act Eddie, Christian and Adrian seemed oblivious to my mood swings and so mentioning at the breakfast table would have
defiantly given them something to worry about. So instead of answering Lissa with words and alerting everyone to the fact we were having a silent conversation I gave my
head a small nod to let Lissa know I got the message loud and clear. But right at the moment Adrian turned his head and gave me a knowing look "damn" I thought "I thought
I fooled him to" but it just proved it's a lot harder to fool a spirit user, let alone one that is a friend/stalker, so it looks like I will be having a talk with him later as well then,
but I wasn't going to worry about that, it wouldn't be as bad as the conversation with Lissa, at least he knew I have intense feelings for me ex-mentor. Right then the bell
rung signalling first period, I let out a sigh of relief saved by the bell, the tension at the table was horrible although Eddie and Christian seemed not to notice anything was up,
Lissa and Adrian defiantly did and I was thankful to get away, and so I gave Lissa a quick hug and said bye to everyone, I headed off to my first lesson of the day- Advanced
Guardian combat techniques.
This was always one of my favourite classes, where I could just beat the hell out of anyone and take out my frustration and anger caused by HIM and put it into my moves,
and damn it did work. I was unstoppable and one thing he was right about, it by him 'moving on' (as he put it) I was a hell of a lot better fighter, but for all the wrong
reasons, pain, anger, sadness was all in my moves but also in my heart. I was now currently fighting with a guardian seems no one wanted or allowed me to fight with novices
anymore because the last sparing I had landed them in the infirmary. And they were constantly trying to find guardians to keep up with my advanced learning, so guardians
only often stayed for a few weeks. Which and let me say this guardian –guardian Tarivo- was a first class guardian, which was clearly shown in his fighting. But no one gets
the better of a Hathaway, especially a heart broken one. But damn he was good. We circled each other for what felt like an eternity looking for an opening in the others
defences, but neither of us let up, so eventually went for my gut, which I blocked quickly, but what he didn't expect was for me to kick his legs out from underneath him while
he was going for my gut, which landed him on the floor, but they don't call him good for no reason. He quickly rolled out from in front of me and made a punch for my head
which I couldn't block in time, but it didn't faze me one bit, I was in the zone. I then pretended to fake right, which he was expecting, but he wasn't expecting me to actually
punch right and which lead to him becoming off balance... but that's all I needed I launched myself at him with full weight and we both thudded onto the floor- me on top- but
before he had a chance to do anything I had my hand right over where his heart would be and pronounced him dead- yeah I was badass.
This is the new Rose Hathaway Badass and broken.
Watch out St. Valdimirs because I'm not sparing anyone.